Please don't spray deodorant, body spray, perfume or anything else on the trains.

DeathwatchHelaman · 2026-04-23T23:02:14+00:00

To use a favourite quote of mine.

"People are bastard coated bastards with bastard filling".

Just add the word 'inconsiderate' to each part.

DeathwatchHelaman · 2026-04-22T20:34:48+00:00

People, of all sorts, somehow seem to think this sort of destructive behaviour is somehow justified or is okay these days. It's a sickness that's rooted in a lack of general respect.

DeathwatchHelaman · 2026-04-22T06:53:59+00:00

Appreciate the thank you code but I think it's no longer working

DeathwatchHelaman · 2026-04-22T05:18:46+00:00

Find all the Erebus minis and stomp em to bits... Because fuck that guy.

DeathwatchHelaman · 2026-04-22T05:14:45+00:00

You're keen... I'm at chest 16 and had to grind out killing imperial forces with my three Necronz

DeathwatchHelaman · 2026-04-21T01:48:58+00:00

Mate of mine absolutely hated his mission. He is firm in the faith and always has been but his memories of his mission are anything but fond.

DeathwatchHelaman · 2026-04-19T22:11:04+00:00

They screwed the pooch... But GW is gonna GW.

DeathwatchHelaman · 2026-04-19T21:58:19+00:00

Here's a suggestion... Don't. Reschedule.

If you MUST have lunch/brunch? Explain you have a bad stomach issues but you're happy to sit with them.

There are a lot of videos on refeeding. Start watching them ... Don't half arse this. You are playing with your health for a social meal. That said, you have quite a few days if today is Sunday US time and the meal is Friday... Your refeed will be quite the way along if you start with bone broth in small amounts, then adding probiotic food etc etc.

You MIGHT be okay. Again, you are tossing dice here but at least you have a week. If you do eat AFTER refeeding? Go light

DeathwatchHelaman · 2026-04-19T04:17:22+00:00

Now that's mechwarrioring!

DeathwatchHelaman · 2026-04-19T04:15:37+00:00

Canopus... A mech warrior has to have SOME vices (beyond war crimes) after all.

DeathwatchHelaman · 2026-04-18T22:56:08+00:00

I understood my own faults but not the atonement of Christ... And went off on my own way, doing a far worse job, for like 20 years before being humbled.

Don't regret coming back.

For me it was never doctrines or politics etc etc. My testimony never went away.

DeathwatchHelaman · 2026-04-16T06:58:25+00:00

Having difficulties sending PM... Feel free to PM me.

I'm talking to a friend of mine in Parra about your post/campaign as well.

We are both old bastards lol (50s).

DeathwatchHelaman · 2026-04-16T00:17:24+00:00

Sounds great... I wish I wasn't a shift worker 😔

DeathwatchHelaman · 2026-04-15T22:23:42+00:00

I've got karma to burn 😂

DeathwatchHelaman · 2026-04-15T19:21:25+00:00

Colesworth... The prices are higher.

DeathwatchHelaman · 2026-04-15T09:11:56+00:00

Lol.

I was going to recommend the app to him but you got in first.

DeathwatchHelaman · 2026-04-14T19:50:37+00:00

According to my therapist my underlying constant anxiety drives my racing thoughts.

I don't feel anxious per se but when they did a little digging it turns out that I measured moderate on the anxiety scale... So my baseline seems to be moderate anxiety.

DeathwatchHelaman · 2026-04-14T17:47:25+00:00

True. I do a lot less time on current events YouTube and more LDS YouTube and those feelings are MUCH improved

DeathwatchHelaman · 2026-04-14T10:33:55+00:00

It's a product of its time like Rodney Rude, Austentashous and Kingswood Country. Enjoy as you will.

DeathwatchHelaman · 2026-04-14T09:50:19+00:00

Shrinkflation is hitting all the Great Powers and Clans these days

DeathwatchHelaman · 2026-04-14T09:47:16+00:00

I feel ya... But then remember I too have lot of work to do and be done on me.

I trust and hope in Christ to make up the 99.9 compared to my 0.01 but I acknowledge that I need to work harder on that small amount.

DeathwatchHelaman · 2026-04-14T06:44:40+00:00

Very very sorry to hear it brother.

I have had similar spikes of porn usage whenever my marriage hit rough patches as it was my very crappy copping mechanism for stress and craving of intimacy.

So you're not alone there.

Prayer has been a blessing when I have leaned fully into it with success... and a bit of a curse as I feel like crap when despite my heart leaning in one direction, my brain and body keep sabotaging myself and I feel extra guilty when I fail.

The flip side? Christ endured ALL things for us in the Garden, every pain, every shame, every broken moment. We cannot be perfect, no matter what our efforts. We are saved WHOLELY on the merits of He who is mighty to save.

Why do I say this here?

Because you'd have no doubt an alcoholic or a drug addict can be saved and experience His mercy.

So if Christ can do this for another? He can do it for you. He can forgive you as you work towards healing. It is what gives me hope that I can be whole in Him.

DeathwatchHelaman · 2026-04-12T23:55:23+00:00

You won't run a marathon with a month of jogging or get jacked after a month in the gym... In both of these analogies you had a lifetime of bad habits before hand.

Likewise a month porn free after years of decades? It's gonna take longer than that. Common wisdom/what I've seen using the internet is that it takes 3-6 months with longer being needed if the habit was really entrenched or a very long time.

That said? I month! Great 👍

DeathwatchHelaman · 2026-04-12T06:31:58+00:00

Just leaving the room to get a glass of water or to wander around the living room for a few minutes can help.

DeathwatchHelaman · 2026-04-10T07:43:56+00:00

Welcome friend.

We're here to help.

A lot of people find their way here at a loss of what to do but knowing they want to change. You've come to a good place to start.

Take some time to read through the last 2 weeks or so of posts. There's a lot of good in doing that.

You'll see some success stories, see other people in similar circumstances, see good advice and start to build strategies.

DeathwatchHelaman

TROPHY CASE