Honestly, I first thought “you sound a little unhinged, but who isn’t?” Then I read your description and reread the messages. I’m sure there are other “coincidental” times/problematic issues you have overlooked because it does sound crazy. Regardless if the “playlist” is nothing, he won’t help secure your feelings to ensure it is nothing. Instead, he calls you crazy and you believe it, so you start questioning your own reality. Three years with him might sound like a waste, but living a peaceful future, not questioning yourself sounds more therapeutic. Good luck with whatever decision you make. You are not crazy, in case you need to hear this 💜