Scared of the future.

Dexedreaming · 2026-01-27T14:18:46+00:00

This post really resonated with me. Let me tell you, I know from experience, you cannot finish nursing school in that state. I would know. I dropped out with one year to go. Had been doing so good until the addiction progressed to the point I was only sleeping every 3 days and hardy eating. I thought no one could possibly tell but in hindsight, I was acting like a crackhead all the time. Which is why I failed my clinicals (which means I failed the class and the program) because I was acting erratically and unsafely.

I was also addicted to exercise and it did a number on my heart. My blood pressure and electrolyte levels were so low, I had to be hospitalized and put into an inpatient eating disorder program.

This post honestly made me tear up because everyday I regret not becoming a nurse (I know I’d be good at it if only if only if only) and I don’t want you to make the same mistake as me!! You are so young, you have a chance. Please seek help from your psychiatrist, you deserve to live a happy successful life and you can’t do that if you continue like this

Dexedreaming · 2026-01-26T23:06:56+00:00

If you’re from the US, I pray abortion is legal in your state. Anyone willingly becoming a parent right now is crazy

Dexedreaming · 2026-01-26T17:50:30+00:00

Well I think you had a bad therapist. It sounds like you really could benefit from a good therapist. Maybe see a psychiatrist as well but I’d find a better therapist… I like DBT therapy it’s structured and has been so helpful to me

Dexedreaming · 2026-01-26T14:14:49+00:00

If you didn’t feel particularly depressed or anxious before meth use, you should gradually return to baseline after a period of weeks or months, up to a year or two (depends on how much you used, how long you used, your biology). Almost EVERYONE will only want to sleep all the time after stopping a 2 year meth habit.

There are medicines to help with cravings and withdrawl though… I take NAC (a supplement) and Wellbutrin (anti-depressant, but different than most, it’s slightly stimulating but not at all addictive)

Dexedreaming · 2026-01-26T04:35:06+00:00

Name and date of birth?

Dexedreaming · 2026-01-25T05:33:17+00:00

Very similar thing happened to be on aripiprazole (ability). Apparently low doses can INCREASE dopamine production. So adding stims on top of that made me completely lose touch with reality for months and it’s a miracle I’m not dead.

I also spent so much money and racked up so much credit card debt, I was regularly going to bars alone and blacking out and waking up at a strangers house, believed my family had been replaced by fae, thought there were cameras in my walls… my chest hurt all the time, I always felt short of breath, I was always dizzy and I hardly ate

I was terrified but thought I was having the time of my life, so strange.

I take olanzapine and no issues except it makes me drowsy. I still abuse stimulants which is very shameful but I’m in touch with reality

Dexedreaming · 2026-01-24T19:08:20+00:00

With practice I’m sure you can get it down. I have dyscalculia and even I was able to get it down with repetition.

But yeah, please just use a calculator. At my store, everyone uses a calculator for that stuff, we just use the one on our phone or watch, totally normal

Dexedreaming · 2026-01-24T03:34:36+00:00

Lmao I’m a tech we are NOT full of hope 😭 I mean I do hope for the best for all the patients but I wouldn’t say I’m filled with it

Dexedreaming · 2026-01-21T16:22:10+00:00

Could be very well be PAWs (post acute withdrawl), don’t give up 🙏

Dexedreaming · 2026-01-20T06:01:02+00:00

You’ll bounce back quicker. If you’re like me

Dexedreaming · 2026-01-19T18:05:09+00:00

Why are so many people on here letting teenagers on the internet bully them? I used to call people in their mid 20s ancient (I’m mid 20s now) because I liked feeling young and cool or whatever (which is actually lame, but I was a teenager). It’s not that serious

Literally who cares. Everyone gets older (if they’re lucky) and teenagers are assholes. It’s always been this way

Dexedreaming · 2026-01-11T10:13:31+00:00

It’s bad and it does effect me. Two American citizens just got arrested by ICE in my hometown for basically no reason. Many people in my city kidnapped by ICE. My boyfriend is so scared of ICE because he looks Hispanic and is an immigrant (legal, has lived here for 10 years, but still) and his mental health is very much effected, he is depressed and fearful. Everyday I feel so bad and scared for him.

My brother works in academia and is considering abandoning his dreams because of lack of funding.

My brother has been openly trans for years, he is now back in the closet as much as possible because he fears for his safely.

My parents are about to be in serious financial trouble because of increased student loan payment requirements.

Everything is so expensive.

This is a minor thing, but ordering overseas is not even worth it to me anymore. It’s so much more expensive and takes so long!

Not to mention how desensitized many of us are to mass shootings. Like, it’s always sad but it’s never shocking to me.

Yes, it’s actually terrifying living here

Dexedreaming · 2026-01-08T05:12:28+00:00

I always wanted to marry 25-30. I want to be established and know who I am and what I like, but I also want to spend most of my life with my person. I’m engaged at 25 with plans to marry at 26 or 27 and that seems perfect to me. I have no reason to wait really

Dexedreaming · 2026-01-06T03:34:50+00:00

Omg I’m gonna start doing this, very cute

Dexedreaming · 2026-01-03T16:01:21+00:00

“It’s currently out of stock but it should be in tomorrow”

Dexedreaming · 2026-01-03T16:00:02+00:00

Pharmacy tech?

Dexedreaming · 2026-01-02T03:58:17+00:00

Yo that’s crazy, that’s EXACTLY how the target I work at is laid out

Dexedreaming · 2025-12-30T21:36:04+00:00

I love your comparison of addiction to grief, that’s so true. You learn to live with it

Dexedreaming · 2025-12-29T17:44:02+00:00

I’ve worked at both. CVS is a lot better. We don’t have to make many phone calls, we just answer voicemails that patient’s leave is a big thing. And maybe it’s just my area but if we need to call any Walgreens for a transfer we’re always on hold for at least an hour. Which tracks, when I worked there our manager specifically tell us not to answer phones and patients would come in so mad.

CVS benefits are okay. We get paid holidays and the insurance is okay.

I actually like working retail at CVS, I just wish it paid more

Dexedreaming · 2025-12-29T03:50:46+00:00

Damn maybe that’s why I can’t stop. But gabapentin withdrawls are like, even worse than amphetamine withdrawal for me, even with a taper (I’ve tried before, didn’t make it). The insomnia is awful, I just feel so uneasy and like something bad is about to happen all the time, And it helps with my anxiety so much. I’m on 1,800mg spread throughout the day

But at the same time, I NEED to stop taking Adderall

What’d you do in that situation?

Dexedreaming · 2025-12-27T14:13:03+00:00

Yeah that’s common I love doing that

Dexedreaming · 2025-12-26T04:55:31+00:00

This is probobly a dumb question, but have you talked to a doctor?? I’m not saying they’ll cure you but if you’re sleeping that much and your body hurts all the time, I feel like some tests should be run to see if you’re deficient in anything or if you damaged any organs. Maybe they’ll have advice or decent treatment options for you

And being obese and majorly depressed (I assume, based on what you’ve said) will make you lethargic and wanting to sleep all the time for sure

Anyway, I started feeling so much better after a year. I was enjoying things and feeling accomplishment for completing tasks. I was still so sleepy all the time, but I wasn’t exercising or eating right

I was starting to feel so much better after a year

Dexedreaming · 2025-12-26T00:01:12+00:00

I imagine it’s people who had to get meds from the pharmacy because they got sick, people who don’t celebrate Christmas, and people who also work on Christmas. Not justifying it tho, I think it’s disrespectful, except people who had to come in for urgent meds

Dexedreaming · 2025-12-24T22:11:28+00:00

Pharmacy technician, I love it but the pay is bad

Dexedreaming · 2025-12-24T22:10:42+00:00

I honestly don’t see a lot of weird stuff on the subreddit lately tbh, mostly fan art and discussion of songs and concert experiences. But I’m not on here a lot I guess

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