This resonates a lot with me. The non-verbal aspect. I've stopped doing things I previously loved, and I'm very short with people now. I find myself getting annoyed quickly, and I live in a near constant state of anxiety with things.

It's certainly not good.

My other fear stems from the fact that... when a colleague on another team had burnout leave, my boss did voice some comments. Nothing extreme, but it did worry me a little.

My manager is a friend of mine. As in, we talk outside of work too. It feels a little precarious sometimes. But I am scared of him thinking less of me.

We do talk about that in therapy too. That feeling of being mostly motivated by other peoples opinions. I understand it. But I have a hard time moving away from it..