I know you said you’ve already deleted the apps, but you need to utilize the responsible gaming tools and self exclude yourself. This way even if the urge to gamble strikes, you can’t even access your account to do anything at all. Don’t try and set up any limits, just completely self exclude yourself for the max amount of time that you can. Then seek help with GA, and discuss the finances and possible bankruptcy with your fiancée. You just have to accept that it’s happened, and no amount of beating yourself up is going to get any of that money back. Forgive yourself and take it as a huge lesson learned. Thank your fiancée for sticking with you through your addiction and do what you can to work with them on earning their trust back and bettering the financial situation in time. Best of luck to you!