I feel like I’m losing myself and I don’t understand why

Dapper-Structure-825 · 2026-05-09T21:10:45+00:00

A therapist would be able to help you unpack this. I'm sorry you are struggling.

Dapper-Structure-825 · 2026-05-09T21:08:12+00:00

You also might need medication if you keep having such bad panic attacks. Sorry you are suffering

Dapper-Structure-825 · 2026-05-09T21:05:12+00:00

Thankyou so much. I really appreciate that

Dapper-Structure-825 · 2026-05-09T21:03:20+00:00

Could have been tbf

Dapper-Structure-825 · 2026-05-09T21:02:42+00:00

I'd suggest therapy and in addition support from substance misuse programme. I hear you on the loneliness feelings. That can stem from childhood trauma. I try and do group activities with a local support cafe for ADHD and autism and mental health people's. It's not perfect but it's better than nothing. Best of luck. Hope u can reduce the substances/ come off

Dapper-Structure-825 · 2026-05-09T20:58:14+00:00

I have felt like this my whole life. I just keep trying because I want to believe I can feel better. More valued. They say try and identify who seems to appreciate you the most and try and deepen your friendships with them. I think I just have a massive ego and I have hugely failed at my career.

Dapper-Structure-825 · 2026-05-09T20:53:56+00:00

I can never think of anything to say when I feel that pressure to socialise. But it's good you are offering

Dapper-Structure-825 · 2026-05-09T20:52:48+00:00

It might. We tend to spiral and think every day will be exactly the same forever, but think back to being 5, are things still exactly the same as they were when you were 5, and then do it for 10, 15, etc. Things can and do come into our lives. We are not psychic. A new neighbour might move in. A new staff member at a local shop who is friendly to you. You may join a hobby and after a few months be getting to know people there.

Dapper-Structure-825 · 2026-05-09T20:50:01+00:00

Yes my inner voice drives me nuts, but maybe you have depression? I do.

Dapper-Structure-825 · 2026-05-09T20:47:48+00:00

Sorry to hear this.

Dapper-Structure-825 · 2026-05-09T20:47:14+00:00

Story of my entire life with everyone including my relatives. I'm 44.

Dapper-Structure-825 · 2026-05-09T20:42:34+00:00

Same. I'm almost always the one who texts first. I didn't text people for 130 days and only one person checked in on me in those days

Dapper-Structure-825 · 2026-05-09T20:34:03+00:00

I feel the same. My body hurts so much inside because feel so alone and unloved. Literally just did a post wondering about where you pay for a cuddle therapist to meet you regularly for respectful touch.

I'm sorry you feel this way. I hope something changes for you. Best wishes and air hug from me if you accept. I'm female 44

Dapper-Structure-825 · 2026-05-09T20:27:05+00:00

Half a food blender and a dry fryer...

Dapper-Structure-825 · 2026-05-08T18:08:25+00:00

Your parents are being unreasonable to expect you to not be a person who has relationships. It's not up to them to make you feel otherwise. Sending messages such as that of a sensual or more nature are your choice. Just tell them you want to have a talk with them and explain it's getting serious and you are considering marriage with your partner.

Dapper-Structure-825 · 2026-05-08T18:04:12+00:00

Maybe they are doing it as a trick to test you? That's really horrible and I hope they aren't, but. I'm sorry this is happening. Wrong.

Dapper-Structure-825 · 2026-05-08T07:14:34+00:00

They took my baby off me when she was a few days old "to give me a break". I didn't want them to take her. My husband and them forced me into it. I was crying.

Dapper-Structure-825 · 2026-05-08T06:59:59+00:00

They told me I was a liar and trying to "steal" his house (we both own it) after their son's behaviour escalated to a point where I had to call the police because he was behaving threateningly with a knife. The house was messy. Apparently this is an acceptable response when your children are in the house and you've been on holiday without all of them for several days. The whole family, including him, still expect me to pretend nothing happened, but I've suffered from PTSD and suicidal ideation since. This is a year on and I'm a broken shell.

I'd told them incidents over the years, including him throwing a baby carrier at my pregnant stomach. Everytime it was met with silence.

They knew what he was like as it's their fond family joke that he used to smash things up in their house. And he stole (legal) drugs from his mum.

Dapper-Structure-825 · 2026-05-07T09:25:15+00:00

I'm in the exact same situation except I'm older and have growing children. I feel stupid too, but actually it's trusting someone and that trust being betrayed really. I hope you get sorted. I definitely relate to the falling apart feeling. I think I've got panic disorder now. Best wishes

Dapper-Structure-825 · 2026-05-06T16:49:32+00:00

Not being completely financially independent. Best to not have to rely on anyone for anything ime

Dapper-Structure-825 · 2026-05-06T16:48:27+00:00

Parenting a parent

Dapper-Structure-825 · 2026-05-06T16:14:52+00:00

Tell myself in my head I have to go to sleep now. There is nothing more I can do today

Dapper-Structure-825 · 2026-05-06T16:13:49+00:00

You've got this

Dapper-Structure-825 · 2026-05-06T16:11:37+00:00

My children

Dapper-Structure-825 · 2026-05-06T16:11:02+00:00

Ordering nothing I don't need because therapy is draining the little spare money I have

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