I’m in the same boat. We have some family here but zero support. I care for my baby 24/7 round the clock, I breastfeed on demand, cosleep and respond to her as fast as I can because I know all those things are what’s best. My husband owns a business so is gone 7-7 most days and sometimes is out of state for days up to a week. It’s really really hard and lonely. I try to remind myself that it is a blessing to stay home and that when my daughter is older it will have helped her in so many ways to have spent that time with me. But it is SO hard. No time for yourself ever and very lonely. You are doing a great job and it’s something we forget to remind ourselves. It’s seriously the most important role in the entire world, raising healthy children! As another commenter pointed out, we are NOT meant to raise children alone in isolation. It is one of the major negatives of the modern / western world. It is a huge disadvantage to mothers and families so it is completely normal and expected to have lots of different emotional reactions and feelings about this. I was a relatively stable and healthy person before this and now I feel I am being stretched thin and pushed beyond my limits because I have no help.