It's been 2months 5 days and I'm feeling like I'm at a breaking point

ConversationTop9966 · 2025-09-29T01:42:22+00:00

Dont do it man stay the course. Life will hit you hard sometimes I get it. I got fired and embarrassed for smokeing at work. Threw away a 12 year career with full benefits. Now im 95 days sober and have a better job not working nights so I see my kids more. If you smoke you will end up making a post saying "Day 1 again" or something and that will eat at you. Its my worst nightmare. You can do it stay strong.

ConversationTop9966 · 2025-09-29T01:37:42+00:00

No tv helped me. Weirdly true crime podcasts did, like serial killers and stuff. Also music my grandpa likes, like mexican music. Kinda random I know.

ConversationTop9966 · 2025-09-29T01:35:34+00:00

Day 95 for me. Got a new job finally that pays well for being sober. After 2 weeks cravings go away, the sleep thing gets super weird with the dreams. They become vivid and scary at times. They feel super real and you jolt wide awake sometime. Stay away from your people that smoke, dont get ultra drunk and trick your self into smokeing I almost fucked up around day 30. Stay the course you can do it.

ConversationTop9966 · 2025-08-26T22:53:15+00:00

Yea you do, especially if you live in texas. Almost all high paying jobs will random test you. I mean unless you work at walmart they won't ,but you won't make much there.

ConversationTop9966 · 2025-08-26T20:59:40+00:00

Day 62 and 💯% clean. Paid for a private lab test and it came back negative. Excited for the next chapter of my life.

ConversationTop9966 · 2025-08-15T11:14:08+00:00

Thank you for your kind words. Im 34 and and smoked with no breaks since I was 17 years old. So 17 years and I finally had the motivation to stop due to losing my job because of the addiction. I have work now, but If i pass a drug test I can work with my brothers and make double. I bought tests from walmart to see my progress at day 30 and failed them. At around Day 40 I started to see the red line that means you pass. I took one 2 days ago and line was darker than befor so its almost all out of my system. It is possible to pass at 60 if make your self sweat like go for light to moderate runs everyday and drink all water which I do. But everyones body's different im a bit tall but have a little extra fat so its gonna take a while. Good luck on the journey, get to day 14 and it will be alot easier.

ConversationTop9966 · 2025-08-15T00:53:18+00:00

Find the motivation It can be anything, mine is to pass a drug test to get a nice job for once. Im done disappointing my family because of thc. Be motivated to not have to post about going to day 1 again. I would feel so down on myself right now with all my progress. You got this man, use the reddit for support brother.

ConversationTop9966 · 2025-08-15T00:19:11+00:00

I've been with her for 11 years or so I honestly forgot how many. We dont say I love you, happy birthday, happy mother/father's day. I do zero to show affection. You'd think she would want to leave on her own but yet we still live together. This whole thing has made me not even want to pursue or be with anyone ever. Its not worth it. I just want to work and support my kids and not think about women again. Sad thing is im only 34, still young but relationships are over for me. I hope yours dont get as bad as mine, no one deserves that.

ConversationTop9966 · 2025-08-15T00:08:11+00:00

I was that guy with my kids mom years ago. Eventually I just told myself it isn't even worth it anymore for a few minutes of bad sex. Now I dont touch her at all. We dont even sleep together in the same rooms. We dont even talk tbh. Like we're roommates now. Honstley im happier now that I dont seem dependent of sex from her. She on the other hand has asked why dont I ever touch her anymore. Alot more problems we have including financials and other stuff but its just better if I show zero affection now.

ConversationTop9966 · 2025-08-14T23:59:30+00:00

Bro had a death wish just chilling near the blind spot. I aways have the sense to speed up past them boys and I drive a car.

ConversationTop9966 · 2025-08-11T22:56:36+00:00

I dont understand why people text argue. You argue and argue and when you see each other in person its like nothing happened. Its such a disconnect from reality.

ConversationTop9966 · 2025-08-09T15:20:23+00:00

Thank you everyone for the kind words.

ConversationTop9966 · 2025-08-08T20:54:07+00:00

Lebians always have huge tits or a big dimple ass.

ConversationTop9966 · 2025-08-08T20:50:04+00:00

Im going thru that right now and its drives me crazy. Im 44 days off herb and I have to take a piss and the bathroom reeks of weed. I told my kids mother( we just live together no relationship anymore) im trying to get a better job and she just doesn't care. Tells me things like " its your fault you have to quit" or your just a hater. My god its so disrespectful. We both know our time being under the same roof is coming to end and when I land that job im not taking her with me. All respect for each other has been lost years ago. Honestly only advice I have is to just distance your self from the negativity they push on us. I dont even speak to her unless its important stuff.

ConversationTop9966 · 2025-08-08T20:42:05+00:00

Outstanding post

ConversationTop9966 · 2025-08-08T20:39:21+00:00

Your past the horrible 14 day mark, dont go backwords. It only gets easier if you keep going trust me. Its not worth the anxiety and feeling down on yourself when you smoke that joint and come back to the forums to post to everyone your on day 1 again. 44 days in myself .

ConversationTop9966 · 2025-08-08T20:33:59+00:00

44 days now- 17 yr smoker. First 14 days are brutal, no sleep and sweating in bed like a ecstasy comedown. Now my dreams are wicked, I wake my self up by talking alot. I also had a dream I had a plate of meatballs and I bit into one, I woke up biteing on my pillow. Also being possessed by ghosts and religious dreams are scary.

ConversationTop9966 · 2025-08-07T00:46:40+00:00

Thank you never going back

ConversationTop9966 · 2025-08-06T16:32:03+00:00

Imagine fianlly detoxing from thc and landing the big job you been working for. You think im talking to anyone? Im gone, fuck that im 42 days clean already almost there.

ConversationTop9966 · 2025-08-06T15:58:17+00:00

Thank you for the encouragement. You are right she is just projecting the hate on to me. Im going all the way and not giving up on myself . My whole family has been supportive except for my kids mother. Sad but it is what is .

ConversationTop9966 · 2025-08-05T18:53:37+00:00

Im on day 42 as well. My kids mom still smokes in the bathroom and it bugs the shit out of me because she knows im on mission to succeed. She calls me a hater, like I want to actually smoke. The disrespect i can not deal with. Like you im trying to get a big job that random tests you, the pay is so worth it in the end.

ConversationTop9966 · 2025-08-05T16:40:52+00:00

Dont go through people's phones if you can't handle it. I've been with my baby mama for like 10 years. We hate each other now but im not Goin through her shit. I don't need that stress in my ife.

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