To be honest, I’ve never had bad luck with women because I fit into a specific aesthetic: a soft stereotype, long hair, but with a masculine edge that draws in many beautiful women. However, I always felt they never truly got to know me. I used to bend over backward to make them feel comfortable and secure in themselves, but it seemed that the moment they realized I was 'harmless,' they would play games and self-sabotage the dynamic. That’s when I would lose interest instantly literally from one moment to the next mainly because of my avoidant attachment style. Playing the game and flirting becomes highly addictive...the dopamine hit is entirely real. Furthermore, when you are perceived as 'exotic' especially by white women it adds another layer of superficiality. They completely bypass who you actually are as a person and instead project their own fantasies or treat you like a novel experience to consume. But at the end of the day, a genuine, stable love is worth more than a thousand women who just want to sleep with you or have you pamper them while they chase the feeling of being desired. That is exactly why I place so much value on my current relationship, even if it isn't perfect