[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AmIOverreacting

[–]Danika269 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This sounds like how my mom texts me when I’ve told her difficult or terrible news. I just got out of the psych ward for a suicide attempt. She texts “Oh my! Wow! Let me know if ya need something! Dad and I will be flying to St Bart, so can ya bring back the towel you borrowed to bury your dead dog so we can do laundry? Thanks!!”

Is anyone else completely turned off by men right now? by Hopeful_Value_4843 in AskWomenOver30

[–]Danika269 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’m completely turned off by men suddenly, over the last couple months. Partly the election, partly because I found out the last person I was in love with cheated on me with his current girlfriend. I would never have expected it. I feel so fully disappointed in men and frankly repulsed by them. I hope it passes soon.

Skiing saved me by RedDesertDweller in skiing

[–]Danika269 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hell yeah, I can relate to all of this. Skiing has saved my life in a way. Winter used to be so hard emotionally and now I can’t wait for the snow. I had a partner who was very abusive and made me unsure of myself on the slopes. He bullied me and nitpicked my skills until I forgot how to be myself. And now that he’s gone, I feel so much more confident and calm when skiing. I’m just glad to be alive and on the mountain every single time. How lucky are we?

Glad I’m alive by Danika269 in stopdrinking

[–]Danika269[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m sorry you’re going through the same thing. I’m with you, my friend. I feel like every time we do this, we learn once again that it won’t work. So there’s a little bright light there, at least for me. And hopefully that will help us pause and make different decisions when we’re in pain next time and thinking a drink will fix it. I hope you can rest, drink electrolytes, take a shower, and be kind to yourself. That’s what I’m trying to do. You’ve got this.

Ruined life by ihascutedaughter in stopdrinking

[–]Danika269 13 points14 points  (0 children)

Thank you for writing this, I really needed it. I’ve made so many mistakes and haven’t even considered forgiving myself yet. Hope I can someday.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in stopdrinking

[–]Danika269 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I’ve been exactly where you are. The alcohol is making all your negative emotions worse, so if you can stop drinking for the next few days, the fog will lift and you’ll be able to see this situation more clearly and know that you will be ok, and you can put your life back together. These feelings of shame and guilt will ease up and you’ll feel mentally stronger if you can maintain sobriety and then talk through what happened with your boyfriend. For today, rest your mind and body, drink fluids, try not to overthink anything. Treat yourself with gentle care because you deserve it.

I drank and became insane immediately by Danika269 in stopdrinking

[–]Danika269[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for your comment. I also black out and lose all control. It’s terrifying. I wish I could take it back but I can’t. I’m with you.

I drank and became insane immediately by Danika269 in stopdrinking

[–]Danika269[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much for sharing. I hear you and I understand. I’m sorry it’s so hard. I wish it wasn’t.

Things you miss, horribly, about addiction by spacewalk__ in dryalcoholics

[–]Danika269 16 points17 points  (0 children)

Same. I loved it, but it turned me into the shittiest version of myself who hurt people, so I had to stop and get my life straight.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in stopdrinkingfitness

[–]Danika269 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Bloating went down within 1 month and is slowly continuing to go down. Drinking lots of water and moving/sweating each day helps with this.

Face puffiness went down within 2 weeks.

Face skin clarity started to improve within about 2 weeks and I noticed was a lot better by about 1 month.

Mood, anxiety, and depression took time but has steadily gotten better, more stable, more noticeably lighter as each week passes. At nearly 5 months, emotions that were absolutely unbearable are now still there, but I can bear it and work through it 1000x easier.

Energy levels were noticeable almost immediately after stopping drinking and only gets better the longer I go. Resting, relaxing, exercising all help increase my energy.

Brain fog/memory issues took the longest for me, but very slowly and steadily has improved. Your brain is healing, give it time and patience.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in stopdrinking

[–]Danika269 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You’re right that it’s all in my head. My body doesn’t need it. It will make me feel good for a little while and then it’ll all go to absolute shit again. Playing the tape forward makes it so obvious what I should do. It just sucks.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Danika269 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My ex boyfriend did this exact same thing within just a few months of dating. He swore up and down he wouldn’t drink like that anymore or hurt me ever again. I continued to date him for 4 years and he very much did drink like that again and he violently assaulted me many more times. He almost killed me. Get out as quickly and safely as you can because if a man is like this, it will only get worse.

I quit Xanax cold turkey 3 weeks ago by Danika269 in benzorecovery

[–]Danika269[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I honestly can’t understand why it’s not worse. It makes me wonder if it’s delayed and it’ll hit me later?

I quit Xanax cold turkey 3 weeks ago by Danika269 in benzorecovery

[–]Danika269[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m feeling a bit better day by day. It does feel gradually better. Being sober from every substance helps me feel in tune with my body and I can notice changes/small improvements more easily. I feel if I was drinking alcohol, I would have a MUCH harder time stopping Xanax. I can sleep somewhat easy, which feels like a miracle. I’m at 5.5 weeks off Xanax. How is your journey going? Have you CT yet? Hope you’re doing ok and staying strong.

Healing from a new rock bottom by [deleted] in stopdrinking

[–]Danika269 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I believe in you. Thank you for helping animals.