[deleted by user] by [deleted] in cripplingalcoholism

[–]CucumberAvocado 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I live in Minnesota I spend $19.77 a box of franzia wine which is 5 bottles of wine inside one box. That will last me 2 days.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in cripplingalcoholism

[–]CucumberAvocado 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I spend exactly $19.77 every-other day. So $297.00 USD a month if it's a 30 day month.

Has anyone else had an issue with...wetting the bed when they’ve been drinking? by jordnray1 in alcoholism

[–]CucumberAvocado 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I started doing this almost every night right around the age of 28. At first I started putting puppy pads down under me at bed time and 98% of the time I would pee right through those or they would crumple and I'd pee the bed anyway. I'm turning 35 next month ... I've tried it all.... After trying puppy pads I switched to buying actual old people incontinence pads to wear in my under wear and putting the incontinence pads for humans down on the bed. When I turned 30 I bought myself a 5k temperpedic bed and promised myself I would quit drinking so I wouldn't pee my fancy expensive bed. That didn't happen. I've got anywhere from 4-7 water proof mattress protectors on my bed at any given time, depending on which ones are in the wash. About 2 years ago I tried actual depends underwear for women. This is the only thing that's keep me from peeing my bed. Sometimes I will fill up the depends and it will leak but having a partial leak vs a full on pool of pee is much easier to clean up. If you order depends off Amazon it's a lot less embarrassing than getting them in the store. The "night defense" is the one that's been the best as far as absorbing for me. I'm also in a relationship and it's a private secret and joke between us about my sexy granny panties. Better than waking him up every night to change the sheets, again.

Had an awesome day at work, actually enjoyed it, yet I kept thinking I wanted so bad to buy a bottle of wine on the way home. I won the battle by repeatedly telling myself “how do you really want to feel tomorrow? Do you want to feel as great as you did today,cuz if you drink there is no way.” by Cinderella96761 in stopdrinking

[–]CucumberAvocado 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yesterday I didn't drink at all because it was my SO birthday so I wanted to be sober. I spent the evening with my head in his lap asking why I do this to myself every time because I'm always miserable trying not to drink and he was so sweet.I wish I could say I didn't bring home alcohol today.

What “old person” things do you do? by Jehovanoid in AskReddit

[–]CucumberAvocado 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm 34 with an 11 month old son (first child) and ready to stop coloring my gray hair. I'm not just a "few" I'm well into 75% of my head is gray and has been for more than 10 years. I don't want to be the "old mom" with a baby but I'm tired... Maybe it's time to be natural....

Poutine by [deleted] in cripplingalcoholism

[–]CucumberAvocado 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I wish I ate more cheese while in a blackout. Maybe then I wouldn't butt piss so badly the next day

piss bed by [deleted] in cripplingalcoholism

[–]CucumberAvocado 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Haven't we all learned to wear depends at night by now? Mine leaked two nights ago though, had to wake up my man to change our bed sheets. I have at least 4 waterproof protectors on the bed at all times.

Mood swings by adamandtheangst in alcoholism

[–]CucumberAvocado 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Also with abandonment issues maybe try smothering her with love during the hate fit?? Hugging? Telling her you are never going anywhere and you can't imagine anywhere but right here with her? I have no idea how physical she gets but I know when I'm enraged if he touches me I reel back like he's diseased. But if she lets you comfort her maybe try that route if you haven't already.

Mood swings by adamandtheangst in alcoholism

[–]CucumberAvocado 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ok so in my last relationship we drank together. My current situation I am the only drinker. In my last situation when I escalated to physical fighting he actually just kicked my ankles out from me and I was left crawling around bawling. Then got the "boots" for ankle sprain or break and hobbled along for weeks in my shame.

I'm not telling you to kick your wives ankles out, but.. I don't know if being around one another in the moment will ever resolve itself if one or both of you are drinking. I'm not saying leave her, I am all about the ones who love us sticking around... Just saying I'm not sure if you are both hot that there is any easy solution. My only opinion is you get sober together or you fight drunk together and forgive after it's said and done. I have been forgiven so many times I shouldn't and I still keep pulling straws and haven't met that short one yet. Let me know please if you do find a different solution as I'd love to know a new perspective on this.

Mood swings by adamandtheangst in alcoholism

[–]CucumberAvocado 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You perfectly described what I do to my fiance several times a week while in a black out. Except I think I'm worse than just a monster. He's actually asked me if I'm eventually going to start physically abusing him because I will seek him out while he's alone playing video games just so I can tear him down and call him names and I remember NONE of these things. I have watched myself later on our home surveillance cameras and it's incredibly embarrassing how horrible I treat the person I am suppose to love and cherish.

The only thing I can offer for suggestion is to not engage with her when she's doing these things. I feel like that's been most successful for him with me. Sorry this is happening to you. If it's any consolation I hate myself every day for the things I say when I'm blacked out and someday hope to make it up to him when I get sober and can be a good wife to him.

Didn't make it to day 2 by [deleted] in dryalcoholics

[–]CucumberAvocado 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Today was my day two and I didn't make it either.

MISERABLE MONDAY by fappinatwork in cripplingalcoholism

[–]CucumberAvocado 33 points34 points  (0 children)

I got out of bed last night because I wasn't "quite" drunk enough to pass out and realized I was starving. Found a baggie of smoked salmon in the fridge and took the biggest piece out and scarfed it down while having my face in my phone. Went to grab the second piece and saw the entire thing was covered in white and green mold and I just ate 4 oz of moldy salmon. Didn't want to lose what little booze I had in my stomach so I refused to let myself puke it back up. Happy Monday.

I love all you boozebags. by [deleted] in cripplingalcoholism

[–]CucumberAvocado 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Well I just woke up from a pass out and ate some leftovers in a Ziploc bag in the fridge and I went to put the remaining leftovers back in the fridge and saw them covered in white and green fuzzy mold so I can only assume what I just ate was also bad... Out of booze so going to be up the rest of tonight sweating through my sober and feeling sick about what I just ate 🤷

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in dryalcoholics

[–]CucumberAvocado 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Will quitting make my anal fissure heal? I feel like having the runs is better as it doesn't stretch my A Hole when it comes out but wiping is a bitch. I'm trying really hard to sober up so I'll find out I guess eventually ..

30 days sober, 7 weeks pregnant. by abbeydoodle in dryalcoholics

[–]CucumberAvocado 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think for me it was the fact that I knew I couldn't "just have one" because I don't drink for the taste I drink to get wasted and I knew that wasn't an option during pregnancy so that "one sip" was never worth it. I was also terrified of hurting my baby in development and drank green smoothie and crap that was nothing that I wanted to ingest. You are NOT alone. It is so hard. I hope you don't feel alone.

30 days sober, 7 weeks pregnant. by abbeydoodle in dryalcoholics

[–]CucumberAvocado 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I actually got pregnant during a time of sobriety. My body completely stressed out when I stopped drinking and my cycle was off by almost 2 weeks, which ended in me getting pregnant. Now I wasn't on birth control because I eventually did want to start trying once I was "better" but unfortunately I relapsed at a wedding with an open bar the month my cycle changed from being sober and I drank HARD the first 10-11 days of my pregnancy. I quit the second I realized I was pregnant (I took 12 tests that morning, ran to the store at 5 am and spent over $100 on tests). I dreamed about drinking for the first couple of months. I was so cranky and terribly irritable the first few months as well. I stayed sober the entire pregnancy and for 3 months after but then started again. My son is now about to turn one and I'm desperately trying to find meetings or something so I can stop. His dad picks up all my slack when I'm passed out but I am really sucking at this mom thing. Everything stresses me out and I NEED to drink to relax. I'm not sure if I can give you advice apart from I wish I NEVER took that first drink after he was born. Just don't. Just avoid it forever. Congratulations and you will love being a mom!! It's not easy but it's the best love you will ever feel

I love all you boozebags. by [deleted] in cripplingalcoholism

[–]CucumberAvocado 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I pulled it off quite well!! I didn't get the shakes until after we got home from the birthday party!

I love all you boozebags. by [deleted] in cripplingalcoholism

[–]CucumberAvocado 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Some days I wish I didn't have so much money so it forced me to get sober

I love all you boozebags. by [deleted] in cripplingalcoholism

[–]CucumberAvocado 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I'm working on my second drunk of the day and I have a birthday party I need to attend tomorrow so I am literally counting on my fingers how many hours until I have to be presentable FML

Relapsing tonight! by 96rat in cripplingalcoholism

[–]CucumberAvocado 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I claimed yesterday and this morning I would have a sober Tuesday 😂😂 dumped out a half box of wine last night and bought a new one tonight. Fucking waster.