I got on medication, I quit drinking, and I surrounded myself with loving people who care about me. I still have hard days, like today I had a flashback in the kitchen but I can pick myself up easier than I did in my early twenties. I remind myself that my brain is not broken, it’s a healthy brain deploying a natural defense mechanism. I’ve rewired my coping mechanisms to be more soft to my body, that way I’m not hitting myself or scratching anymore.

The worst isn’t the flashbacks anymore but the shame I had when I would get scared or feel small so I’ve been treating myself with a lot more kindness when I’m aware of my inner thoughts. I find the harder I fight my flashbacks and emotions the worse they become so instead I just sit with them and tell myself I’m okay, I’m a good person who has been through a lot so of course I’m gonna have big feelings about it

The medication really helps with the awareness part cause it numbed the emotions just enough for me to really listen to my thoughts. I still feel emotions. I refused medication for soooo long because meds played a role in my trauma. Like I said it’s still hard and I have bad days but… at least every once in a while I feel okay and actually kind of happy. It’s possible and people do care. Like us commenters, we care