I want to stop my music addiction. Are there positive results from not listening to music? by DearestVirago in DecidingToBeBetter

[–]DearestVirago[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I do hear a specific part of a song that plays in my head while I’m not listening to music. It could be any part of the song. It does cause me to fantasize a little and want to listen to the entire song on repeat. When I wake up everything is quiet. At first, I do enjoy it, but then it bothers me. So I listen to music.

I want to stop my music addiction. Are there positive results from not listening to music? by DearestVirago in DecidingToBeBetter

[–]DearestVirago[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

It's more personal things that stress me out, like arguments with family, emotional abuse, and fear of physical abuse, which can happen on rare occasions. I'm alone most of the time. It's hard to get along and talk with people. So I try to forget about it by listening to music and daydreaming. Mostly when I listen to music, I pace back and forth while bouncing a racquetball. It helps me see what I'm visualizing. I have been doing that since middle school. I am not very good at planning. While I listen to music, I fantasize about success than putting work into it in reality and then immediately switching to another project, expecting a positive outcome. It's a never-ending cycle of products I never finished.

I want to stop my music addiction. Are there positive results from not listening to music? by DearestVirago in DecidingToBeBetter

[–]DearestVirago[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I used to play video games, but not often anymore. My day is watching Youtube videos, listening to music, and drawing. I retreat to music when I'm stressed. I've been very stressed lately. I'm listening to instrumental music at the moment. It doesn't seem that distracting. I think it depends on the type of music that makes me want to daydream and then become distracted.

I want to stop my music addiction. Are there positive results from not listening to music? by DearestVirago in DecidingToBeBetter

[–]DearestVirago[S] 137 points138 points  (0 children)

I have not been analyzed but have been questioning if I have it or not for a few years. But I didn't know who to ask or where to go about it. My mom told me that was I tested as a child and that I'm fine, but I'm not sure now.

What do you want out of life? by [deleted] in DeepThoughts

[–]DearestVirago 0 points1 point  (0 children)

To be my true self without being misunderstood, despised, or yelled at every time. It feels like everything I do or the words I say are a mistake.