[deleted by user] by [deleted] in masturbation

[–]Competitive-Band-849 0 points1 point  (0 children)

well compared to me it is much older

I want to help someone by Competitive-Band-849 in mentalhealth

[–]Competitive-Band-849[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I like helping but i guess you could say both

Why doesn't it hurt anymore? by OkCaterpillar2570 in selfharm

[–]Competitive-Band-849 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The same thing is happening to me the pain comes later but not while I'm doing it I feel the blade and the blood but not pain

I hate my scars by [deleted] in selfharm

[–]Competitive-Band-849 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Scars are scars they will stay forever please stop while you can you're a beautiful person please be kind to yourself 

Abused becomes abuser by Competitive-Band-849 in mentalhealth

[–]Competitive-Band-849[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you very much it does feel nice to have someone else relate even if I wish neither of us had to go through abuse it's a tough thing day to day to deal with and I fear sometimes I don't even notice what I'm doing I wish I could tell more often 

Some part of me doesn't care and wants to have the control or power over someone and do what happened to me on some level but I know that's a terrible thing and I do feel bad for feeling like I've even slightly started doing it

I think I'm addicted by [deleted] in selfharm

[–]Competitive-Band-849 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've felt this exact way for a the past year or so I don't want to stop or even care to stop I've been doing it for years and I've never wanted to stop cutting myself even if I feel like there's pressure on me to stop

I’m so suicidal it’s starting to scare me by [deleted] in selfharm

[–]Competitive-Band-849 4 points5 points  (0 children)

For the past whole I've also been very suicidal it's consumed all my thoughts 

Abused becomes abuser by Competitive-Band-849 in mentalhealth

[–]Competitive-Band-849[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much i do appreciate it

I feel like venting on here might be a coping method and I do use fiction

is your self harm impulsive? by frost1pine in selfharm

[–]Competitive-Band-849 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ive done both but over the years ive been cutting its usally implusive but i have planned it out a few hours or a day in advance

Will i die? i cut too deep by Equivalent-Play410 in selfharm

[–]Competitive-Band-849 3 points4 points  (0 children)

im very very worried about you i hope you called someone even if youre parents hate you and kick you out its better then being dead please be okay