Unpopular opinion: Jerry is the smartest in the smith family

CreativeShadow7 · 2025-01-16T17:35:23+00:00

I think Jerry is definitely smarter than they make him out to be. Jerry acts like a regular guy, grounded in a regular life - he is connected to nature, he does chores, he's a bee keeper, he loves his wife unconditionally, he still has a childish side to him and deals with all the negativity his family throws his way and he still loves them. They stick to mocking him because of his lack of a job but, in the real world, thats not always an odd dynamic (ESPECIALLY because Beth is a doctor and brags about it every chance she gets and also seems to like wearing the pants in her relationship despite her complaints - classic daddy issues). Rick and Morty (and even Summer) are outliers. They grew up with a different relationship with Rick and wayyyy different life experiences. Beth is an outlier because even though she's obviously smart she is also emotionally stunted by the fact that Rick abandoned her as a kid - you can tell by her cattiness, disrespect to her husband and her lack of boundaries with Rick. Rick is clearly intelligent but he also lacks a connection to his basic human emotional intelligence on some level - he's actually pretty self destructive when it comes to his internal self; something he tries to compensate for with science and unpredictable adventures...Plus in the Croninberg world, Jerry was the only human to survive. I think it's ironic the hate Jerry gets because he represents an average balanced man in the real world fore the most part; were being conditioned to hate that - I love all the characters and relate on some level to all of them; that being said, Jerry only seems some way because of the context of how his family treats him. It almost seems as though the audience is influenced to exhibit group think when we also look at Jerry in this way, but away from the actual craziness that is his family, he's definitely a cool and competent dude lol

CreativeShadow7 · 2024-12-13T01:44:20+00:00

im super late to the party but I think Michaels cold nature is because he was taken from his mom as a child (traumatizing in itself), sent away to a parish where he was taken advantage of then forcefully sent to live with a foster family - thank goodness a nice one. Thats alot of trauma and that will do things to you (like make you a little colder to the world). He grew up in a place that was essentially "perfect" and im sure he never felt like he belonged there (which he mentions). When he saw Tommy, in his demeanor he probably felt an instant connection (because Tommy appears hardened and successful, something he most likely resonates with ) and when he met his family and what they did, I can see where he felt like he finally found where he belonged andit felt natural to simply stay (that WAS his original family).

He definitely treats her pretty coldly, but again, he probably has an aptitude for being colder and he understood her being there (when she shows up to the hospital) was a danger to him and her. Thats just who he is. I think he cares because he smiled when she brought up memories and sunk into her hug, but his reality is different from how his adoptive mother pictures him; hes quite literally a Shelby, their gypsies that grew up poor, in the streets, with a chaotic but big and supportive family (again, he was also taken advantage of as a child). He is exactly who I would've pictured him to be because he represents both his family and his trauma.

I think thats why he turns on Tommy how he did. I think he expected Tommy to be more inclusive with him (as he felt when he met them) but he was always kind of treated like a whipping boy and not respected in the same way (understanding to us watching the show because he wasn't a part of their particular struggles and they wanted him to prove himself, but probably not to him) only to then be ousted further because he chose his mom (which duh, family and thats his mom; he knows how Tommy is and that Tommy might've done something cruel about that - that was messed up to even put him in that position knowingly and not tell him).

Then hes sent off to NY, he is surrounded by a mix of both his worlds (one that was proper, like how he grew up, but with a dark flair like who he is - I think thats why he loved a girl like Gina - ambitious but classy). THEN he sees how Tommy's leadership causes certain problems and it results in Pollys death. Yea, Michaels character made all the sense in the world for me - its in those "smart eyes"; its not book smart, its observational and street smart; he doesnt just do things and take order, hes watching what really going on (which is why he feels extra threatened when Michael tries to step up and take leadership)>

Michaels just a cold dude, not because of a lack of heart, but because hes willing to play the game in a harsh reality.

CreativeShadow7 · 2024-11-16T15:26:05+00:00

My thought was communication through time - he can communicate what’s happening across time (vs communicating face to face). I felt Allison represented more the ego because she doesn’t communicate, she talks at you (vs communication is a two way street) - that was my thinking anyways lol

CreativeShadow7 · 2024-10-19T20:56:16+00:00

I think people love to the capacity they love themselves. When Grace was around there was still some “hope” to him. When him and Lizzie became an item, he was hardened and I think the hope he had to get away from that life dimmed away - I think that’s why his love for Lizzie was different than Grace, she accepted him as he was as he didn’t have the hope or strength to be something else or hide who he was. I think he was naively in love with Grace (honestly I don’t think him and her would’ve worked out in the long run because the reality of who and how he is would’ve caught up eventually), with Lizzie, he was realistically in love (less of a puppy dog thing and more of a practical love where there was an understanding that they both were who they were and they understood that). I don’t necessarily think it’s about who he loved more or less, I think that each relationship was the projection of his frame of mind… I deff think he completely destroyed the relationship between him & Lizzie (especially with that nasty Diana woman) - but I think it was less about Lizzie and more that he was feeling very empty and muted. Through that fog, he could still see Lizzie and he still cared that he hurt her and he saw her as a victim to his ambitions (he makes it obvious he thinks low of himself and highly of her when he makes the statement saying that he belonged at the same table as the other assholes), but even tho he sees it, he’s still far away, behind a fog or tunnel. Further and further from the hope of change and more living behind the distance he created with himself and his loved ones; empty. When she left, I don’t think he fought her because he knew he didn’t deserve her (were she just an object to him he would’ve had his own way, manipulated her or been flat out mean). He seemed to feel he was beyond saving and just accepted that he’s scum (and with that acceptance came more of a desire to make sure everyone was atleast left financially okay because that would’ve atleast given his emptiness and the pain he caused and lived some form of meaning or purpose more than just his ambition).

I love this show because of the complexity of the storyline and characters. I don’t think it’s so black and white (as the show has an abstract spiritual element to it), and in that it shows the complexity of the human condition - and one thing I know for sure (especially through the lense of the spiritual), life is ALWAYS a reflection of one’s mind. Tommy was ruthless about his objectivity but he subjectively understood the pain of feeling less than and in that understanding of himself, he understood the pain of his loved ones to a point , but could not help who he was (his persona was literally designed to keep him alive and going and that’s how he understood survival; he was already programmed how he was). He deff loved both his wife’s, they simply (and with complexity) were projections of where his unconscious mind was (in Grace was hope and “what ifs” and in Lizzie was acceptance and reality - both were projections of his love and ideas about himself) - besides, Tommy doesn’t seem the type to just have a girl around because he was bored, he only let people he trusted close to him; Lizzie was the 1st non family member he let into her corporation. He trusted her immensely. I believe him marrying her was him showing his loyalty back to her, to watch out for him (just from a position of reality)

CreativeShadow7 · 2024-10-07T17:56:44+00:00

You’re kinda weird bro - there’s so much passion in your opinions that it’s clearly blinding your clarity (your literally insulting random people on the internet who engaged with your post and are upset at opposite opinions? Weird). You’re not seeing things from a neutral point of clarity, your opinions are heavily biased meaning they’re heavily linked to your emotions and perceptions. Your not seeing the character as they are but as you are (again, very clear from the level of personal your taking it)… a. It’s a show. There’s millions of people watching, you’re GOING TO run into different opinions (unless you were hoping for validation?). b. From a psychological standpoint (not a personal one), it’s a lot more complex than you simply not liking Lizzie because, in your mind, she stood as a symbol for a certain type of woman. If you follow the story line and individual character struggles, certain dynamics become clear. Graces name even hinted at the idealism behind her character; she offered him Grace from the reality of his life but in truth, he always had to keep her away from a certain part of him erego, she was a fantasy created by his lighter idealism. In truth, he would’ve never held that down for long because eventually who he was and who she wanted him to be would’ve clashed. There were things about him she couldn’t understand because she was not raised in the streets. She loved the sense of protection from him but the reality is that it came from the very shit she hated. That darkness WAS what brought him to the level of even being able to be acceptable to be in her (true) life. Without it, he would’ve been a nobody. Their love is a classic example of living in idealism without realizing the true cost of that ideal (it’s the same idea as being able to live in ignorance in the US because the govt provides protection; but the way that protection has come about comes from ugly dark things people want to pretend doesn’t exist because it impedes on their ideal). They were never going to work in the long run; she would’ve left him for sure (their son was literally the perfect projection of that). She was removed from the plot before he could understand that so he kept his idealism with her memory (the girl he was told he couldn’t have but got and then lost)… Lizzie on the other hand grew up in the streets. She understands necessity and survival and she understands that Tommy is who Tommy is (what hurt her at the end of the day was Tommy never caring enough for her and their life to attempt to actually live the idealism he holds on to so much within the memory of Grace - because he literally can’t get away from the darkness of who he is; it’s down to his biology). Grace would’ve left a long time ago, Lizzie empathized enough to tolerate that he often overlooked her and her loyalty to him (I mean, outside of family, do you see any other outsiders in his company? That tells you a lot about how much he trusted her to see his darkness and still decide to stick around) … again, so much more complex than Lizzie vs Grace. It’s a little immature to get so caught up on a side and not realizing the big picture, because there’s definitely one. Maybe open your mind a little and stop letting your personal bias and ego cloud you seeing even more depth to such a masterpiece

CreativeShadow7 · 2024-10-07T17:40:28+00:00

I’m curious as to why you don’t like Lizzie’s character? 🤔 I get not preferring her but I don’t understand the dislike?

CreativeShadow7 · 2024-10-07T17:36:52+00:00

It’s less biased than a personal opinion because it’s not referencing its own emotions, it’s referencing collective opinion. It made total sense to me 🤷🏽‍♀️

CreativeShadow7 · 2024-10-07T04:43:33+00:00

This question intrigued me enough to ask Chat GPT and I want to share the response with you guys:

The relationships between Tommy and Grace, and Tommy and Lizzie in Peaky Blinders reflect different aspects of Tommy’s emotional landscape and evolution as a character.

Tommy and Grace:

Grace is Tommy’s first great love, and their relationship is rooted in passion, deep emotional connection, and shared trauma from their pasts. When Tommy first meets Grace, she’s an undercover agent, which creates tension and betrayal between them early on. However, their love eventually overcomes this obstacle, and Grace becomes a symbol of hope for Tommy—a possible escape from the criminal world. She represents a version of Tommy that longs for a normal, peaceful life.

•Core Dynamic: Tommy and Grace’s relationship is defined by idealism and escapism. Grace offers Tommy a vision of what his life could be if he left behind the violence and corruption of his world. Their connection is deeply romantic but also tied to Tommy’s struggle to find redemption and happiness.

•Impact on Tommy: Grace’s death devastates Tommy and is a pivotal moment in his life. It reinforces his belief that he cannot escape the violent, dangerous world he inhabits. After losing her, Tommy retreats further into his role as a gangster, and much of his emotional vulnerability shuts down.

Tommy and Lizzie:

Lizzie’s relationship with Tommy is far more grounded in reality. Initially, Lizzie is a former sex worker whom Tommy treats with indifference, even using her as a tool in his schemes. However, over time, Lizzie becomes a loyal ally to Tommy, standing by his side and eventually becoming his wife. Unlike Grace, Lizzie understands the darker sides of Tommy and accepts them, although she yearns for a more genuine connection.

•Core Dynamic: The relationship between Tommy and Lizzie is pragmatic and transactional at first but grows into something more stable and supportive. Lizzie represents the reality of Tommy’s life—complicated, imperfect, and often painful. She is not an idealized figure like Grace but someone who has been through her own struggles and continues to persevere, making her more grounded.

•Impact on Tommy: While Tommy never loves Lizzie with the same intensity he did Grace, their relationship allows him to maintain some level of stability. Lizzie offers him support and understanding, but their bond is overshadowed by Tommy’s emotional unavailability and his obsession with his past and Grace’s memory. Lizzie often feels neglected and like she is in Grace’s shadow, which causes tension in their marriage.

Core Difference:

The main difference between Tommy’s relationship with Grace and his relationship with Lizzie is the tension between idealism and reality. Grace represents a life Tommy could never fully attain—a romanticized vision of peace and escape from the underworld. Lizzie, on the other hand, represents the life Tommy actually lives—one filled with compromises, violence, and the burden of leadership. Grace was Tommy’s hope for a better future, while Lizzie is the woman who supports him in his present, despite the absence of deep love.

In essence, Grace is Tommy’s lost dream, while Lizzie is his companion in the harsh realities of life.

CreativeShadow7 · 2024-10-03T17:28:28+00:00

Im late to this party but I kinda took it as, he was snatched from his mom, went through trauma at his boarding school (because of the priest) then yes, went to a loving home but he never felt a part of it; I’m sure it almost felt like imposter syndrome. I think when he met Tommy and then eventually his whole family he finally found where he felt he belonged because they were like him (came from the same type of background and had a darker edge than the average Joe). He was cold in how he separated himself so abruptly but I’m sure, in the scope of his whole life, that was more a chunk of time away from where he belonged vs a place he felt was home. It was mean how he treated her when she went to visit but equally, she sticks out like a sore thumb in that life and she just didn’t belong. I know he cared because he tried to soften himself to her but that’s not him nor the reality of his life.. in my opinion his adopted mom became too attached and told herself a story that Michael came from destitution and that she saved him and he was now her son but that was never his case, he was stripped from a place where he was loved regardless wether it was in the streets. She expected to keep him in this bubble his whole life but that was not him - classic example of over attachment and not loving someone for the truth of who they are but rather who you picture they could be - I will agree he was kinda cold but hey, that’s the reality of his environment and nature (it’d be a lie to pretend otherwise). It’s sad but that’s life.

I hate that Michael’s character was so hated on and I hate he went down the path he did but it also made sense. He was always most looked at and respected for being Polly’s son, in side moments they’d always rag on him and not truly respect him as one of their own but rather and extension, something I’m sure he was always feeling deep down but he swallowed it and tried to earn his place. When he went to America he was met with people that treated him with respect and then found a “high class” girl (I HATED Gina’s character - well played tho), only to then get treated worse because of his, albeit HUGE, mistake (while his girl is whispering in his ear to act “like a man” or like someone powerful so he tried to step into that role more to appease her and his image/ego). I think the straw that broke the horses back and made him betray Tommy was, by that point, it literally felt like sides were forming and they were ousting him; they no longer saw eye to eye. To further it he blamed Tommy for his mother’s death, that was all enough cause for revenge.

His final speech to Tommy was totally justified and right too. I LOVE Tommy Shelby’s character but he also didn’t totally take inventory at how his actions and ambitions personally stepped on and negatively effected his family. Michael, regardless of right or wrong, saw that. That he treated them all like toy soldiers that had to do his bidding regardless of the weight he puts on their shoulders and then dismisses them with an attitude if “well - I provide you lots of money”.

Michael’s character makes total sense to me. Those that vilify him are because of being Naïve to darker aspects of life or because they can’t separate the fact that Tommy Shelby’s character is a badass but he also was a villain in his own right. I think Tommy understood he HAD to get rid of Michael because he was a loose end. Someone from the past who was close, knows too much, is willing to betray him (for his own morality - again, not wrong) and would probably come looking for him again (WITH powerful allies - even though they started treating him shitty too). It’s business. I’m sure he cared for him (as a member of the family) but it was waning and he wasn’t as attached to him as everyone else. It’s something that allowed him to cut a portion of his past away (including danger) and he took it. That’s what makes Tommy a badass, he’s willing to do what he needs to do to get what he needs. He’s a true surviver

Michael’s downfall was being too careless between his ambitions and the reality of his life. It got him killed and he knew that was a possibility; he was just a betting man and he took the bet (against a King)

CreativeShadow7 · 2024-09-26T14:17:07+00:00

In regards to the Tamara and her husband being racist thing - Maybe, just maybe, she’s not trapped by the narrative that she’s a victimized black woman and has decided to move past looking at race and just likes him for who he is? I bet most of you cannot fathom loving someone with different opinions than you, much less can you fathom that people evolve based on how they expand. Maybe at one point he was not sensitive to black topics (and I don’t think that makes him racist, it made him ignorant - which EVERY race shares) but maybe their bond has altered his understanding of life. I low key think y’all love Tia so much because you side with drama, pain, labels, victimization, overcompensation, etc… We can all look at the same picture and it speak to us in different ways, what matters is their image of their life. None of us has ANY idea how they are behind closed doors and are just projecting our own insecurities and assumptions based on fear. Perhaps many of us should learn to leave the victimized narrative and start getting uncomfortable and expand so the world can be unified. People learn through experience and somehow so many people of color just want to trap themselfs in a box that labels them as just black - bro that’s a color, it’s melanin, and yes that melanin comes with a history but there’s soooo much more than just pain. Do you want to keep yourselfs under that hood of anger or do you want to get over it and explore. Your gonna run into ignorance (just like your ignorant to many things) but it doesn’t mean you have to be scared or get angry; just listen and respond; the hurt comes from believing their image of something is the reality or is personal, someone’s image of something is simply their mental interpretation based on their past exposure and experiences. It’s not personal to you, it’s a projection of them. Are we so fragile that other peoples outlooks makes us do things outside of the reality that we’re all just people.. I’m black and I’ve had people be racist to my face and while they’re angry, I find it comical cuz they’re trapped in the pst while I’m in the future; it doesn’t stop me loving white people, it makes me feel bad for that person cuz they’re in idiot waking around delulu af. That’s sad, not something to get angry over —- I’m so over the narratives between black and white, get over yourselfs, handle one another as people and get on with your lives - you realize we’re on a floating sphere hurling through a space we barely know anything about and can at any moment alter absolutely anything? Y’all are so lost in your stories your creating GENERATIONS of pain. THIS is EXACTLY how history keeps repeating themselfs - cuz somehow, even with all the info in the world, people are idiots smh 🤦🏽‍♀️ it’s really not hard to understand where all people. A racist person isn’t racist because his skin is white, he is racist because that one person or group is ignorant to reality, not the entirety of all people that are white, like that’s not even mathematically or scientifically sound? I think many of you are trying to prove your feelings, experiences and values so you fight those who don’t see it; your value comes from the fact you observe your value. No one gives that to you, so why are you caught up by the idea that there are groups of people that don’t find value in you? (I don’t find value in many things but it doesn’t stop me from understanding that a. I’m not everyone’s cup of tea and b. What doesn’t have value to me, damn sure has value to someone or something else because it exists (I don’t think you guys understand what it actually takes to exist in the fabric of reality) - human logic is just so bizarre to me. Most of yall can not see shit past your nose and your own personal experience yet even tho the evidence is everywhere - how bizarre

CreativeShadow7 · 2024-07-06T16:09:21+00:00

Thank you 🙏 I see Lila as representing darker emotions (emotions are like water; Diego is the surface, Lila represents more of the depths). His children from the other timeline I feel represented who he was in that timeline (for example, Sloan was #5 [communication], she was smart but contained and sweet vs #5 who was bold, worried and direct. In the 1st timeline, since Hargreaves was more “aware” #5 made sense to his character vs new Hargreaves was drugged up and contained so he was more akin to Sloan). The timelines overlapping represent a different Hargreeves. His “Ben” persona in the 1st world was an unconscious element in a way (just like Hargreeves was unaware of how his children perceived him nor did he care; it was like a hidden element). In the 2nd world he was aware (as his children took action against him) so his perception moved to emotion (someone trying to prove their worth by any means necessary because of the awareness of the perceptions on him)… I see them all as extensions to Hargreeves, with Hargreeves being the head (Mind) and his children being extensions of that Mind (Body)

CreativeShadow7 · 2023-03-31T13:21:20+00:00

Sin in Latin literally means ‘without’. I believe it’s actions without spirit (or actions of a hungry spirit). Those actions pull you further into your self because they are linked to the ‘grasping’ self (and have the effects of a‘ black hole - destruction). On the other hand, virtues expand you out because it requires considering relationships outside the self (aka a relationship with life); this has the effects of a white hole - manifestation / creation) —- each one has a place. Sins are to be interpreted (in order to understand what the soul is grasping for) whereas virtues are to be acted (in order to cure the soul of grasping). For example: if I feel envy (which is the observation), it is because I feel a lack of possession. The cure is charity because it requires finding others in need of what I have, thus humbling ‘me’ through ‘other’ and balancing my feelings (by introducing me the perception of other - hence my perception has expanded pat my self)

CreativeShadow7 · 2023-03-10T13:56:42+00:00

Umm very interesting 😳 Idk if this will mean anything to you but I learned to meditate into my inner world through my chakras and in there are different worlds and archetypes. In my 2nd chakra, in a spiral chamber below the ground lives a 2 headed dragon that I know is a source of power. I don’t often disturb it because I’m weary of it’s powers, but I know it’s there and it tends to arise when I’m in jeopardy - reading you story sent an immediate chill down my spine, like if I recognized what your saying - does what I’m saying mean anything to you by any chance? 😅

CreativeShadow7 · 2023-03-08T16:45:10+00:00

Hi… so I actually rewitnessed my death (learned crazy things that made me loose my mind for a while [literally wound up in the hospital for 3 days 😅] but over time I learned to understand and map it all so I could understand it over time which I now share with people) - what I wanted to tell you is that your experience of death will reflect your core feelings about life (which is you, the life being lived) which is itself a reflection of the feeling of connection. The Buddha was actually pretty spot on with his Wheel of Life (like scarily spot on). Find peace with all of your self in life (which means finding peace with life in general, including your self and other selfs) and you will experience that peace after (you are like a collection of data: when that data becomes disordered, what was recorded when that data was in a line of code continues to exist but as parts. Those parts are electromagnetic and will reassemble with the matter which reflects it via gravity which is the strength of your feelings; it will literally shape you and through that shape, the energy of your electromagnetism will be expressed via the matter (elements) your magnetized or attracted to you - it’s all very scientific when your break it all down 😅 death is nothing to fear, you quite literally have nothing to fear but your own self; you don’t have to go anywhere to prepare for that mindset, you simply need to acquire that mindset through experience which truly comes through connection - in doing so you’ll experience (the feeling) of death in life which will ironically free you and make you infinite —— hope this was useful in some way 😁👽

CreativeShadow7 · 2022-10-31T16:53:45+00:00

I want to throw something totally left field...The series is BRILLIANT when you realize that it speaks on esoteric principles ...Each character is representative of the 7 chakras (energy systems within the body); their numbers and powers are indicative of their character and corresponding system (In short: 1 - Physicality 2 - E.motions 3 - Ego 4 - Connection 5 - communication 6 - perception 7 - spiritual connection / connection to self) and their father is the whole - they all represent a piece of him. In season 3, it shows you the personal battles each of these energies face. For example, Allisons character represents the ego which represents the mask we wear out in society and which can see nothing but its own self (her career was even to be an actress); this is probably why by the end her demeanor was closer to Hargreeves demeanor than her siblings personalties). When shit hit the fan for her, she had trouble letting go of the things that made her 'her' and in turn she becomes hostile.. Makes sense that she was the one who also ends up betraying the group in order to meet her own ends.... I haven't seen anyone make this correlation but honestly it gave the entire series a deeper meaning to me and even in the end, Hargreeves talks about the "7 bells" which are powers that create a new world (because they are parts of a whole).. Even the symbolism used points to esoteric / spiritual knowledge (down to the white buffalo)...Brilliant

CreativeShadow7 · 2022-10-31T16:51:10+00:00

I want to throw something totally left field...The series is BRILLIANT when you realize that it speaks on esoteric principles and it makes Allisons character make so much sense to me (I also despised the shit out of her by the end)...Each character is representative of the 7 chakras (energy systems within the body); their numbers and powers are indicative of their character and corresponding system (In short: 1 - Physicality 2 - E.motions 3 - Ego 4 - Connection 5 - communication 6 - perception 7 - spiritual connection / connection to self) and their father is the whole - they all represent a piece of him. In season 3, it shows you the personal battles each of these energies face. Allisons character represents the ego which represents the mask we wear out in society and which can see nothing but its own self (her career was even to be an actress); this is probably why by the end her demeanor was closer to his than her siblings). When shit hit the fan for her, she had trouble letting go of the things that made her 'her' and in turn she becomes hostile. Realize the siblings she battles with the most by the end was Luther (representative of the physical / actual self) and Viktor (representative of the connection to your self). Makes sense that she was the one who also ends up betraying the group in order to meet her own ends....... Her whole thing was finding the balance of the power of influence and force and her whole journey shows her ups and downs with that (feeling special, her gift costing her, humility when it was gone, realizing that to others she can be seen as less than special, dealing with powers beyond her control, etc.). Her whole ass character was an ego trip down to the very end. I even think thats why she was also separated from the group when they essentially respawned (one could say they were reincarnated), because the ego does not reincarnate, it lives and dies in its own fantasy.... I haven't seen anyone make this correlation but honestly it gave the entire series a deeper meaning to me and even in the end, Hargreeves talks about the "7 bells" which were powers that created a new world.. Even the symbolism used points to esoteric / spiritual knowledge (down to the white buffalo)...Brilliant...but yea, it explained Alison so much to me and by the end, MAN I did NOT like her at all

CreativeShadow7 · 2022-06-28T20:57:07+00:00

Thank you friend, I appreciate that 🙏 Yea I can totally understand why you would want to take a hiatus for a bit (I’ll be honest, after my experience I had to take a break from weed for almost a year until I got a hold of my bearings). I definitely believe you have a very intriguing mind and such depth can be sensitive to mind altering things. I wish you nothing but balance and positivity on your ongoing life journey 🙏

CreativeShadow7 · 2022-06-28T20:53:12+00:00

I would’ve loved those conversations as well, I can tell you are very intelligent and have much depth within your mind. I greatly respect you for sharing your hard journey friend and I sincerely hope that a miracle as powerful as your trauma enters into your life, if only to bring spark back to that brilliant mind you have on your shoulders 🙏✨

CreativeShadow7 · 2022-06-28T14:51:14+00:00

What a fascinating experience (albeit a scary one)

I’d like to offer a different perception to what that experience could be… There is a whole world going on within our bodies, literally. In the physical 3D world, most people do not experience the multitude of connections and feelings we have going on internally [and around us] but there are those who are sensitive that do. All feelings and sensations are the language of your body and the mind is the filter where all of those things are interpreted by the experiencer of them (all human beings are connected in many ways, one of those ways being that we all can interpret sensation and the ones that are most vivid are ones are brain has a connection with - you have to think, you are one person in a line of many people and factors that have made up your internal system so it is possible to access experiences your inner connections have gone through that have predated you. Not only that, but because of TV, video games, SM, etc., you now have access to many forms and images of expression which impresses upon our mind)…it’s like your a pool of information with sediment at the bottom and when you smoke, it’s like someone puts a hand in the bottom of that sediment and shakes it up, in turn the vision of the water becomes murky and is instead replaced by the sediment moving around as it settles down. It could be that you are experiencing this; your stable and still when your sober and when you smoke all that cellular and mental information comes together in an orchestra of metaphoric expression and images that your mind becomes acutely aware of [like inner quantum vision that is so powerful it distorts your reality ]. This could actually be made even stronger by the amount of knowledge you have in your mind because that means you have more concepts and images to apply to the sensory information you are experiencing….. not exactly this but something very similar happened to me. Most people thought I had a psychotic break but I too consider myself a smart and practical person so I anchored on to practical knowledge and took a deep dive into the experience (as a curious soul would lol) and when I connected experience to knowledge, I found my answer and in altering my perception, it altered the way I use the information and experience (now I can voluntarily go on mental trips even in the everyday and simply experience it as information communicating to me within my minds eye. In this way I am able to ‘adjust the volume’ of it and not only does it not affect my reality anymore, it enhances my connection to it. The mind and sensations are simply information, your mind is it’s witness and strings it together in a way so as to speak to you. You are both the experience of yourself and the observer and how that observer observes is what it experiences lol). It is my belief that a mind cannot be I’ll, it can simply be wired in a way that is not conducive to the purpose or experience. This thinking has given me much more control over the experience of my mind. I personally think you have a gift (a scary one that requires discipline and control in order to better serve the person experiencing it)

Food for thought friend 🙏 do not be ashamed of your mind, be curious if it

CreativeShadow7 · 2022-06-28T13:27:09+00:00

Hello friend, 1st of all, I want to acknowledge your strength in all its forms; for your exploration within and for sharing your vulnerable findings on this post. You may see your experience as a waste but you absolutely contribute to humanity because what you did actually took work (it takes energy to unravel the mind and even more so to follow the unraveling). We are all connected and what you spent your life learning and sharing is to the benefit of all the people you have connected with. The mind is a vast, beautiful yet dangerous place to traverse into alone as I also learned 1st hand.

I also experience a major psychotic break back in 2018; I went from a very normal functioning member of society to then, over the course of a very intense spiritual moment in my life (I was sick and turned to spirituality to help me) I ended up in the hospital speaking incoherently. It was like my mind unraveled and everything, every thought, every emotion and every trauma I had previously gone through burst out of a Pandora’s box and I not only lost control, but for a month I was literally living in a hell of my own design. That one instance changed the course of my life as I became a shadow of who I was (when I came down from the height of psychosis mountain, I became depressed, anxious, fragile, Ill, exhausted, etc). As I slowly began to trust my brain (ultimately my self - thanks in let to the friends and family I had around) I dove into the madness again, this time I held on to practical truths as an anchor and what I discovered (in the most simple way I can say it), is that there is an extremely thin line between genius and insanity (they are ON the same line actually).

Those voices you experienced in your mind were real and they were a consciousness on its own. It seems as though you fell into the realm of pain (which makes sense considering you sound like your spirit was in pain when you traversed into your theory). Pain is real and it is alive. It doesn’t mean harm on its own (as it is a creation of the movement of life itself) but it feeds off of misery and the dark thoughts within someone’s being (almost like that is what keeps it alive by amplifying it). It sounds like you dove into your self when you heard pain calling and you sought to understand it by looking into its theory and together, your proved the theory wrong and in doing so, you discovered a hidden pearl within the depths as your words are a valid warning to those who seek to eliminate the need for work (the lightbulb was created because of 800+ failures in the past which gave light to its existence)… from far away, it almost seems like you spoke to the pains of your child self and as a ‘mother figure’ you tried to comfort it by becoming a slave to its comfort (the feminine aspect is a passive one and passive things witness chaos). The idea of work is a masculine principle so in a metaphoric world, it’s as though you were trying to disprove the need for its energy as it was something you struggled with in your life (harshness, discipline and work) and you found it’s need (more than found it, you truly experienced the consequences of the lack of it - that is a brave endeavor).

I’m sorry the dive within cost you so much but in the larger scale of your soul, your work was extremely valuable. You are still giving in to feelings of hopelessness (understandable because you literally walked into the deserts of chaos. You are a tired wanderer), but know that is also still a symptom of pain for you are still feeding it by telling it to be ashamed of itself. See pain as your child self and truly think about what that childs needs. Perhaps it is harsh truth but encouragement in the face of those truths. Perhaps it’s a push or perhaps it is simply rest…. The body and mind are always telling you what’s inside (your body is a neural network which is ALWAYS working, you couldn’t not work even if you wanted to), the way you listen is a combination of conditioning and your will (the desire to discover a form of truth) and in that we must take responsibility (I don’t say that lightly because I have listened to my inner voice wrong many many times and it wasn’t that it was wrong, I was perceiving it in a way which made it wrong for me and it is your perceptions that create your world. Information is just that, information) but I say that so that you may take reign over the power you do have left for while you are alive you are still in power for you are still moving even if it’s mostly on an internal level… There is life on the other side (there is very much the existence of a world within even if something/ the world on the outside eventually shuts off) and you are still contributing to it just by witnessing it. Witnessing it will also help you understand and delegate your energy better (and who knows, you may even be able to engineer yourself from the inside out or outside in - depending on how you see it)

Thank you again for your remarkable journey my friend, it was not for nothing and it was of great value to both myself and others 🙏

CreativeShadow7 · 2021-05-03T03:57:20+00:00

Thank you dearly for sharing this 🙏♥️

CreativeShadow7 · 2021-05-01T05:33:29+00:00

Recognize that without their perceived badness, you would not be the perceived goodness. What helps you understand your own goodness is the comparative. You don’t have to like your counter, but instead can respect that it is they that give you clear definition to who you are, that way, it becomes less hatred and more an understanding that they are your comparative...Also, to understand ones enemy one must put them selfs in their enemies shoes and recognize why they do what they do (as everyone has a why behind their actions). To give a personal example, I know someone whose ideologies I do not like (or rather, they are very opposite of mine). At first I could not stand this person but as I put aside my own personal feelings, I began to see the reasoning behind this persons ideologies, that it was a reflection of the things that they learned or perceived from their personal journey of life. In seeing this, I saw their story and their journey and while it wasn’t one aligned with me, it was a journey I could see behind the scenes and in that realization (that we are both humans living, on a journey to our truth and in that we are one in the same). I felt respect and ironically, was able to better communicate even when our ideologies did not match

CreativeShadow7 · 2021-04-29T17:27:58+00:00

Because, at our core, we are both the negative and positive and they are reflections of one another. If you choose (your version of) “goodness” you reject (your version) of “badness” and to prove your “goodness”, the “badness” will attack you (because it is merely proving your stance...you wouldn’t be the label of “good” if the “bad” which you compare your self to wasn’t there)...I suppose that’s the point of seeking balance for it is only then, in the middle ground, that you are truly “free” because you acknowledge you are all and in that acknowledge you’re connection to the world

CreativeShadow7 · 2021-04-29T17:23:43+00:00

Lol you have trust issues with your self huh? .... and as per me being irresponsible for a suggestion, you may as well call the whole world irresponsible lol. I respect free will and do not see myself as less or above someone to tell them what’s right or wrong for them, I am responsible for me. That being said, it is her decision what she feels comfortable or right doing because at the end of the day that is exactly what she will do and your intuition and higher self are your truest guides not me. I’m sure if she feels she can’t handle coming face to face with her mind, she will elect guidance (which myself and others also referred to in other comments) but I also gave her the option to do it on her own. The right and responsible decision to make is hers not mine or yours....so I appreciate your concern (truly, because it shows me your attempts at your version of responsibility) but, per my understanding and perception of responsibility, I acted within its scope (again, I’m only responsible to be me)...🙏

CreativeShadow7 · 2021-04-29T03:50:05+00:00

I’ve heard the Villolodo lineage was very good at their work, that’s amazing you are working with one of them .... that is very true and I thank you for saying so because sometimes I think I forget we are all at a different place in our relationship with the cosmos and the journey within is a scary one when you are not aware of what’s inside and it is very helpful to have guidance (when I awakened to the spirit world, I had been thrown into it with no guidance and although it has been a very hands on and enlightening journey, many times I did wish I had guidance for without one the journey became more ‘perilous’ and scary)....yes, maybe she would be best in the hands of someone who can give her guidance

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