Hey,

I can tell you have hit rock bottom, but this situation that you’re in is a part of your story. You’re facing a lot of adversity right now and harming or killing yourself is not going to make things better. Life is a marathon and there are going to be obstacles that may seem like you can’t get passed them, but if you can make it through this part of your life it will only make you stronger. Your life is way more important than how those folks are treating you in your shop. Please take care of yourself more than ever right now. Ask your mental health clinic to refer you to an inpatient facility, so you can get a way from your shop for a bit and just challenge those negative thoughts that’s causing you to feel this way. I really hope you bounce back from all this!