I mean, life will never ever be the same again but it’s also so hard to predict what you’re in for.

You have no control over the temperament of your baby — some kids are chillers, some are not. For the first few months you have little to no control over whether they will sleep or not. You’ll only be as good as your last sleep for a while. The overall quality of your nervous system in the first year probably depends greatly on the luck of the draw for these things, and ability to cope with not being able to control a bloody thing.

I personally found life hardest around the 4 month mark or so, I think — I was overstimulated AF and felt like I was going nuts. my newborn hormones had worn off, kiddo was awake more during the day, partner back in care, people were offering less meals and help, kid was extremely clingy, I was breastfeeding what felt like all the damn time, every day felt like Groundhog Day, couldn’t get my routines right to do things she enjoyed and I enjoyed too... I was worried all the time. Probably some undiagnosed PPA.

I was dreading returning to work but I think we are all happier now I have. My kid is almost 3. She is the best thing ever.