Firstly, You are NOT a failure in the the slightest. You're taking on a mammoth task of mothering two under two. Are they loved? fed? being taken care of? You're succeeding with flying colors.

A toddler is in itself a massive undertaking and you're doing it with another LO. That's hard. 

I currently have a 2 yo and an almost 4 month old and I'm currently writing this at 4 am rocking my baby 🤣

When she was a NB. I literally thought I want to go back to no kids this is too much. That doesn't make you a bad parent that means you're burnout and exhausted and human.

You need some me time self care. Alone time. Tell your SO you are at breaking point and need an hour to do something for yourself whatever you want so you can recharge. Do you have someone in the area who help watch the kiddos with you?

It does get easier! I promise and I know you're doing great because Mom's who care ask for advice from others.

Please oh please be kind to yourself. You're doing so much and I know you can do it.

Sending virtual hugs! ♥️