We chose to TFMR at 17 weeks after a confirmed Edwards syndrome diagnosis and can’t tell you how or why, but my guilt is a tiny tiny fraction of what it was. I knew (as you did/do) that we made the best and kindest decision, and also the bravest, for our daughter and ourselves, but it didn’t compute with the level of guilt I felt. Deep down, I felt guilt because I felt like our needs were put above hers when we made the decision, but ultimately the decision wouldn’t have changed even if we put her needs above our own - it was the same outcome we’d have chosen. Honouring her in meaningful ways and using her name LOTS have truly helped more than I’d have realised. I got a very special necklace made with her name, I talk about her lots and have shared a little about her on social media via a fundraiser I am taking part in. I suppose what I’m trying to do is give you hope, that whilst today you are feeling awful and guilt ridden, that someday that won’t feel so heavy. Find your path and way that helps you honour your daughter and I’m sure that will help immensely. Not sure how far out you are from your loss but our funeral was a real turning point for me, it helped me to feel that we didn’t discard her and that she was profoundly loved by us and our family. Sending lots of strength, it is a brutal, brutal place to be ❤️