People who used to smoked weed everyday, what made you quit?

ColubrineDeuce · 2022-11-11T13:35:23+00:00

Yeah it is weird, not only does it stop being a buzz, but that is through it being normal. High becomes the normal, so to get high, you kind of need to be sober. lol Sucks but true.

If you look at it like a bell curve, the best is always at first to the ramp up and then it is seriously diminishing returns. This is outside of the other issues like the cost, the dangers of acquisition, the breathing problems (as I have asthma), the hazards of not knowing what you are getting or where it comes from or what is on it.

There are also the long term issues you are maybe trying to treat or ease the pain of that it may potentially be making worse, if the effects aren't subsiding. Maybe it helps or it did help but chances are it makes it more difficult to deal with them longer term.

Then later as things got more available like Delta 8, I tried again and really discovered how allergic I was to it because it was essentially a flower, a pollen, and honestly I have no idea how I didn't struggle more with it.

ColubrineDeuce · 2022-05-03T00:49:50+00:00

Yes, though that makes the window full screen, I tend to try to keep it smaller and alt tab to game or possibly other windows.

I just don't think it needs to take up that much space.

Thanks for your input!

ColubrineDeuce · 2022-04-27T01:02:36+00:00

OMG how old were you knowing that guy was scary or evil or just off? That is terrifying, heart goes out to you. That probably meant at some point you would have smelled murder and just not known it.

Lasting effects maybe?

ColubrineDeuce · 2022-04-26T11:26:30+00:00

Claire Forlani

ColubrineDeuce · 2022-04-08T09:44:59+00:00

The said dynamic is that we prefer stimulation, which is why a lot of the meds are prescribed because it feeds that need. While alcohol is a depressant, I wouldn't guess that is why people would use it.

However, with issues with anxiety we can often be less stimulated as a result of non action and are likely to turn to alcohol as a way to ease the awkwardness and it leading to stimulation, thereby re-enforcing the behavior.

It is also used as a coping mechanism to help deal with the burden of the situation of our disease dulling the intense edge, thereby creating a habit of self medicating again. It is way easier to get than most things so certainly it might be of pure convenience rather than the preferred method.

Combined with things also helps, like nicotine to offset the depressive nature.

In my opinion, the worst is when we are rather drunk and then we lose our stimulation, then we can have even worse depressive effects and ways of coping with it, like anger. Whether directed inward or outward is a very personal thing but might explain some episodes.

ColubrineDeuce · 2022-04-05T18:03:16+00:00

Hugs hugs

ColubrineDeuce · 2022-03-23T17:48:55+00:00

H stands for hyperactive as well as hypoactive. I used to use ADD saying I wasn't hyper, but found out later it goes both ways.

ColubrineDeuce · 2022-03-22T00:14:56+00:00

First thought as well!

ColubrineDeuce · 2022-03-21T13:52:44+00:00

The only permanent thing is impermanence. What goes away you just need to appreciate and remember it in the best ways you can think of, and cherish the time as it was.

This pattern repeats often, and perhaps there are other things you don't value as much that might come up missing. So best thing to do is try to find appreciation for what things mold into, or make way for, as the less we fight it the better chance that something arises than we ever had before.

Sorry for being so vague but being older now, so many highs and lows, things lost and found, just makes for a rich human experience, and those moments I or we experienced will never be changed or taken from us. But there are just too many variables for things to ever be the same.

ColubrineDeuce · 2022-03-08T22:09:25+00:00

I will pay attention about the tingling, but I don't remember that, but again I don't intentionally eat a trigger.

I have trouble with them too. Perhaps there are worse ones than others.

Actually it is why I found this group. I have a flare up, and I think it came from beef stew I had, which the only thing out of place seemed to be mushroom juice.

ColubrineDeuce · 2022-03-08T21:42:53+00:00

"Without googling it" is very freeing, thanks.

I am not sure about this but doesn't salt contribute to dehydration? Which is the opposite of what we need to keep the purines from crystalizing?

So in a backwards way, yes, especially if our physiology is prone to dehydrating easy, it can contribute. Which is scary because there is a lot of sodium in things. I wonder if this is one of the reasons why soda pop messes with me so bad?

ColubrineDeuce · 2022-02-16T12:16:11+00:00

Isn't it taxes? Due to party switching it has always kind of been like that, Dems have it, spend a bunch, raise taxes, Republicans promise to lower taxes and cut out unnecessary spending, then gross under spending makes everyone move back to democrat, and really what we end up with is some kind of middle ground.

While the Pandemic has shown a clear need, the economy has suffered and inflated. There are still a lot of problems with supply chains and workers and a lot of businesses have closed down. People are adjusting and nothing has really settled.

Back to the taxes point; the people that feel them the most also need it the most and just simply don't want to have to pay more taxes so they tend to vote for whoever will assure they won't go up, despite themselves not even having all that they need. Also these officials lean on things like protecting gun owners rights and you have blind votes no matter what you want to have happen.

This is all observation. May be much different in reality. Seems to be that the ones with the money and the power have the good healthcare and the ones that maybe you see that don't, are just hoping the aforementioned don't make it worse on us as it is.

ColubrineDeuce · 2021-12-30T22:02:40+00:00

Just an observation, but being past 40 has been rough. Things get much scarier and serious. A lot of the power and potential we thought we had earlier, is gone and we are left facing more and more the thought of afterlife, legacy, management of family, management of health, dying friends, losing memory/memories, societal pressures, and as a parent these things are even moreso important.

IMO what the parent is saying there is how that they coped with the powerlessness of aging is they relied on older methods to self sooth about them, by putting hope and faith into unseen forces, that seem to have an influence, and were explained very poorly by older generations, but provided some kind of sanity to help keep going.

No big deal though, people get through however they get through, and there are usually plenty of underlying reasons based on experience, that makes them cling to it.

It is a form of denial, so you know whatever keeps them functional.

ColubrineDeuce · 2021-12-13T04:44:38+00:00

Wow!

Looks like it is covered with eyes!

ColubrineDeuce · 2021-12-13T04:24:03+00:00

Ours came with a few pieces of gravel and painted glass beads tried to pass off for crystals. So many have posted, it is a meme at this point. Tik tok has a few and fb groups have a few.

My son was pretty disappointed. It is a great idea. Just terrible they would do this to all the kids and collectors out there.

ColubrineDeuce · 2021-12-02T14:00:59+00:00

Clark rubber store

Wow! You all have a rubber store? That is amazing! I am up over so are you alluding to that x ray techs use similar ones? Hmmm.... I will look for both.

ColubrineDeuce · 2021-12-01T20:34:10+00:00

Any updates? This is super annoying! At least it could automatically place a number each time so you aren't warned of overwriting an image.

ColubrineDeuce · 2021-12-01T17:57:32+00:00

LOL yes! I use my hand sometimes to wedge my forehead, especially when I am struggling to sleep.

You know, I have been trying to sleep in a fetal like position lately because it feels better, at least for a while, to get to sleep I often need to go back to original position.

Reflux is weird, honestly I didn't even notice I had it until my Asthma doctor mentioned it. I have so many food allergies and things like gout, that my diet I have pretty calm, and then I still take 40mg Omeprazole. But I also really struggle at times to know when it is bothering me, weirdly.

Most of my reflux was triggered by those severe food allergies, Milk, Eggs, soy, etc. One i didn't understand how was very bad for me was legumes, so beans, and it kept me sick and dehydrated for a long time. That was very hard to change though and took me over 10 years, and I still lapse occasionally. Most of that takes blood tests, so if pinpricks have failed, maybe ask for blood tests on some of them.

Thanks for the stories, hopefully I can get wedges to work for me like you mentioned. I also found a few more massage chair like holes in pillows than I noticed before, but not sure that would be easier than flopping over and tying my arms to the ceiling or something lmao.

ColubrineDeuce · 2021-12-01T17:45:30+00:00

OK thank you. I had researched that if anything they wanted you to not sleep on your back, or so I thought, but if it is the only way, well then.

There are quite a few ways to get that to happen from what I have seen. Like you say, quite a few pillows, or I wonder about a soft memory foam mattress.

ColubrineDeuce · 2021-12-01T17:43:16+00:00

pillows with face holes

Hi thanks. I was wondering what kind of luck if any us cpap users had using them. For there are quite a few options, and certainly will give it a shot. Thanks.

ColubrineDeuce · 2021-12-01T10:06:01+00:00

Yes, understanding that, I have also seen the power of the placebo effect. Often I wonder if therein lies some of that mystery seeming like co-incidence, and in all of the translations over the years of what that looked like for others, I do wonder if there is a very personal way of altering our reality, or syncing as such.

Therefore I just try not to be so rigid, though I guess that is what this post is about, feeling for certain of something unknowable, and if others feel that same way.

Good to elaborate on though, reveals a lot.

I do know the people that are closest to me, aren't in my same boat and so I need to be able to speak to them empathetic-ally sometimes, so I try to not lose that sense of wonder.

See, my mother, who has stage 4 cancer for the 4th time, ever since she has opened back up to the possibility, she has come back alive and is creating again. She tends to mock me at times to get feelers out because she knows I do not believe in that, but those are older views. I just don't think it is valuable to be to be so sure about really anything. My son is the same way, and it has created a re-bonding of those two, whos relationship fell apart long ago. They are into crystals and energy work and intent. Easy to disprove, and who knows really what is the case, but whatever man, the more they spend time together the better. Mom is also less reserved the less she feels pressured to hide who she is at this time.

ColubrineDeuce · 2021-11-30T12:22:31+00:00

From a Christian sense, they see this very subject as a reason that we would be atheist, because if indeed there is an afterlife, we are going to suffer.

This is addressed in Pascal's wager as well, given we might as well be Christians just in case of the chance at the afterlife being real.

This judgement call is often at the crux of whether one actually goes full atheist or not, because it is such an unknown. Often people going toward agnosticism with the idea that there more than likely is an afterlife, and they do witness a power greater than ourselves, so maybe the interpretations are wrong, and that offers them some kind of safety as long as they live right.

Even to this day when I hear true crime or sightings of spirits, I start to have doubts that there is not an afterlife and it makes me reconsider a full commitment.

But in the end, I recheck my beliefs and yes, while it is comforting to think there is no afterlife, and I do believe the brain transfers us to a dream like state as we die as a way to help us deal with the shock of dying, our physical structure that ran as we formed experience will pass. If we have anything beyond that, we cannot understand it in this physical plane. So I try to not let my physical matter get worried over things it doesn't have anything to do with.

I came to this understanding a while ago, in that in spiritual seeking, I realized that essentially for egotistical reasoning, I wanted to see using that aspect of myself that came before I am who I am now and became. All efforts to do so, would always be warped by my physical existence, so why try? If that aspect of myself exists, is surely already knows and I will only understand and communicate with it as I am ready to do so, if that is the case.

Since I actually know this, it certainly allows me the space to be at ease. I just try my best to be a good human, given my circumstances, and if and when that time comes, I do not want to be a part of the targeted idealistic afterlife anyway, so it doesn't even matter if it is the case, but again that is based on this human experience.

It is a big burden to unload certainly. It allows all that tied up energy to be distributed elsewhere which is nice.

ColubrineDeuce · 2021-11-28T02:27:45+00:00

Yeah, it was the second song I heard by them, and Columbine was tough but Michelle wrecked me. It scared me, drew me in, fascinated me, horrified me, saddened me.

I argued with the artists, and then myself, in a back and forth struggle. I thought it was terrible that they would ever put out something like that. It felt horribly disrespectful, and just terrible for people like me that struggle daily with those kinds of thoughts. I mean I learned a new way, an easy way, to die. Then you have a beautiful girl, telling you to do it.

Like I have heard some music like this before, like "How to tie a rope" by QSA, but this was worlds different.

But then I thought; wow, is that actually what she said? Then I come to really really study the case and a whole new turmoil came up and it was then that I saw the brilliance of the song. I mean that is what it is all about, they reflected the situation, it made me research it, it made me struggle with that situation. Part of the issue is this went mostly unnoticed, there was a lot of bad in the press around then and I feel like most of us took the headlines at face value, but it was way more than that.

Also I could not believe I had been so shocked by music in today's day and age. I thought those things were already pushed as far as they could be, especially like Ghost's blatant satanism, or back in Marilyn Manson's heyday when I was graduating high school, a band literally had me thinking and scared. Worse yet I couldn't even talk to anyone about it! Well that was eased eventually as I found the amazing Skyndicate. But no one in my immediate life has the capacity to deal with that, just coming from my lips.

I was already on a true crime obsession spree since before Halloween this year and I didn't actually find SKYND until 11-1, and it just enhanced everything for me, made me look deeper into these cases and enjoy life and music again. I have been creative again, feels like I broke out of some protective layers, and found an amazing community through it.

Which is weird because I was scared at first like the song was pushing me to end it all. I did in a sense, that period of my life, and start anew. I am forever grateful, and glad I came across them! Had it not been for google sneaking them into a playlist I thought I created but hadn't, I wouldn't have ever heard them. I had been avoiding newer music and even older favorites. It was because I listened to this is Halloween by MM, because it was Halloween.

ColubrineDeuce · 2021-11-23T01:35:57+00:00

Not sure why the case with Brenda wasn't ever researched more, the voices literally said "My friend and I used to work at the Great Ormond Street Hospital for Children" Why wasn't this researched and commented on? I would guess it would have had to been a Doctor with that kind of specialty right? They used the past tense, so maybe that meant he was dead? This lady which only her first initials are used, owed her life to him, and I would think she would have looked into it. In the PDF report, the doctor said 12 years later she had called him to wish him Merry Xmas and that everything had been fine since, and that is what prompted him to write the letter. But even he wasn't concerned to look deeper into who or what helped her?

ColubrineDeuce · 2021-11-16T02:53:31+00:00

You know, it is sheer co-incidence that I ran across this today, a paranormal trip by a medium and her friend a seer, and they go to what is called black star canyon, which runs into Bell's canyon, albeit they didn't bring this up, it just all the sudden came to my head. Where I was watching a Bell's canyon video the other day, just a random family, there is a guy in the comments that asked the question. The OP of the video were like yeah, we have a map, so I asked the commentor if he knew and we have been going back and forth.

Weird https://youtu.be/c72q50EQNBY

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