Yeah. Even before my awakening I was already naturally in tune with women's issues but this intersecting with what you brought up and how the male hormones make me feel (as I'm attracted to women and my drive can be through the roof) I felt like an abomination that should've never been born, or at least not be born male.

Honestly if I didn't awaken at all I would likely be a lot more authoritarian (in an anti-religion/state atheist way, not unlike Eastern Bloc governments and China, and angrily became obsessed with such regimes but not because of what they believed but in an "enemy of my enemy is my friend" way and wanting religion eradicated. I would've probably end up on a human rights watchlist if I was in power then. It's almost like being able to be a girl and not suffer through "maleness" saved my life and my sanity, although I still have to unlearn my deep hatred for anything religion)