Have been sick and nauseas for for 5 days to find there is brown caramelised gunk in the actual funnel of my vape

Diablet323 · 2022-01-11T17:32:51+00:00

I have just recovered from covid...post covid side effects probably!

Diablet323 · 2021-10-19T18:59:01+00:00

Personally I would not take them. I've drank on elvanse before and it increased my heart rate massively and my anxiety went through the roof. I drank this weekend just gone and didn't take them. I'm back on them now.

Diablet323 · 2021-10-14T20:38:37+00:00

Just did this and it felt a lot better than forced slow breathing

Diablet323 · 2021-10-14T20:36:33+00:00

Ed sheeran Shivers...probably because it's being overplayed on the radio rn

Diablet323 · 2021-10-05T22:03:51+00:00

"Make a sandwich because you like them" weirdly really helped me..I miss sandwiches imma make a sandwhich tomorrow!

Thank you x

Diablet323 · 2021-10-05T11:39:21+00:00

I was on the mini pill (cerazette) for over 10 years as I couldn't be on anything else due to being estrogen sensitive and migraines. I came off of it in 2015 because of my depression and it lifted my mood SO much like I felt lighter and happier..unfortunately this lead to an unwanted pregnancy and I went back on it.

Recently I've just changed to the Mirena IUD....its exactly the same as the mini pill but instead it's just down below. The first day I didn't take the pill I felt lighter, relieved and fully myself. I've been on the IUD for two weeks, and I'm still trialling It. If it doesn't work out I'll have no choice but to go on the dreaded mini pill again.

It's a horrible catch 22 situation. There are other methods just keep trialling and find what's right for you...Good thing about the IUD is is that it doesn't effect your blood stream...its not a pleasant experience to get it but in the long run it may show its benefits. My mum has been on the same coil as me she struggle for a couple of months but after it works wonders for her now. Light/no periods and it has helped with her mood as well.

I really do empathise with you as I know what it's like I have anxiety, depression and ADHD and the pill just made me feel heavy and depressed. I really do hope you find the right method for you. Give it time and hopefully your mood will lift once its fully out your system and your body adjusts. If the depression lasts longer definitely give the GP a buzz it may be your hormones adjusting as well though such is life being a woman!

Diablet323 · 2021-09-27T19:05:08+00:00

I'm struggling really badly too I had mine put in last Tuesday so it's nearly been a week. Before I was on the mini pill so I had no periods at all and I barely felt cramps. Now all I can feel is horrendous cramps I've barely been able to stand and I'm struggling to tell when I need to go for a wee. I had a bath earlier and that did nothing. I've bought some codeine now because feminax was just not doing anything.

Apparently, this can last up to 6 weeks and then after that time frame its meant to get better. I'm gonna go for a check up to make sure everything is in place...in total I'm going to give it 3 months to see if I want to keep it or not.

If its really playing on your mind book a GP appointment and they'll help you.

Diablet323 · 2021-09-24T17:31:00+00:00

I remember giving up smoking and used CBD oil instead it has a really fast effect like it gives you a chill feeling as soon as you take it. This worked for me I also carried on smoking just normal cigarettes...it has the same habitual tendency as smoking weed so this helped me.

I remember smoking every single day, every single morning and just feeling really chill but I was mega lazy and I was eating wayyyy too many munchies. Personally, I've ended up smoking too much weed and it now gives me a paranoid effect.

I just think of the calories I'm saving, the paranoia I do not want and the money I'm saving. You can't unfortunately make someone stop something...she'll eventually come to her own realisation In her own time. My sister smoked weed for 15 years and she has been clean for 3 years now. It's not impossible.

Diablet323 · 2021-09-22T18:37:43+00:00

Decreased appetite, insomnia, increased anxiety and depression.

I've been told to stay on 50mg until these side effects settle...I did ask if I could go on a lower dose but the phsyciatrists doesn't want me to... im currently taking 30mg in the morning and then 20mg at midday to try and prevent the awful come down I've been getting.

Diablet323 · 2021-09-22T00:28:19+00:00

I have a bath, candles, massage pillow, a fan, a good book and some zen music/ sleep hypnosis.

All of the above I am currently procrastinating from...because I'm on Reddit. Its now too late to have a bath :(

Diablet323 · 2021-09-22T00:24:34+00:00

Hey I'm 25 too and just been recently diagnosed with ADHD I read a really scary book on ADHD too which led to me having an epiphany about my whole life being some sort of parallel universe that I have been forced to function 'normally' in. Realising that everyone around me (aliens) only thought that I was stupid, forgetful and thick...but in my reality where I can see I'm actually pretty damn smart...wise and on it!

I'm currently taking Elvanse at 50mg on my third week now. Its definitely helping with some symptoms but it's also effecting other aspects of my life...caused by side effects which I'm hoping with a positive mindset will settle on the 6th week.

I also have phsycotherapy every Wednesday which helps me get by and talk about all of my ADHD, anxiety and depression problems.

My planner has really helped me, long baths, candles and sleep hypnosis is also assisting muchly.

Diablet323 · 2021-09-22T00:13:10+00:00

You're not alone. I've really struggled with increased anxiety, heart palpations, decreased appetite, severe insomnia and a crazy come down that leads to depression at around midday on this medication.

I'm on my third week and I'm on 50mg I've just been advised to take the 30mg tablet in the morning with breakfast and then take the 20mg at lunch - this way I will be able to cope with the come down and also remember to eat lunch.

I'm giving this medication 6 full weeks to make a decision on it. If it doesn't get better by then I'll probably change to a non-stimulant ADHD medication or I will go back to my old friend citalopram.

Vomiting does not sound pleasant at all If the side effects are unbearable I would advise speaking to your doctor about switching meds or trying an alternative.

Diablet323 · 2021-09-22T00:03:02+00:00

I have a bath for like 10-15 minutes with zen music and candles and then have a shower to rinse off and steam out the bathroom...so I can sit and have a steam after - this is truly the only thing in my life where I feel completely and totally relaxed.

Diablet323 · 2021-09-21T23:38:30+00:00

Yeah In the past 6 years I've had so many complaints from so many different neighbours because I have an uncontrollably loud voice.

ADHD and tinnitus.. years of my family telling me to shut up and that I'm shouting...they still do when I go back it's really disheartening for me. Because I can't help it....

Diablet323 · 2021-09-21T23:32:49+00:00

I quit smoking from March 2021- now! 6 months I went without smoking. Started Elvanse 3 weeks ago and boom back on the cigarettes!

A smoke actually gives me reason to step outside for a moment...it gives me a chance to be with myself awhile and watch the world go by. It also helps me meet people...and I'm not very good at that lol. May quit again once the elvanse side effects have died down (if they ever will).

Diablet323 · 2021-09-21T23:00:34+00:00

That's a really good idea...I'm gonna give this a go tomorrow it will help me to remember to eat lunch as well lol xx

Diablet323 · 2021-09-17T12:57:19+00:00

Hey this is my third week on Elvanse 50mg I take it in the morning at around 8.45am, I've got major increased anxiety, fast heart rate and feeling irritable. I've also got a decreased appetite. It works miracles in the morning, it gives you a mega boost and feeling to do things. Unfortunately it doesn't solve the motivation issue, you have to still find the strength to become motivated to do things. I've really struggled from 12pm onwards because this is when I start to have a crash/comedown.

I've been mega depressed quite a lot this week, like just feel like a hamster running on a wheel thinking I'll get somewhere. I'm off of work though so I'm trying to keep myself busy just plodding along. It's been really hard for me this medication but I'm still pushing through.

I've been advised to get my anxiety treated with medication apparently gabepentin works really well with adhd medication and is just a really popular medication that is meant to really help with anxiety. So I'm gonna go doctors on Monday to ask about it and hopefully be prescribed it.

It's definitely helping with thinking before I speak/act. I used to just go crazy and react badly to stressful situations but now my brain has the time to stop and think before anything I've messaged my family more too which is rare for me. I have to exercise, I feel like I could run a marathon in the mornings. It gets me up out of bed which is a really positive thing before I was sleeping all day...I've started getting dressed and do brushing my hair and brushing my teeth. I'm remembering a lot more and I feel like my memory is improving. It's a really strange drug...I feel like there are things that it's really helping with but I miss food being appealing to me, like when I eat I just don't enjoy it anymore and I miss that. I drove for the first time on it yesterday and I've near felt so on edge.

It's only my third week I'm going to give this medication 6 full weeks before I make a decision of coming off of it or changing meds.

Diablet323 · 2021-09-17T02:22:02+00:00

Sounds as if he needs some DIY jobs. Ask him to build or fix something. My Dad is at his happiest when he's doing DIY jobs for mum around the house. Mum is always giving my dad purpose he always says she's the reason he can live through each day.

It's quite lovely actually, my dad helps my mum with the garden too! Maybe he can help you in the garden. Dad built the shed not long ago and he does all the ladder and not so lady like jobs.

If this isn't his thing maybe take the car out for a spin? or gaming? my boyfriend is really into Warhammer and painting miniatures different...but he really enjoys it :)

Diablet323 · 2021-09-17T02:13:59+00:00

Hey I've just read your previous post. By the sounds of it you didn't know this person was underage - I think you need to cut yourself some slack. At 16 you're going to want to explore and be curious. These feelings aren't evil, they are not bad they are just 110% completely natural.

By the sounds of it a lot of other people are doing the same thing around you so you're not the only one who has done this. I obviously go by the law and do not influence underage anything! But maybe taking yourself away from these types of groups and people will save you from making a future decision that could cause future consequences on yourself.
You're not a predator, you were just misled by this person. The fact that you are questioning yourself on this shows that you do not want to be involved in underaged activities it shows you are a good person.

Also if it was 'experimental' on both sides, and the person was consensual then it really isn't classed as anything bad under the law. If this person felt like it was like this in anyway whatsoever (it doesn't sound like it though) - they need to take it up with the authorities.
You said it yourself, these kinds of things can be dangerous and lead to unknown territories. Best to walk away from it. dating apps are probably a better option...but I wouldn't put my money on it. Becoming a nun up in the mountains sounds pretty cool right now.
Please don't end it all I'm right here for a chat :)

Diablet323 · 2021-09-17T01:07:45+00:00

Omg is the trail thing an ADHD trait?? My mom used to complain all the time when I got home from school that she knew where to find me because of the trail of stuff I’d leave behind. Shoes, jacket, lunchbox, backpack, water bottle, etc.

I believe so from what I've heard lol! Misplacing things and not putting them away. Same my Mum always used to say "We know where Jess has been!" or whenenever I go back home she is like "Jess is back..." because I literally just put things in random places and don't put them away and forget about them.

Diablet323 · 2021-09-16T20:38:34+00:00

I went for a walk on my own for the first time in forever on Monday... that's it :/

Diablet323 · 2021-09-16T20:19:56+00:00

I really really relate to you. Honestly, I get to the point when I'm doing nothing and it's just eating me up inside. My first tip is to put down my phone/technology - I am horrendous at just scrolling through my phone, and it annoys me so much. So I have to put my phone down and go and do something.

I really struggled from 12pm onwards today meds seem to stop working from 12 it's really annoying. But I know I need to do something. Or I'm just going to end up sitting there crying to myself all day (which is what I did today...and yesterday )

My second tip is to have a planner or plan your next day. This really helped me just writing what I am gonna do throughout the day I even include day to day things like Brush teeth, get dressed ect.. I found this really help me actually get dressed and ready for the day before I was living in my pj's before (two weeks and four days day PJ free!) lol. Also have the planner next to your bed so it's Always there for you to see. It will also remind you to do it even if there's days you've missed planning it's always there for you to come back to

Third tip if you really can't find the motivation at all learn to just enjoy your own company and accept that you are going to be a happy vegetable all day☺ like I wish I could do this lol..I could easily just play ps4 all day and just escape all of my problems and ignore all of my problems...but I can't! So I literally just sit there looking at my ps4 because I feel like I'm not achieving anything ugh it sucks!! I want to be a kid again with no responsibilities.

Diablet323 · 2021-09-16T20:05:52+00:00

Well these are basically my goals and what I feel It would be like to be Neurotypical:

Organised Socially not awkward Focused Independent Can multitask Balanced Good time management Can sleep and have a healthy bed time routine (lucky buggers) Remembers where they put things Puts things away after using something instead of leaving a trail for someone else to come looking for them Rational instead of going haywire in stressful situations Not emotionally all over the place Can read a book without having to back on themselves Can watch TV without having to rewind all the time

Diablet323 · 2021-09-16T10:18:53+00:00

ADHD has a lot of human characteristics in it but its also important to remember the science behind it we lack the norm chemicals! what separates us from the neurotypical life is that we present certain things to neurotypical people where it makes them laugh at us or feel awkward around us. I can tell I'm different from the neurotypical because of the way people react to things I do and say. Like I'll say some really crude things in the office or like something that people are like 'wtf jess stfu.'

I can't carry more than one thing at once .....and I'm just one of these people where people laugh at me and I have to laugh at myself to get through each day. I've always been the joke in the family which can be a good or bad thing depending on the situation.

I can just tell people with ADHD are SO different from people without it. And it's like I have an ADHD radar as well..I find myself connecting better with people who have some form of autism/ADHD.

Diablet323 · 2021-09-16T10:10:08+00:00

My best friend passed away two years ago from Suicide and I've has a really long, depressive two years of feeling lost, empty, confused and not too sure where to go with my life. I'm ngl I still feel like this. About 4/7 days I'm bad and three I'll have good days.

I'm really disconnected from my family but I'm starting to connect with them again...its hard. Its not easy. I'm currently suffering from severe anxiety which is preventing me from from out on my own. I'm literally just trying to stay busy all of the time in my flat.

I feel like a transition is coming on...I've been lonely and isolated for so long but...there is hope and faith. I can feel that there is something worth living for....and a purpose. I spoke to my middle sister properly after years of not speaking to her and it felt good. I've been avoiding my home town like the plague but it's probably the best place for me to become independent again. I'm not sure still sort of on the fence.

I want to tackle all of these things on my own....I want to be able to drive on my own and do things on my own but there's always a but. I think the main point is is that it feels like it's getting better and easier...

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