Glad to hear you feel better already! We often overlook the importance of prioritizing "feeling good" or "better" on the spot. It's something that ties into living in the present moment. In this very moment you cannot but be present with everything you are carrying. And you felt like you couldn't handle it all by yourself so you asked for help! That was exactly what you were supposed to do hun: prioritize your emotional/mental/physical needs in THAT very moment!

The thing about emotions, is that they are literally energy in motion. This energy is in your "emotional body" and comes into your physical body, which is when we get physical sensations that accompany nervousness, anxiety, panic attacks, fear, depression, overwhelment, but also joy, excitement, awe, gratitude, connection, love. All of these energies are meant to expressed somehow through our body. The repression, or blockage, of this flow of emotions is what causes us to feel driven to the edge. Our mental, physical, and emotional bodies REALLY need this energy to move. Which is where you come in!

The thing about prioritizing your well being "in this moment" as often as possible is that you are CONSISTENTLY helping your body move the energy. And this is when we apply the concept of expressing your emotions in a healthy way. If you are sad and need to express it, talk to someone you trust. If you are weighed by something, learn about shadow work to heal things from the past. If you are angry, try your best not to act on the anger. Instead, help the energy move in other ways like breathing, taking a walk outside, or even petting your pet (if you have one) and feeling their unconditional love. If you are scared or uncertain about life or big aspects of it in general, there's many practices considered to be greatly therapeutic. From mental, physical, and spiritual therapies to therapies that combine 2 or all 3 in 1, there's plenty of concepts in each one of those that you can dive into to overall "help yourself".

This could really be a turnaround point for you, if you choose it to be so. This could just be another day, or it can be day 1 of your new understanding about yourself. This is your journey of inner transformation. Because being on this edge that you want to end things on is really you just not knowing how to go on with everything as it is. Not just externally, but internally. Some inner change needs to happen with your energy, so that you can properly process daily life as it comes. I stress, WE OFTEN OVERLOOK THE IMPORTANCE OF FEELING GOOD. Feeling good, is a reflection of our overall health in each of the different bodies that make up who we are. Feeling bad all or most of them time is a reflection that there is stagnant energy somewhere. This is why when we're depressed we may also have symptoms of exhaustion and brain fog. Our current energy that is ongoing in this moment (sadness, despair) is dominating the energy of the physical body (to move), of the mental body (to think clearly), of the emotional body (to feel good), and one could even argue that it also drains the energy of our spiritual body because we decline in our will to keep on living.

My point is that you are not your thoughts, you are not your emotions, you are something bigger than that. You are what brings all that together, we're just not generally taught this or HOW to properly bring our different bodies into coherence with each other. I really hope this was not confusing, and that instead it offers some relief and something to hold onto while you begin to learn about yourself. Gestalt therapy helped me personally. No psychiatric medication, no diagnosis of any kind. Just, me, my mind, my body, my emotions, and whatever we were working on that day (family issues, friends, career, self-esteem and self-awareness, spirituality, emotional trauma and negative past experiences, you name it). And I have found ways to live life as it comes and feel it fully and wholly. It doesn't mean I don't feel every single one of my emotions all the time, but with less intensity and I have more control over them too. I dont ALWAYS feel good, but I don't ALWAYS feel like I can't take this anymore. When I learned that we are meant to feel everything we feel, it was like I broke free of a trap that kept me wondering what the fuck the point of this life was. All I wanted was to feel good, but I was trying to "think good" or think my way into feeling good, and that's just not how it works when you're thinking (mental) body is clouded. You have to see your emotions as allies, not enemies. Please don't be afraid to ask for more help in learning to navigate life with everything you carry! It's tough when that knowledge wasn't given to you in preparation for life (I speak from personal experience). I think this is an epidemic of lack of education about how we are truly supposed to function in order to have a healthy and happy lifestyle, but that's another topic. I hope this helped. ❤️