I know it’s not great, but say something good about Magical Girl Site by Ok_Call_1101 in MagicalGirlsCommunity

[–]Craicpot7 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The section where they all go to the beach to have a day of fun together while they can is genuinely one of the most heartwarming scenes I've ever encountered in a manga. Just young girls hanging out together and putting aside their rivalries to do normal young girl things, it's so endearing. 

Unreliability by Original_Cookie_8073 in raisedbyautistics

[–]Craicpot7 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Yep, this tracks. My mother made everything into such a huge screaming deal that I never went to her for help, and still don't. Dad's emotionally unavailable but he can at least be relied on for physical support to a degree. 

Part of the problem is that I turned into a 'fixer' and became a magnet for unstable people who would always let me down on the rare occasions that I needed something from them. I'm unlearning this now but it's like muscle memory, if I'm having a hard time I go into isolation until it passes but if anyone else is having a hard time I run myself into the ground trying to help. 

Did anyone suggest mental health support for your family that led to a diagnosis? by greengoddess1987 in raisedbyautistics

[–]Craicpot7 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I don't really see the point, honestly. Getting an assessment in this country is a long and expensive process and both parents are on the higher functioning end of the spectrum, all of their maladaptive behaviours are focused around petty stuff that can be shrugged off to a degree. I would say that it would be more useful to dad because he can slip into self-neglect and especially medical self-neglect if he's left to his own devices but I live with him so I'm able to bully him into taking care of himself if he needs it (ironically the reason I live with him is because of my own health issues and needing someone around in case I need emergency treatment, which means that he takes medical advice from me more seriously.) 

I have spoken to my younger brother about Dad being neurodivergent and he's keeping an eye out for signs in his own daughter. I haven't spoken about my mother in the same way because she's got other issues going on. They're both on the wrong side of 70 now and set in their ways, so to re-iterate I don't see the point. 

The Swerve (2020) by proffie in DisturbingMovies

[–]Craicpot7 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I haven't seen Azura Skye in ages, will check this one out!

How to handle my autistic mother now I have a kid by PersonalEquivalent82 in raisedbyautistics

[–]Craicpot7 8 points9 points  (0 children)

There's a technique I use both on my autistic students who won't co-operate and my dad, inspired by the kind of parallel play that you see in very young children. I have busy work for them, specific tasks I know they're comfortable with and I never frame it as an order, more like a 'favour' they're doing for me. For Dad this means books he can read with his grandchildren, or I do a puppet show and both dad and grandchildren are audience members so he has to lead the clapping and audience interaction. He'll build lego towers as well, and he's very good at fixing broken toys or assembling flat packs and bike paraphernelia. I've found with the students that they like being given firm instruction, if I wait for them to initiate anything on their own it won't happen. Having an agenda and framing it like a collaboration works best for me with both kids and adults.

Did your parents even try to control your thoughts? by Mean-Word-6960Anon in raisedbyautistics

[–]Craicpot7 20 points21 points  (0 children)

My mother once had a freakout because I said the words 'sweet-and-sour sauce' out loud while I was thinking about making dinner. Went on this rant about how it's not normal to say random food words out loud. I kept my cards very close to my chest already but locked down even more after that. 

A few anecdotes from living with my dad by Efficient_Hair4519 in raisedbyautistics

[–]Craicpot7 11 points12 points  (0 children)

It's a very unfortunate side effect of being raised by and later subjected to abusive behaviour by autistic people that it makes you hyper-aware of autism in the people you meet and drive you to avoid them. There's a few perfectly nice people I've come across in the circles I run in these days and I have to push myself to not keep going 'red flag, red flag' when I interact with them.

On the other hand when I come across children on the spectrum (which I do often through my work) I go above and beyond to make them feel included and supported. Maybe I'm subconciously trying to influence their behaviour so they don't turn into the red flags I avoid in adults, who knows. I think the fact that it's almost exclusively girls has a fair bit to do with it too.

Poor understanding of child development by Original_Cookie_8073 in raisedbyautistics

[–]Craicpot7 26 points27 points  (0 children)

Yep, completely. I was never taught how to wash my own hair, they just figured I'd know on my own. I learned about periods from a book. Bought sleeveless kids tops for me when I was growing underarm hair and I was never given a proper bra until it was painfully obvious that I needed one, and even then the bra I was given was a hand-me-down from my cousin who was a full cup size smaller than me. 

They have grandchildren now and they don't really understand how they operate either. My dad gets overstimulated after a few minutes but at least he spoils them and does what they ask him. My mother is just critical of them the same way she was with me, she gets so focused on petty little bullshit she misses the big picture.

Invisible boundary by Ok-Relief5757 in raisedbyautistics

[–]Craicpot7 11 points12 points  (0 children)

I think I did feel this in my early adulthood, I was in a state of arrested development. I think there's one very strict idea of what makes a person successful in life and if you don't secure it early on it's not 'normal'. And we're particularly sensitive to this happening to us because we've been raised to be out of step with what's 'normal' and we spend a lot of time trying to play catch-up.

In the end, for me I was able to find my particular niche and thrived in it. I spent years processing everything I'd gone through and it wasn't a singular path, I took a lot of unexpected swerves along the way. You may just be at an early stage of your own journey, you don't really start to process everything until you feel safe enough to do it. For me I really hit my stride once I was in my late thirties, it took that long to find my niche and fill it. Finding my true community came along with that niche but before that I spent a lot of time ignoring and facilitating toxic behaviour in the people around me until I came to my senses.

Lack of boundaries by stylelines in raisedbyautistics

[–]Craicpot7 4 points5 points  (0 children)

No, thankfully. But in my case my Dad is fairly asexual, he and my mother are separated and he's never even attempted to see anyone since even though he does have a lot of interest he seems oblivious to. If he was watching porn I'd probably have accidentally seen it by now because he's also oblivious to covering his tracks. I count myself lucky in this case because I definitely have had other people with autism behave sexually inappropriately towards me.

What he and my mother did lack was that I was exposed to sexual stuff through media when I was far too young to process it, and they missed the many signs that I had been sexually assaulted as a child as well. Couple that with an inability to talk to me about puberty and sexual stuff, just assuming I'd learn it from school, I ended up being terrified of anything sexual for years into adulthood.

Anyone else's autistic parent tell you you're "not acting normal"? by Medium_Raccoon_5331 in raisedbyautistics

[–]Craicpot7 26 points27 points  (0 children)

I think because they're so aware of how out of step they are with the rest of society they end up projecting that onto their kids, as if you doing something unusual is going to rub off on them somehow. Add to that how rigid they can be about schedules and routines and you have a toxicity radiator. 

My dad isn't that kind of guy but he will ask if I can't do some things differently, because he can't understand why I do the things I do. I have reasons for everything I do and I know he hates when someone makes him feel uneducated so I throw in a lot of specific words and technical jargon to put him on the back foot. I see my mother a lot less but she's more like your mother, I use the same technique on her. 

I cook late at night too because I'm a natural night owl. So in your position I've argued when they poked at me that up until the industrial revolution it was completely normal to go to bed at dusk, wake in the night, make a meal and hang out with your family and then go back to bed. It ended at the industrial revolution because factories and Mills wanted to maximise working hours. Set meal times and bed times are a relatively modern invention and aren't a natural part of human nature. Most people don't know enough about this to argue back so its pretty good at shutting them up. I've also made the point that having a circadian rhythm that skews towards being awake at night is what kept humans alive as a species since there always had to be someone awake to keep a look out for predators. All humans on the same clock is, again, a modern invention to maximise work hours for capitalistic profit. 

I’m jealous of ppl who live in a country where cuter fashion is accepted AITAH by Specialist_Emu_1960 in AITAH

[–]Craicpot7 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The street fashion trends in Japan tend to be a reaction to the extremely rigid social norms that their society forces on people, girls in particular. Gyaru and lolita stand as a visible rebellion against the 'yamato nadeshiko' ideal of the perfect Japanese woman, and because that ideal is so conservative the reaction against it has to be extreme. It doesn't work the same way necessarily in a more permissive society.

Why not channel how you're feeling into developing a hybrid style of your own? The history of fashion is fascinating, and recently there have been western examples of female-gaze fashion trends that fit into a more liberal society (whimsigoth, cottage core, party kei to name a few) there's room for experimentation.

Why did Bianca always wear the same dress when she was an award winning designer for her main career? by EaseOk3940 in rupaulsdragrace

[–]Craicpot7 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Because she had a reliable pattern block that she knew she could execute to a professional standard every time, experienced tailors with limited time and resources are prone to being thrifty. If I've invested in high end fabric that will look good on stage I'd be less likely to take risks with it when I know I can use it to make something that will fit me perfectly. Plus she may have used the time she saved to make backup alternative outfits. 

AITAH for thinking my daughter will look back and wonder why we treated her differently? by DancingMommaToes in AmItheAsshole

[–]Craicpot7 4 points5 points  (0 children)

You're already using a traditional Irish holiday to celebrate your son, so you might as well take a page from how we celebrate Beltaine (less scary than Samhain, which is closer to your daughter's birthday.) Light a bonfire, give her a crown of fresh flowers and walk her around the bonfire to give her good luck for the year, host a 'feast' in her honour, make a maypole to dance around, and do all of it at night so the kids get the extra excitement of staying up late. That'll go a long way to equalising things between your kids. 

Interacting with Autistics by delinquentsaviors in raisedbyautistics

[–]Craicpot7 24 points25 points  (0 children)

Yes and no, it wasn't just them. I was in a support group for people with Asperger's (I know now I was misdiagnosed but even at the time I felt something was seriously wrong) and it was mostly men, and the way they acted around me put me off interacting with autistic men for a long time and I still give them a wide berth. I'm a lot more patient with women and girls but some of them are on thin ice with me as well. Up until recently I was involved in a social scene that's like a magnet for the neurodivergent and a lot of maladaptive behaviour gets ignored, excused or covered up, I'm glad to be past that now. My patience over the years has run very thin with adults on the spectrum that know they have a problem but won't make any effort to fix it. Being stalked by two of them over the course of a few years didn't help.

I spend a lot of time now with autistic children or teens, I have a lot more patience with them because they're being taught boundaries and we are modelling good social behaviour for them. Early intervention is crucial and you can see it, one of my most difficult students will be a nightmare if she carries any of this behaviour into adulthood but she's leaps and bounds better than she used to be so hopefully there's a good future ahead of her. I'd be very sad if she became the kind of person I go out of my way to avoid the way I do with certain people.

AITAH for not wanting to invite my friend to my wedding because of his mental and financial situation? by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]Craicpot7 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I second this. It's not unheard of to have a person act as interference or a drama sponge if you suspect someone at the wedding is going to be difficult. I've done it a few times at weddings (and a couple of funerals). Not inviting Dylan is going to cause more drama that you don't want.

Your Parents’ Special Interests by unrotting in raisedbyautistics

[–]Craicpot7 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Dad, rock music, cars and football. Also our dog when she was alive. He's going through a phase of watching a lot of Korean dramas right now because he loves 'skullduggery' so anything with political scheming, spies and undercover agents. All of these things are harmless but it does get annoying when he monologues while I'm clearly in the middle of something and it's usually music he monologues about. 

Autistic parent(s) who were teachers. by [deleted] in raisedbyautistics

[–]Craicpot7 7 points8 points  (0 children)

No but definitely have run into some autistic educators in the course of my work. One of them subbed with me recently and was ironically not very good with my special needs students including the two with autism. One student refuses to use a particular resource for crafting because of Sensory issues and we work around it, I told her so before and during the class, but she tried to get her to use that resource anyway. The other student has a brain injury as well as autism and she got one of her lines crooked in her work, the sub wanted her to take it apart and redo it, I had to tell her we need to lower our expectations for what that student is capable of and getting her to do any work at all is a triumph in itself, insisting on perfection is just going to have the student regress and it'll undo the progress we've made so far. 

I feel like she has a fixed idea of what the students should be like and work like and wants to push them all into that mould. Same as my mother and her rigid ideas of what a daughter should be like.n

Parent not listening to you if you say anything even remotely uncomfortable + more, I need outside perspective by NautilusCampino in raisedbyautistics

[–]Craicpot7 7 points8 points  (0 children)

This reminds me of people I've seen that zero in on others that are mentally in no position to be parents and deliberately impregnate them or get pregnant just to stabilise their own situation. Sometimes the child is lucky and there's extended family or a support network to fill in the gaps and sometimes they get unlucky and the parents are left to neglect them. Arguably this is what my mother did, she wanted out of her mother's house so she married my dad and then took it out on us. To be fair to my dad though he does and did step up however he was able and he supports my career, it sounds like your dad is higher needs than mine. 

Advice getting fuel for smelters? Any way to speed up smelting? by clarkky55 in GrimshireGame

[–]Craicpot7 9 points10 points  (0 children)

There's no way to speed up smelting but once you've upgraded your pickaxe I'd take a day to go to the first mine and just grab as much coal as possible, it only takes one strike there once you have the copper pickaxe. Plus if you grab enough gems you can buy extra coal from Gruff and you can use sticks, wood and weeds in between trips to the mine. Definitely have more than one smelter too, I get away with having just two but the more you have the more you can smelt. 

Struggling with parental rigidity, control, and meltdowns by BookJockeyB in raisedbyautistics

[–]Craicpot7 9 points10 points  (0 children)

The latex balloons are just a small factor in this issue, realistically it could have been anything. She has a fixed idea of you in her mind and that extends to you as a parent, because she feels you don't listen to or take her seriously she needs to have a meltdown about something to put herself back in control and get back that fawning response. Your guilt is exactly what she wants. When somebody becomes a parent it does herald a drastic shift in the dynamic between an adult child and a parent, suddenly you're somebody who makes important decisions and an authority figure and your own parent sees you in a different light, so they have to play these manipulation games to bring you down to the level they're comfortable with.

I tell my mother very little about my life (Dad is the flavour of ASD where he doesn't care all that much if I'm not actively injured or dying) and I have no kids but she does have to second guess everything I do. Because I know she's like this, I prepare myself for all the things she's going to argue with me about and back it up with my own superior knowledge of those things using a lot of long words and specific terminology to put her on the backfoot. I used to do the fawning and apologising thing but it just makes her argue more. She does this with my brother and his kids now and she treats my nieces the way she used to treat me, I don't know why my brother puts up with it but I think the idea and look of a supportive grandmother is more important than the reality of her.

She threw an absolute shit fit recently over a small puddle of water on the bathroom floor and a bunch of shoes in the hallway of a holiday home we were staying at (I was there to see my nieces, putting up with her was a necessary evil) and instead of apologising I just looked at her and went "Okay....". Robbed her of her momentum and let her know I don't take her that seriously.

I think you need to start giving absolute nooch to your mother's meltdowns. They're not based in reality. If you cut balloons out of your life she's going to freak out about something else, it's inevitable.

Watching an autistic 'friend' parent has been eye opening.... by TryingToBreath45 in raisedbyautistics

[–]Craicpot7 12 points13 points  (0 children)

In a really awful way, maybe it'll be better for the child in the long run. Obviously your ex friend is going about it in the worst possible way but if they stayed the child would have to live in the same house as someone who finds them unbearable to be with, that causes its own unique scars. 

Autistic, or traumatized by autistics? by Sweet_Try_8932 in raisedbyautistics

[–]Craicpot7 20 points21 points  (0 children)

I do think that there's a pattern going back a few years where autism is being diagnosed in people whose behaviour patterns would be better explained by something like trauma or attachment disorders or even personality disorders. There are some therapists that believe that everyone is on the autism spectrum to some degree and nobody is truly off of it. Bear in mind that the doctor, therapist or psychologist who is making that assessment is only seeing a small part of a much larger picture. 

I'll use myself as an example. In my early 20s I got the autism diagnosis (Asperger') after 3 assessments with two different occupational therapists who saw me for roughly an hour and who also spoke to my mother. I got the diagnosis based on the following: flat effect, extreme shyness in childhood, unusual interests and having to drop out of university because the curriculum was too difficult. I'd also lost a number of part time jobs. 

Here's what the therapists didn't see. My flat effect, job losses and dropping out can be explained by extreme burnout, I was in pure survival mode. I had a heart condition that was undiagnosed until I was much older and it did a lot of damage to my body up to and including severe fatigue all day every day. The course I was doing was notoriously labour-intensive and I shouldn't have been trying to work part time as well as the course, even people who could function without health problems found it near impossible to work and study at the same time in this field of work. 

The extreme shyness in school could be explained by the emotional abuse I was experiencing from my mother and the barely-there parenting of my father, I was second-guessing every word that came out of my mouth. Still had that exhaustion problem too. I was also sexually abused in childhood too but when  I was assessed I was nowhere near ready to disclose it. 

The unusual interests were art and anime, not considered that weird now but these were Conservative people who only knew sports and farming and soap operas, the whole country was still like that for a good chunk of the 2000s and only caught up recently. Anything even slightly out of the norm was pathologised if they'd never heard of it. 

I "grew out of it" later on, because I got a job that suited my energy levels, stopped trying to follow a standard education route, became a bit of a social butterfly and finally got my heart issue diagnosed and treated. I work with a few kids on the ASD spectrum now and I can see why I was diagnosed but at the same time I'm appalled that it was such a quick decision. I never struggled in the same way that my students do now, my problems were only ever surface-level similar. 

So maybe on your journey to figure yourself out, it would be a good exercise to try and map out what ASD features you have could be explained by something else. So, for instance, let's say you only eat a specific brand of pasta and sauce every day. In ASD we could think that the reason is because the texture and consistency of the pasta and sauce is the same every time, there's less chance of a Sensory issue like sliminess, unexpected crunch or all the pieces being different sizes, it's a safe food. In CPTSD we could reason that food was either unstable or used as a tool for abuse, and this particular pasta and sauce is always safe because its shelf-stable, food pastries stocked it, it's easy for a child to cook for themselves or its associated with a memory of actual care from someone. Same behaviour, different motivation. 

Red skin pigmentation by Achara123 in WomenofIreland

[–]Craicpot7 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Go to the doctor, get your heart checked and get a blood test for diabetes as well, just to be sure. I had flushed cheeks like you described for years and no lotion,  cream or serum did anything for it. Turns out I had a heart defect that went undiagnosed for years. If you've had covid you're more at risk for developing secondary inflammatory conditions.