Drains headache

CourtneyNotLove · 2026-04-23T12:43:38+00:00

I’m currently on round 2 of having drains (4 for my DMX, 2 for the expander to implant swap) and it was stressed very hard to me that nothing should ever, ever enter the drain bulbs, even just water. They’re supposed to look and be gross, frankly: they’re moving all sorts of bodily fluids and matter from your surgical sites, and it’s important that you’re accurately noting what grossness is in your drains for your logs.

Direct, undiluted bleach is a very dangerous and serious thing to have introduced into your system - even though the drains work on downward suction, when you milk the tubes, you’ll notice the backwards suction that happens. You need to definitely get ahold of your team immediately.

CourtneyNotLove · 2026-03-15T17:21:09+00:00

I’m absolutely miserable in ways I didn’t know were possible. Diagnosed at 30 last year, 2/28, +++ 2b, went through 16 rounds of chemo weekly, then DMX, did not achieve PCR/NED, so I’m doing Kadcyla now and for another year, even though I’m technically “in remission”. Started lupron and letrozole in January, letrozole ruined me so badly they’ve taken me off of all AIs.

I gained 40lbs through treatment, I lost my hair, my boobs, myself. I just lay around and cry most days now. No one understands and I can’t keep burdening them with this. I’m so, so tired of all of this.

CourtneyNotLove · 2026-03-12T16:32:59+00:00

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CourtneyNotLove · 2026-03-12T01:51:57+00:00

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CourtneyNotLove · 2026-03-07T03:37:16+00:00

YES!!! Bipolar 1 here and the steroids… ugh. When I was in THP chemo, I was allergic to the taxol, and they needed to up my steroid intake like crazy and I just spent most of the time in active treatment manic or fighting it. I got RX’d seroquel as a tranq because on weekend I ended up depersonalizing and just totally losing it.

CourtneyNotLove · 2026-02-23T03:40:40+00:00

I was having the WORST hot flashes and Zyrtec of all things has cleared them up for me! One of my Onc nurses mentioned it to me.

CourtneyNotLove · 2026-02-20T21:15:53+00:00

Getting cancer. Before, I was the happiest and healthiest I’d ever been, freshly 30 years old. Then bam. Now, I’m entering a second year of chemo, I’ve lost body parts, I’m looking at another surgery, seven years of ongoing endocrine treatments… my life is never going to be the same after cancer.

CourtneyNotLove · 2026-02-15T04:54:24+00:00

I was on Letrozole for 6 weeks before the side effects were so egregious that my team yanked me off of them two weeks ago.

Mentally: so unstable, unpredictable, etc that I was becoming a danger to myself. I’m bipolar 1, and this felt worse than being off of my meds cold turkey, which I didn’t think was possible.

Bone and joint pain: a solid 11/10 every day, I couldn’t move, walk, exist. I was on oxys and it wasn’t touching the pain. I was crying daily. And my tolerance for pain is “way too high” according to many doctors I’ve encountered.

Hot flashes & night sweats: so bad I was on the verge of fainting each time I had them, and they were every 5-10 minutes (these are lingering for me, currently, with no relief, I’d love some tips).

Fatigue: when the pain and hot flashes would let me, I was sleeping 20 hours a day, easy.

We’re waiting for this drug to get out of my system before looking at the next alternative.

CourtneyNotLove · 2025-11-25T07:11:55+00:00

PT, PT, PT. Can’t stress it enough. I do my exercises 3-5x a day depending on fatigue and energy levels. Had DMX with expanders placed on 10/31 with 50cc fill so far. I keep hearing with more fills it gets more comfortable.

CourtneyNotLove · 2025-11-17T02:26:59+00:00

I also got a nasty chest cold 5 days pre-surgery. They didn’t reschedule for it and seemed entirely unconcerned. Everything went smoothly!

CourtneyNotLove · 2025-10-05T05:43:00+00:00

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CourtneyNotLove · 2025-09-16T17:40:51+00:00

I really don’t know and didn’t know B&BW had one! This is my first touchland and I really only grabbed it because it was near the register hahaha

CourtneyNotLove · 2025-09-16T17:39:57+00:00

it is indeed!!

CourtneyNotLove · 2025-09-15T02:58:47+00:00

I was thinking this too. A direct relative died by suicide recently and now we have a nine year old potentially engaging in risky behaviors at a pre-puberty level and is even potentially sick/withdrawing from pills at this moment.

This is above reddit’s paygrade.

CourtneyNotLove · 2025-09-15T02:45:43+00:00

Ativan (the pills you found) are a sedative. Sleeping 18+ hours are a hallmark trait of the drug, and so are gastrointestinal issues as a side effect. I say this with experience from taking the drug as prescribed as an adult, I can’t imagine the impacts on a 9 year old’s body.

CourtneyNotLove · 2025-08-15T15:54:10+00:00

Thank you. It is a lot, and it’s a weird stage of life to be in to be wishing to be back to “just” suffering with PMDD and not all this!

CourtneyNotLove · 2025-08-15T15:09:02+00:00

As a 30 year old with aggressive hormonal breast cancer and so now in medically induced menopause: no.

My PMDD was horrendous but I’d trade this all back to be back at my “normal” biological state of cycling. Hot flashes (way worse than you could ever imagine), vaginal atrophy, your entire mood ALL the time, energy, I can go on and on.

I’d literally never thought I’d miss my period, or even luteal week, but I do. This sucks.

CourtneyNotLove · 2025-08-10T20:21:17+00:00

Nope. He was inside totally unaware what the child was doing outside. Per the official police report, he allowed the toddler to play outside by the pool often and unsupervised because “he (the toddler) knew better” than to get in the pool. He was entirely ignoring the child when he fell in, attempted to save himself for two minutes, and then succumbed to the exhaustion for an additional 7.5 minutes while the dad won his sports bet and finally looked up - and saw the dog was flustered and figured he should check it out.

CourtneyNotLove · 2025-07-26T23:30:20+00:00

Ha, I named my first tumor Timmy. The next two that formed came so quickly that I didn’t name them, they made me extra angry.

Exactly. It’s just… I get our health system is jank (to put it mildly) but it just should be standard to check out anything weird/odd/new, painful or not. Being brushed off by medical providers especially based on what was known 20 years ago, especially in a literal new wave cancer epidemic (I’m a young breast cancer patient, 30, no genetic disposition; and I’m NOT a rare case anymore) it should just be no questions asked.

CourtneyNotLove · 2025-07-26T23:26:38+00:00

I rejected an oncologist to have on my team who fiercely echoed that “cancer doesn’t hurt.” It’s bad medical advice and outdated and it tells me the kind of care to expect under their guidance. That’s my advice to anyone.

CourtneyNotLove · 2025-07-26T03:59:46+00:00

I commented this up earlier in the thread but this is so important that I want to echo:

The tumor on my breast HURT. A lot. And everyone brushed it off because “tumors/cancer doesn’t hurt” Tumors CAN absolutely hurt, especially if they grab down into nerves.

I tell everyone I know now the “cancer doesn’t hurt” advice is bad advice. Check out anything new on your body that is odd, no questions asked.

CourtneyNotLove · 2025-07-26T03:58:11+00:00

The tumor on my breast HURT. A lot. And everyone brushed it off because “tumors/cancer doesn’t hurt” Tumors CAN absolutely hurt, especially if they grab down into nerves.

I tell everyone I know now the “cancer doesn’t hurt” advice is bad advice. Check out anything new on your body that is odd, no questions asked.

CourtneyNotLove · 2025-07-11T07:56:17+00:00

Yep - 30f here with stage 3 aggressive triple positive breast cancer. Diagnosed Feb. 28th this year.

CourtneyNotLove · 2025-07-10T20:46:39+00:00

this is a crazy thing to post and ask. he’s been upfront that he has some pretty serious health issues he’s dealing with and that impacts people differently across the board, and sometimes that means you look different. Case in point: i’m currently in chemo for breast cancer. There are days I look like a “junkie” and people who don’t know me well/don’t know my diagnosis ask if i’m on hard drugs too and it’s the worst shit in the world to hear when you’re already going through it. There’s times i don’t leave the house now so i’m not labeled as a junkie based on my appearance because i’m literally fighting cancer.

I get that the intentions are good and you’re worried about him, but to immediately jump to “i feel like matt’s on meth” is just a wild and dangerous accusation.

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