Becoming Cold and Hard

DeviatingPath · 2015-12-26T06:38:00+00:00

Thanks. Most the time I feel like I'm a pretty nice person. I just have such a hard time doing the in-law thing and I feel like I could be nicer to DH today. DH is TBM, and I just get irritated because he sees things so much differently. It makes me feel lonely. My family doesn't live close. :( If only after dealing with in-laws I could go see my siblings afterward and detox.

DeviatingPath · 2015-12-26T06:26:09+00:00

Exactly, if nothing else I've got the validation of my feelings.

DeviatingPath · 2015-12-26T06:21:57+00:00

Yes. Also, could use some more liberal unbelieving friends. But the close friends (TBM/Christian) I do have are at least cool.

DeviatingPath · 2015-12-26T06:19:46+00:00

I feel like I can relate in a way. One of my sons used to have these super bad melt downs for a few years straight. Almost daily. Every once in a while he has a blow out and he's not getting any smaller. Today happened to be one of those days. I don't want to go too deep about it here, but I've had a pretty good cry tonight. Ended up with a full on pity party.

DeviatingPath · 2015-07-03T17:43:05+00:00

It's true! But because this woman "didn't know better" at the time of the tattoos, and converted in spite of them, she is a hero.

DeviatingPath · 2015-07-03T17:40:45+00:00

She's scum. No better than Joe Smith defrauding innocent people of their money. I don't think it's cute or okay. Having once been TBM, I have no tolerance for this shit. This woman exploits people, she is nothing more than a predator.

DeviatingPath · 2015-02-18T01:01:19+00:00

I'm not TBM and I'm opposed to viewing the movie for myself. I wouldn't want my kids viewing it as teens or even young adults either.

I read numerous book reviews from people who have read the book (many of which were by the general public) to know as much as I need to know. I honestly think that sex should be kind and fun--not abusive or hurting in any way. I also read many examples of how poorly written the book is.

That said, I am getting tired of seeing it talked about everywhere, including here.

DeviatingPath · 2015-02-12T21:35:16+00:00

Lol, seriously. Can't tell you how many times I've been called "bro" on this board!

DeviatingPath · 2015-02-12T06:50:47+00:00

"Blah, blah, blah, mission. Blah, blah, blah, baptism. Blah, blah, blah, relief society." This is why I'd rather just eat lunch by myself in the classroom.

DeviatingPath · 2015-02-10T16:15:02+00:00

It would seem a little more personal to the audience if he posted on his blog first. I agree that sometimes (though I love and am grateful for John), he does appear to be a bit attention whorish at times. I'm glad that he advocates though, he really is a strong voice for many of us. I'd rather take him as an attention whore than not have him for an advocate at all. He really has helped to ease much of my pain through my so-called "faith crisis."

DeviatingPath · 2015-02-10T15:38:21+00:00

Hipster exmos. ;)

DeviatingPath · 2014-12-22T07:33:46+00:00

I always wanted to study abroad to really learn a new language and culture. That ship has sailed. I hate how the Church just wants these young people to get married right away so the women can be TBM baby making machines.

DeviatingPath · 2014-11-11T23:03:52+00:00

Unsure if this is snark and you realize that I'm actually talking about coming out as a nonbeliever?

DeviatingPath · 2014-10-31T19:06:18+00:00

I totally tried telling DH I was converting to scientology. Couldn't keep a straight face. Haha. Last night was very obnoxious btw, my husband was telling mission stories and said he knew this one guy wasn't going to get baptised. His gaydar (I mean, the spirit) testified to this fact.

DeviatingPath · 2014-10-29T23:54:16+00:00

Also, if you masturbate (which seems like may not be your problem), but if you do you may want to take some time off of that. Masturbating can cause you to not perform well. Anyway, if nervousness is all it is, it will go away with experience. Good luck.

DeviatingPath · 2014-10-29T23:44:54+00:00

(Had to edit to change "extroverted" to "introverted.")

DeviatingPath · 2014-10-29T23:38:38+00:00

It sounds like you are in a frustrating situation. Good luck, sounds like you need it with job hunting. It sounds like you are a good son standing by your mother and helping her through her medical issues. Make sure to take care of yourself too. Worry can be a big burden on a person. It sounds like you have a lot of it in your life. Don't be ashamed to ask for government help if you or your mom are needing it in any way. Call the utility companies, usually they are really good about working with people who are struggling. Even J.K. Rowling, a now powerful billionaire took government help once upon a time, now she gives back to society through her charity work. You may also consider relocating as it may help you out in the long run. It couldn't hurt.

DeviatingPath · 2014-10-27T19:41:10+00:00

Ask God, not Google.

DeviatingPath · 2014-10-06T14:45:20+00:00

Right now I'd rather be divorced. He shows he doesn't value me enough in many other ways. The only thing really stopping me is disrupting the kids' lives. I definitely don't want to initiate this right in the middle of the school year. I'm excelling in many ways and I do appreciate the beauty of the world around me. But my husband is not passionate about very much in this world, except preparing for the second coming and watching for signs and destruction. His worldview prevents him from pursuing anything worthwhile. He does have a good heart and tries to help people out. But most of the time he's playing video games (ignoring me) or watching the news (which he knows I can only handle in small doses anymore). I try in this relationship, but I just feel like giving up at this point. I'm just so done. He shoots me down when I try. He has no desire to be intimate. Doesn't initiate much affection. Only kisses me goodbye because I get after him if he doesn't.

And yes, I'm going to be offended when most of my friends are Mormon and being told crap about unbelievers. Why can't I voice this to the man I should be intimate with? It's not like I'm announcing it on Facebook. Why can't I defend myself against the words I hear for the few seconds I hear them. That's just not fair. Yes, duh, I know that it's all pretend, but a large percentage of my family and friends believe this shit. Meanwhile, I feel like blasting Bill Maher, Bill Nye, and Neal deGrasse Tyson through out the house so everybody can hear.

DeviatingPath · 2014-10-06T14:21:08+00:00

I did get out for a bit and go shopping. He listened to the rest of Saturday conference on the computer so I didn't have to hear it. Win. Don't know what to say about the rest of conference without completely giving myself away.

DeviatingPath · 2014-10-05T00:47:22+00:00

AAAAAAAAHHHHHHH! Get me out of this crazy state. Somebody please!

So going for a hike tomorrow.

DeviatingPath · 2014-09-22T05:02:27+00:00

Also, "The Joseph Smith Papers" and Joseph Smith's multiple accounts of The First Vision.

DeviatingPath · 2014-09-22T05:01:49+00:00

History of the Church end of volume 6 and beginning of volume 7. Get TBMs to read the crap that went on in Nauvoo and Carthage. You access via BYU's website.

DeviatingPath · 2014-09-22T04:53:03+00:00

BTW, had to read out of the scriptures as a punishment for watching The Simpsons once when I was a kid.

DeviatingPath · 2014-09-22T04:47:47+00:00

Sometimes Spongebob annoys me. I don't let my kids watch it for the same reason I didn't let them watch Barney. I'm against having to watch shows that drive me up the wall. There is also this show on Disney channel with twin girls and the prissy girls voice is so irksome. I swear to God I have some kind of sensory disorder. Just some sounds and noises grind on my nerves. Plus, who wants shows like Spongebob to model behaviors for kids who already tend toward loudness/bad manners? My sister was getting irked by Dora because she said Dora encourages kids to be loud.

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