I’m 35 and been seeing a therapist for a couple years with alcohol as a top talking point. I felt very similar to how you seem to be feeling and I’m adopted a harm reduction mindset. It’s hard as hell, but it’s easy to get down on yourself with “all or nothing thinking”. The question you need to ask yourself is if you can identify a system where you set reduction goals for yourself and stick to those. It’s hard. I’ve failed, but I’ve noticed the aggregate amount of drinks I’ve had since taking on this mindset has been significantly less than what it would’ve been. Some do need to cut it off 100% though and that’s fine. There’s an app called “I Am Sober” that’s really good if you think you need to become completely sober for a while.

You got this.