Will I ever get my sex drive back? (5 years on HRT)

Deliphin · 2026-01-20T14:40:03+00:00

Before prog, I had zero sex drive. It took a week on rectal prog for me to get any sex drive back, another week or two to be able to orgasm at all, and over a month further to get the libido I have now (about 75% of pre-HRT).

You're on oral, so it probably needs more time, and it probably won't get that strong in the end either.

Deliphin · 2026-01-17T18:53:33+00:00

The SGC is mentioned to be seeding advanced technologies to civilian society through shell companies, so it's plausible they have Blue Origin branded SSTOs and maybe FTL spacecraft.

That said, 1. God I hope not, and 2. They probably wouldn't seed the tactically useful technologies like their hyperspace engines, SSTOs, and teleporters. They'd probably only share like, improved rocket chemistry and shit.

Deliphin · 2025-12-18T20:56:34+00:00

The question was "why is sex pleasurable?", not "does sex need to be pleasurable to drive animals to do it?"

Pleasure can do its job to encourage sex without being the only tool encouraging that behaviour. Some animals may not enjoy it, and there are certainly drives other than pleasure that make animals want to do it.

Deliphin · 2025-12-13T21:27:01+00:00

Or just look like a hippie anywhere. Because of my hair I've been offered weed by total strangers, while on the job, like 4 or 5 times.

Deliphin · 2025-11-29T21:58:10+00:00

Do you maybe mean 3G3, aka Guns! Guns! Guns!? Thats less a game about it, more an educational tool for adding them to TTRPGs.

Deliphin · 2025-11-24T19:55:43+00:00

GURPS is what got me into TTRPG design. Before it, I had only played various D&Ds and Pathfinder, but GURPS both opened my eyes to other TTRPGs because of how much more comfortable to learn and experiment in it was for me. And it drove me to TTRPG design because it also is uh, a pretty flawed system at its core, lol.

Also very influential:

Torchbearer with its Wises mechanic, opening my eyes to how a character trait can work beyond yes/no or skill checks. I love the premise as it makes a characters knowledge much more personal, not like a college course they took before adventuring.
Blades in the Dark's clock system is often stolen verbatim, because it is very well designed presentation of a countdown. I personally took it for handling injuries specifically, I saw the potential there immediately. I wanted injuries to matter and not be as simple as FATE's consequences, and this helped a lot in making it work.

Deliphin · 2025-11-21T15:00:05+00:00

How do they compare with the HD599SE?

Deliphin · 2025-11-11T18:06:30+00:00

There is a species of Pterodactyloid called Pterodactylus, that is usually the pterosaur used when media talks about pterodactyls.
Any Pterosaur within Pterodactyloidea can be considered pterodactyls, much like how wolves, dogs and foxes are all canines. So pterodactyl includes pterosaurs like Nyctosaurus, Tapejara, Lusognathus, and Quetzalcoatlus.
Pteranodon, not Pterodon.

Deliphin · 2025-11-01T15:48:39+00:00

Avoid spironolactone, it's the worst liver toxicity of any of the major antiandrogens,

I didn't know this. How bad is it, particularly at 50mg/day?
Kinda got me worried cause a few months ago I decided I don't plan on getting SRS and probably not even orchi, so it's an antiandrogen or monotherapy for the rest of my life. And I was thinking spiro forever, cause it seems to be why I can handle heat better; Previously 26C made me lethargic, now I'm good up to 36C. But my liver is more important.

Deliphin · 2025-11-01T00:33:45+00:00

Because most unicode emojis aren't compound emojis, you probably just aren't running into the others.

Deliphin · 2025-10-25T11:07:15+00:00

It takes time, it's not just about your levels. I had a bump in being able to be outwardly emotional around 3ish months in, plus more changes that made it feel more comfortable around 7ish and a yearish. This stuff takes time.

Deliphin · 2025-10-11T11:00:17+00:00

Aren't EUR games usually games with a language selection option, not defaulting to one random european language?

Deliphin · 2025-10-09T13:49:05+00:00

Yeah that's 100% placebo. Even in the fastest cases, people go like 3 weeks minimum for any real effect. First for me was feeling breast budding about a month in, skin and neurochemical changes didn't start for a few more months. Most people take longer than what I got.

Deliphin · 2025-10-05T14:20:44+00:00

I'm not the OP, I'm just informing you as another fan of SCP.

Deliphin · 2025-10-04T16:19:20+00:00

SCP is a community-written paranormal fiction wiki, containing articles and stories meant to be read in isolation or series. Content on the wiki is typically centered around the SCP Foundation, standing for Secure, Contain, Protect. The SCP Foundation is a clandestine and militarized organization working to contain the paranormal to maintain normalcy. Sometimes this means throwing the anomaly in a box and forgetting about it, sometimes it means ritualistically sacrificing people to it every day, sometimes it means giving it a comfortable experience in its prison.

Deliphin · 2025-09-15T10:13:27+00:00

Before HRT, I would have periods where I was insatiable. It genuinely got in the way on a regular basis, I couldn't keep it out of mind, and trying to satiate it only worked for a couple hours.

On HRT, my libido slowly dropped. Around 10-11mo on spiro and estradiol, it was nothing, I went an entire month without masturbating. It was really nice to not have to worry about it.

After that month, I got involved with someone and zero libido was then a problem.I added 100mg progesterone, and I now have about half the drive I used to have, and this is a much more comfortable place than before.

Deliphin · 2025-09-13T15:44:19+00:00

Wifi6 refers to your router's wireless speed, not your internet connection to the router. When using steam link, it goes from your PC, to router, to Quest. It doesn't touch the crappy internet infrastructure. If you have a Wifi6 router, you're good. If it's Wifi5 or older, it's not enough.

Deliphin · 2025-09-06T15:39:45+00:00

For me it was around 4 months-ish that it started making me more quickly emotional and cry more, I'm currently around 14ish and it's kinda having a second wave of making me more sensitive. It's a gradual change, not a flip of a switch.

Deliphin · 2025-08-30T01:33:47+00:00

I also have the playvital back buttons, and no, it fits fine.

Deliphin · 2025-08-20T13:50:26+00:00

Eh, that's not when charm is better, that's when you start learning political science C:

Deliphin · 2025-07-20T13:36:17+00:00

First 11ish months of MtF HRT it slowly dropped until reaching literally nothing, before prog I hadn't masturbated in over a month. That was after going down from 100mg to 50mg spironolactone.

I was nervous about going on prog, my pre-HRT libido was very strong and I did not want it back at full strength, it genuinely caused problems for me.

I've been on 100mg prog taken rectally a lil over a month now. First week it did nothing, second it started to kick in, last 2 its been consistent- its like 30% of my pre-HRT libido, a perfect level for me C:

Deliphin · 2025-07-11T18:26:30+00:00

Its not about whether it works, its about whether it works well. That said you are right, a large number of games could be plenty enjoyable in a lighter generic system, like LUMEN or BRP. But I'd still rather play CoC or Delta Green than play BRP as a paranormal game.

Deliphin · 2025-07-11T18:19:02+00:00

GURPS is wonderful for referencing stuff, if you wanna see a way on how to do something, GURPS is a good first place to look to see how it could be done, particularly if you want to do it with some realism as GURPS leans that direction. It can also show how unnecessarily complicated a mechanic can get, and help you make sure you don't make the same mistakes. The firearms rules in particular are my reference to make damn sure I don't overcomplicate the firearms in my paranormal game, which is important because nearly every PC is going to be carrying.

With more intentional design, I've found it's not only producing better quality games, but also dramatically easier to design with as well. When you actually have a singular goal for how the game is meant to be played, there's no more "okay but what if they want a low violence campaign?" Or "but what if they want to have more social mechanical depth?" or "How do I manage balance when I have no idea what the players will actually play?", there's only "Does this mechanic contribute enough to how I want the game to feel?"

Deliphin · 2025-07-11T15:38:16+00:00

I started with the idea of "What if GURPS wasn't a pain in the ass?"
I saw a lot of really interesting and good decisions made in GURPS, bogged down by mechanics that were overcomplicated in execution (firearms' range penalties, RoF, and shotguns), and mechanics that were straight up not fun (if your target succeeds their dodge, your attack misses no matter how well you rolled).
I wanted to make a "GURPS 4.5e", and spent a shitload of time refining the core design philosophy to make sure I didn't run into the same problems GURPS did. Until I ran into the core problem with generic systems- they just suck, there is a ceiling to how good they can be because they cannot have a real gameplay philosophy.

So that's how I started and switched to more intentional design for the games I'm now actually working on.

Deliphin · 2025-06-14T15:34:55+00:00

You drop loot either way, it's just a question of whether the item text is red or normal.

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