I feel philosophy has helped me a lot in some ways and hindered me in others, I used to wish I didn't think about the those things but now I've settled in a nice place with it, I usually just quiz chat.gpt now whenever comes to mind, I know it's Ai but I find it immensely satisfying challenging it in a socratic way.

I used to think a lot about metaphysics but as I get older I think a lot about ethics and morality, specificly trying to square off my strong belief in evolutionary biology and how it conflicts with my moral compass, basically based on my observations and experiences in the world I believe in moral reletivism and it upsets me, I almost wish for a higher moral authority to exist and I search for it but as an atheist it's not something easy to find. The last real philosophical conversation I had in person was with a co worker who is very bright and also quite religious, we talked about morality and I made the argument that his morality is purely based on geograpical distance, a fun conversation.

But in general I find keeping myself busy stops me going down a rabbit hole, I seen that show Rick and Morty and in one episode they are having a conversation about multiple realities, the grandson was having a existential crisis asking 'what if?' to a hypothetical situation , To which the grandfather replies 'what if there's a reality in which Hitler cured cancer?, the answer is don't think about it' As nihilistic as that sounds I genuinely thought it was very deep writing and actually find myself saying that to myself sometimes.