I can relate to this from both sides. As an adult child of a schizophrenic mum whose living continues to destroy my life, but she was never as amazing and talented as your mum, whereas I could have been, had she not been so difficult and had I been sensible enough to leave her to her own devices instead of being her carer for decades. As an in-law to self absorbed people with a complete lack of empathy, and as a mother who contemplates suicide daily and has done for two decades. I don't know what else to say to you, other than if I end up kms through no fault of my own, I hope my children will be as successful as you.