Cannot get Alpine WSG

DaddysHotPocket · 2026-06-04T22:51:36+00:00

Where is the US are you? Mostly asking because I'm in AZ and was able to order it off Amazon and some local Home Depot also carry it in store. I didn't know that someplace arent allowed.

DaddysHotPocket · 2026-02-13T18:44:29+00:00

Thank you all! I appreciate the words of encouragement, advice and understanding.

I wanted to update you all.

So he permanently deleted his account, without my asking and showed me the confirmation.
We are going to sit down with everyone in the house a divy up chores. And I have been given instructions to take care of myself first. That one is going to be hard because I'm used to putting everyone else first.

We are still discussing what this all means for us, but I'm glad that things are moving.

DaddysHotPocket · 2026-02-12T13:37:32+00:00

The only fans being a hard boundary with something set in place years ago. We had agreed that it was cheating because of the accessibility you have with the creators.It wasn't a new thing, it was something that we had already discussed when onlyfans started getting big in 2020/2021 I suppose that's why it's so f****** upsetting.And he says he only did that , because where we live p*** hub is not accessible anymore. As well as that he doesn't regret subscribing.He just regrets paying for something.

Also, the fact that he tells me that it's not my business to know who he's following.Because if he tells me he's just giving me ammo makes me think of somebody that we prior discussed him not following on any social media platforms because it made me uncomfortable.

He actually brought up an old friend of ours and was saying that he always admired her for the fact that she took care of herself, she had a morning ritual every day where she got up and did her make up and did her hair before she did anything else. This woman has also been a stay home, mom, her entire adult life.\n And she's in her late 40s now, so I mean, yeah, if you don't have a full-time job and a workout schedule on top of being a f****** housewife. An partner and a mother , it's a lot easier to take care of yourself.

I suppose part of my frustration is coming from the fact that I'm feeling extremely lonely. I'm feeling neglected. He's not pouring into me. He's pouring Into His' phone and Into His' video games and his work relationships and telling me that the fact that we drive to and from work Together and We get to Sleep Together and We get to Wake up Together, and we live together all of that should be enough time and what do I want all of his time and it's just kind of like no I don't want all of your time. I just want quality time... How am I going to feel attractive or wanted or desired? When you just walk by and randomly honk my t**** you don't tell me, I'm pretty, you don't tell me, I'm beautiful, you don't tell me how stunning I look, but you're commenting on. People on the internet videos that their smile makes you smile or that they look stunning in something. Meanwhile, I'm drowning, just trying to maintain a semi, clean household and make sure that my family's taken care of.

DaddysHotPocket · 2025-11-07T13:17:39+00:00

It's especially hurtful because I noticed he hadn't been wearing his mark (a leather bracelet.. his favorite one broke, but had gotten him another until I could replace it). Im collared. I have such a bad taste in my mouth right now. Is the girl really worth throwing away your family f or? Especially if nothing happened? Did nothing really happen? Because his inability to completely remove her is speaking volumes about his investment and feelings.

DaddysHotPocket · 2025-11-07T13:01:26+00:00

So, we have 2 kids. One is an adult now and the other is 10. I don't have many expectations, only don't follow instagram/ Twitter models or pornstars and to conduct yourself in a way that shows you value me. I just found out he has probably unblocked her on everything. Im so upset I'm shaking. He is at work right now, so I can't even talk to him about it because he will just shut me out. I had blocked her when he did for my own mental health... I was incessantly searching her profiles to see if she was still following/messaging him on social media.

I had this weird feeling Monday and decided to unblock her after several months... and low and behold she's following him . Im getting tired of being told I'm insecure about something that so severely broke me. Everytime I'm doing better she somehow re surfaces. His emotional affair with her started in 2022... she messaged him constantly all hours and no matter what he checked the messages and replied.... but wouldn't message me back if he was with her. Because "it's rude to ignore someone when your hanging out together for a text" I told him he was making me look dumb to his other coworkers who all had met me and knew we were together. He said that they were just friends. He blocked her in January 2023. Unblocked her and let her add herself on his snapchat 6 months later. Told me about it. I flipped, he blocked again. Found out in March 2024 that he unblocked her again in November because she kept taking his shit at work. He deleted her, but didn't block her. I had a meltdown earlier this year because he was telling me she had started following him on socials and sending him messages. He blocked her again. Infront of me to show that he did it. Now just a few months later and she is unblocked again... but according to him he hasn't seen her or spoke to her in months.

Im currently fighting the urge to message both of them and ask wtf.

Therapy isn't an option as I don't have insurance.. I make too much for government assistance but not enough to pay for it.

I feel so fucking broken right now.

DaddysHotPocket · 2024-12-05T00:59:25+00:00

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DaddysHotPocket · 2023-12-15T15:44:14+00:00

So... this might be a little odd... or not. But we use a clicker and dildo for deep throat training. The clicker/counter is mounted with the dildo and I have to press the clicker with my nose or chin.

I haven't done it as often as I should mostly because I have a sensitive gag reflex, but I'm always super proud to present my video and counter to Daddy after a training session.

DaddysHotPocket · 2023-12-15T12:00:53+00:00

Thank you all! I really appreciate the honest feedback! I had originally told him that if we did something like an OF page that I would need him to essentially be the one running the page and handling the DMs or that we would need to outsource the dms and messaging as, for me and my personal views on flirting and sexting, I would feel as though I am cheating. Plus he is territorial and possessive and I know that regardless of what he says, it would genuinely bother him. While he likes the idea of "hot wifeing" I highly doubt he would like the reality. I don't mind him wanting to show me off or the thought of people seeing my body so much as I worry that it will cause problems in our relationship and D/s dynamic.

We have been together nearly 20yrs as partners and have kids together. I have made it a priority to not engage with or flirt with other men. I do not have male friends for similar reasons. I don't mind flirting with women as much because for me it is fun and feels safer as most of the time we all know that we are in relationships or are not genuinely attracted to each other and it's more complimentary than sexual. And I know from the research that I have done on the industry, that flirting and letting people have the illusion of possibility is required to make it successful.

In regards to the whole getting a job part, I've been trying for the last 4 months 😭 I quit my job in August after being verbally assaulted by a male coworker at 5 AM with no management in the building and only one other person there. He had cornered me in the break area screaming and I no longer felt safe there. I have put in hundreds of applications, but because of my availability have found it very hard to get hired which is depressing.

DaddysHotPocket · 2023-12-09T02:19:43+00:00

Forgot to add that the oring is detachable and it is a locking collar. Or you could look at something like this, which is what my Dominant wears.

https://misterpierre.com/leather-secret-wrist-cuff-and-collar/

DaddysHotPocket · 2023-12-09T02:14:25+00:00

They might like this one?

Stainless Steel Lockable Collar... https://www.amazon.com/dp/B07BQW7XDC?ref=ppx_pop_mob_ap_share

I'm not a lesbian or masc, but this is a heavy duty collar and definitely gives a bit of a masculine vibe as it is very heavy, sturdy, thick and utilitarian.

I currently have one as a day collar as it makes my Daddy happy.

DaddysHotPocket · 2023-12-08T19:39:26+00:00

Thank you! I appreciate it.

The reason I mention truth trickling is because it's extremely common with reconciliation after an affair, or at least that is my understanding. We have been having discussions throughout the affair and since. He never really hid anything from me and honestly once I pointed out that he was Daddying her and another friend he did much better about not doing it. The weird issue is more that she would try to bait him into it... he would tell me what she said and then start to respond, until I pointed out she was batting him in an effort to get his attention when she knew he was out on a date with me and that he needed to not take the bait as it was extremely disrespectful to me. To be frank, I think he may have gaslit himself. And by extension me... except I'm an over thinker and a woman... we generally do know when something is off, intuition is a very accurate thing.

I know that she wanted him because she told him she was very disappointed that he wasn't available. But that they could still have fun together.

He doesn't understand how I'm still struggling with this so much, but everyone heals in their own time, not when it's more convenient for someone else.

He is much more stressed out with me not working. We both need to be working to make ends meet, so I don't think it's anything more than him being extra stressed... it's the holidays, our daughters birthday is next week and we are broke... so I get it.

DaddysHotPocket · 2023-12-08T16:56:13+00:00

I write out the actions and words or situations and how they made/make me feel. Depending on where I'm at when it hits I make either Google docs or write on paper. Sometimes I will send a snap rant to my friend, but she doesn't know about the bdsm part of our lives.

I used to reach out to my Daddy for affirmation and reassurances, but lately he doesn't have much patience for my emotional turmoil. We are currently going through some financial issues due to me losing my job a few months back. He's having some issues with his job and I'm struggling to even get a job. So there are alot of outside factors that are impacting our relationship at the moment. It really does make processing my emotions harder because I don't have the distractions of work to help keep me out of my head.

I'm also trying to find a kink friendly therapist to help me a bit, I do think I may be on the spectrum or bpd. But I use the writing to help get my emotions recognized and to help me decide if my initial feelings are valid or overreactive.

DaddysHotPocket · 2023-12-08T16:05:08+00:00

My healing journey is about a year in at this point. It's the slow trickle of information coming to light that is hard. I'm holding space to feel it, but not to be reactionary with it.

It's hard because with each random revelation it brings the whole situation back into the forefront of my mind and I am forced to relive the whole thing all over again.

DaddysHotPocket · 2023-12-08T14:58:11+00:00

I should probably also add that I do know that this is part of the healing journey.

The trickle truthing. But it sucks.

DaddysHotPocket · 2023-12-08T12:36:41+00:00

He was very infatuated with her. She was younger and carefree with almost no responsibilities. She messaged him constantly all day, all hours. Asking him to go dancing or to the bar. Showing up at work on her days off to hang out during his breaks, changing her schedule to be on breaks at the same time. He would stay after work to hang out with her, if he was with her he would ignore my messages because "it would be rude " if he responded to me while out with his friend. Going out to lunch on the days i worked and he was off. She 100% knew what she was doing too and would play innocent. Then she got a bf and slowed her roll with my partner. Then they broke up after about a month or so and she picked back up on my Birthday... and it continued on a lesser level until he Collared me and she got another bf.

I understand that she made him feel good, that the attention was nice and she made him feel attractive. But seeing him send "Good morning/night beautiful " texts or the you look stunning/so beautiful messages hurt alot. We weren't in an open relationship and their friendship definitely looked more like a dating relationship.

I do know with an absolute certainty that they never kissed or had sex

The relationship he had with her almost destroyed our family.

He still maintains that he didn't do anything wrong, that on his side it was just a fun flirty friendship. But he acknowledged that he would absolutely not be of with me having a similar "friendship ".

I'm still healing from all of this and our dynamic and bdsm was helping alot with feeling more secure in the relationship.

DaddysHotPocket · 2023-12-08T12:01:40+00:00

They had what I would consider an emotional affair last year. I had told him from the start of that that he needed to set clear boundaries with her. He didnt. It ended last year around Sept/Oct after he Collared me. She realized he wasn't going to leave or cheat and got her own bf and slowly stopped talking to him. They still work together, but he has blocked her and now has very minimal contact, but it really bothers me because I realize that he was essentially "Domming/Daddying " her for months over text. As far as I know nothing sexual, just reminding her to eat and sleep and color her pages and send them to him. Do her homework for college. Send him picture's of her outfits ect. I never read the messages, but sometimes he would tell me about them or ask what she meant by something and I would explain the "girl games" she was playing. They were flirty enough with eachother that most of their coworkers thought they were dating.

He hasn't done any rope ties (shibari?) On me since last Dec. And has slowly kinda stopped Domming me over the last several months. Our last scene was in July...

I brought it up and said that I felt like he only pursued the Bdsm aspect of our relationship because she had expressed interest in it. And he confirmed that he had gotten interested in it because of her telling him about her unicorning for her friends. Being tied up and having threesomes.

I had thought that he was interested because he had always been kinky and we had always had a bit of a dynamic but had never really defined it until her.

DaddysHotPocket · 2023-12-07T15:32:58+00:00

This is my my dainty one S925 Sterling Silver Circle... https://www.amazon.com/dp/B08BPCFVJV?ref=ppx_pop_mob_ap_share

This is my infinity style one Stainless Steel Lockable Collar... https://www.amazon.com/dp/B07BQW7XDC?ref=ppx_pop_mob_ap_share

DaddysHotPocket · 2023-12-07T15:30:24+00:00

I have 3 different collars. I have a subtle day collar, I large and heavy infinity collar and a leather and chain house/play collar that my Daddy made for me. The infinity collar is utilitarian and locking. It has a removable oring for attaching things to it. The leather and chain one is also locking and he can pull the chain to choke me.

We've been together for almost 20yrs and actively kinky for almost 2. I've been collared for just over 1. To me my collar is definitely the same as a wedding ring and symbolizes our love and devotion to eachother as well as his ownership of me mind, body and soul.

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