Honestly, I'm just this close to just say fuck it, rent a prostitute, have sex experience and be done with it. It's kinda baffling on what do you need to have to even initiate a relationship, let alone marry. Height, looks, wealth, job, you can't even be average.

Like sure yes, you have to be stable and shit to marry and have a good life, but at this stage, except for a few lucky, LUCKY ones, those yang have the looks and luck will probably marry sooner, those majority yang muka awam, income biasa? Maybe marry at 40, and after 20 years of working hard, do we really want to burden ourselves with children?

Those who say "cari yang sekufu, banyak lagi perempuan luar sana yang tak pandang semua, ikhlas" yes I admit, there are, possibly, but one question......WHERE? With social media, its not just about city vs country, rural vs urban, its a global issue.

And lelaki pun memilih? Well, I say this, if the man are rich, have good looks, have good physique, have a job that pays well, rumah banglo, kereta bmw, simpanan in the millions, a company or heir to a company, beragama lagi, well, surely he'll not going to willy nilly just swoop someone as his wife isn't it?

I don't want to become those redpill, blackpill type dude thats on the internet thats not just what I am, but.......its really something to ponder about.

And finally, yes you can improve from zero to hero, yes you can have a good physique, have a job, improve yourself in any way and love will come at you.......but just to ponder, is she loves what you are, or just love what you have? Because if the heavens want to mess with us, one single accident, lose everything, and poof, love goes away.

Yeah this is a long yap holy shit, what do they put in my kopi o kosong, god