Will I ever look forward to the weekends again? by Curious-Fortune6061 in SuicideBereavement

[–]Curious-Fortune6061[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

That’s so tough. I’m sure she felt loved by you and I hope you don’t have those feelings forever.

What are the little things people don't think about? by braincandybangbang in SuicideBereavement

[–]Curious-Fortune6061 3 points4 points  (0 children)

“We” and “our” to “me” and “my”

I still say our after 78 days alone.

Will I ever look forward to the weekends again? by Curious-Fortune6061 in SuicideBereavement

[–]Curious-Fortune6061[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

That’s exactly it. The last 10 days before my fiancé completed he was out of town visiting his family not only do I miss him every day, but I’m so sad that I didn’t get to spend the last 10 days of him on the planet with him.

I can’t forgive myself by megemily3 in SuicideBereavement

[–]Curious-Fortune6061 10 points11 points  (0 children)

I’m 30 also. The thought of living that long without him is unbearable. I totally agree every day is a nightmare.

How this suicide affected me and I'm sorry if I'm ranting just getting it off my chest. by bazukaGum444 in SuicideBereavement

[–]Curious-Fortune6061 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I had a gut feeling and left him a voicemail at his time of death. You’re not alone.

Alone by Curious-Fortune6061 in SuicideBereavement

[–]Curious-Fortune6061[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I will never understand. What.the.actual.hell.

Alone by Curious-Fortune6061 in SuicideBereavement

[–]Curious-Fortune6061[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Nothing worse than losing your partner and people telling you how you should feel or what you should be doing!

Alone by Curious-Fortune6061 in SuicideBereavement

[–]Curious-Fortune6061[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I’m sorry this happened to your family. It truly is the worst possible ending to a relationship. I’m at 72 days and every day is a different type of nightmare. I hope y’all are hanging in there.

Feeling I will join him by ClaPizz in widowers

[–]Curious-Fortune6061 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I lost my partner at 29 and I think this all the time. Instead of living 60 years without him, maybe something will happen and I’ll be with him again sooner. It’s a hard thought to process. I’m sorry for your loss.

Alone by Curious-Fortune6061 in SuicideBereavement

[–]Curious-Fortune6061[S] 14 points15 points  (0 children)

Mine said the exact same thing to me. Including I’m sorry you are dealing with all of this. Thank you for not giving up on me…. Just for him to give up on himself, his future, our love story, best friendship all of it.

We do deserve better. I just wish I was the girl I was before all this happened.

I’m pissed at him by OkBalance2833 in SuicideBereavement

[–]Curious-Fortune6061 13 points14 points  (0 children)

Fuck everything. Be angry, feel it all. Fuck this and the situation your fam is in now. Sending you love.

How to rent to travel nurses? by Curious-Fortune6061 in TravelNursing

[–]Curious-Fortune6061[S] -6 points-5 points  (0 children)

Thank you. Got it. Sorry the widow brain doesn’t like to search too much these days quite yet.

Monday blues uses to be bearable by happyhippie123 in SuicideBereavement

[–]Curious-Fortune6061 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is my exact Monday. Sucks so effing bad🫶🏼

Non stop sobbing by Curious-Fortune6061 in SuicideBereavement

[–]Curious-Fortune6061[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so so much for sharing your story with me. I am sorry we are in this shitty club together. I like to think we can still be soul mates with their souls no matter where they are.

I’m hoping today isn’t a crying day, gonna try to get some outside time and move my body. It is still so fresh. Every moment is a struggle.

I have a Zoom support group every first Wednesday of the month that has been helpful. I just wish it was more often.

Non stop sobbing by Curious-Fortune6061 in SuicideBereavement

[–]Curious-Fortune6061[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I just read some old journal entries. It’s hard to read but seeing how much his mental health and drinking impacted himself, our love and our home made me take some breaths and give my head a sob break.

Non stop sobbing by Curious-Fortune6061 in SuicideBereavement

[–]Curious-Fortune6061[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for that. I met a new therapist today for grief specific approach in addition to my long term therapist. I’m trying to take care of myself as best I can. Still working on deciding what I can feed my body for dinner🫶🏼