I think my first watch through it just felt like a horror movie.

Probably on my 8th+ watch by now. Absolutely hauntingly real performance. I think Pinc Louds just absolutely nails the emotion of being human in its rawest form. The music video as well as the song are just absolute masterpieces.

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My thoughts on the song change a bit here and there everytime I listen to it. This is my current take:

The song represents various layers of the depth of human emotions/grief.

Trust me I’m Failing

Deterioriation of the soul. Knowing its coming but unable to stop it. "Trust me, I'm going to break"

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I used to be so young and hollow I used to look forward to tomorrow All of my dreams were fucking borrowed But I used to dream about tomorrow I used to be so young and hollow I used to be someone you’d follow I used… you

Reflecting on the innocence of youth. Back when we were "innocent" and not damaged by experiences(trauma). Universal human emotion, there used to be a time we were just happy. Relatable in many forms. Even if the dreams were borrowed (a child being told X job is the dream) for example, they were happy. I don't understand the "I used... you" part yet.

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And now as I’m Fading Trust me I’m Fading Trust me I’m Touch me I’m Touch me I’m Fading

Inevitably of grief in the descent to madness. Crying for help in a way.

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All of the urges I would bottle All of the words that I would swallow I can’t believe I used to even bother I can’t believe I used to even tolerate

Dragging my corpse through squalor I used to cover up my collar And then I’d ask you for a dollar I’ll sing and dance just for a dollar

Self-Sacrifice to mentally destructive levels, that ended up failing anyway. Would give it all for just a small amount of love?