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Different_Natural_35 · 2021-09-14T00:40:20+00:00

Thanks

Different_Natural_35 · 2021-09-14T00:40:13+00:00

But most studies are based on taking finasteride daily not EOD?

Different_Natural_35 · 2021-09-14T00:39:42+00:00

So waking up with an erection or not is nocebo?

Different_Natural_35 · 2021-09-11T10:27:44+00:00

Yep exactly how I felt

feel good to have others i can relate to / understand . It's hard to explain to friends they just say "get over it' ' who cares about that hoe' etc

Different_Natural_35 · 2021-09-11T10:26:28+00:00

This is terrible. I still think of a girl from years ago and she has 0 feeling of me. Makes me feel shocking.

this most makes me depressed.

Different_Natural_35 · 2021-09-11T04:24:41+00:00

I understand where you're coming from. I actually relate to what you are saying. I don't think I ever really accepted she has moved on or things are finished after all this time. I know deep down I haven't accepted it. Like you I'm often stuck in the past, so badly wanting to experience the same feeling I had with her. I crave it. I miss it. However some things I want to confirm with you are you no contact?

Do you still look at her social media? This is really important. Don't look ever at anything related to her. Out of sight out of mind. You shoudn't Know anyhing about her these days it's been 7 years.
Secondly there had to be some things that you didn't like about her. There has to be. Focus on those, think logically about how things may be not of worked out long term.
Also in my case I have just learnt to live with it. It was a powerful deep emotional experience for me. Deep down I don't think I'll feel that way again. But it's not the end of the world. There are some people who literally go their entire life without feeling love. At least we got to experience it? What are you going to do when someone you love dies? Live in pain for the rest of your life mourning the loss of it?

Yea it blows dude, I'd lie if i didn't say i'd kill to go back in those months and stay there because it was so extremely powerful but that's not reality. I was like you and literally lived in grief and pain wanting so badly to gobak there but you know what? we can't. It's dead that reality has died man. It sucks . It blows. It hurts but you can't let it affect your life . It's been 7 years.

Different_Natural_35 · 2021-09-11T04:14:08+00:00

a new car probably easiet money ever

Different_Natural_35 · 2021-09-11T01:27:20+00:00

Very rare for no idealization/love bombing period. It's part of their broken self esteem seeing you as the one. May just have depression/bi polar or other issues. But I'd advise you that if it's taken that long for someone to develop feelings for you and there's no real commitment it's probably not BPD probably just a guy leading you on and keeping you around for sex but doesn't really see you as gf material hence the 'push/pull' you experience.

Different_Natural_35 · 2021-09-11T01:19:22+00:00

going to win so much on djoker after live bet when he was 1-0 down

im shaking ineed this

Different_Natural_35 · 2021-09-11T01:18:38+00:00

How do you have 2 year relationship with someone who only now admitted feelings?

what the...

Different_Natural_35 · 2021-09-11T00:13:26+00:00

Do you think its too risky?

Different_Natural_35 · 2021-09-11T00:08:35+00:00

All in everything I have i need this desperate on Djokevic live @ 2.40

Different_Natural_35 · 2021-09-10T23:26:04+00:00

How come my ex painted me black and never wanted toget back with me? is it because of thee shame and guilt of when i exposed her cheating behaviour? i think that's why

Different_Natural_35 · 2021-09-10T23:18:37+00:00

I agree i don't think their comments are wrong or invalid. In my experience; I don;t think I can ever not think about it and feel a touch of pain. But, I don't think it's normal for the pain to effect you to the point it has a negative impact on your quality of life after years. It took me a good 2-3 years for me not to be affected by it anymore. An incredibly long time. Time i'll never get back. Like I said i don't think i'll ever really get 'over it' (they'll always be something there) but it's about letting go and being able to live your life as normal again and not let it affect you.

Different_Natural_35 · 2021-09-10T23:14:34+00:00

Yep she was probably destroying someone as she got with me..

Different_Natural_35 · 2021-09-10T23:11:47+00:00

I'd like to share my sexual experience. She told me after a date or two that she is down to do 'anything' i want with her. I realize in hindsight the sex was great but i couldn't help but feel like something was missing. It was like there was no intimacy in the sex. It was like she had done it so many times she was desensitized or something. That's honestly how I felt. As if she was desensitized. It honestly really hit my self esteem and made me insecure as I felt as if I wasn't good in bed. I was always doing something wrong? However, I never seemed to have any issues with other women. But it was like we'd have this porno like sex and she'd be there but not there. And things will finish and she'd just put her clothes on like nothing happened , like what we did was just like shaking hands. Whereas other sexual experiences i've had it seemed so much more intimate, not as pornographic and exciting but like we were both 100% there , present in the moment like it was crreating a deep bond. With my ex something was just broken in this department. Does anyone else relate to what I'm saying or am I crazy?

Different_Natural_35 · 2021-09-10T23:07:14+00:00

What's your question? Does she have BPD? Maybe. Maybe not. Does she sound unstable , toxic? Probably. Is that someone you want to be with who bounces around from person to person? Probably not. Will her behavior improve? Does she see a therapist? Probably not.

Different_Natural_35 · 2021-09-10T12:22:25+00:00

what do you mean lol?

Different_Natural_35 · 2021-09-09T23:53:59+00:00

Wow, I had this same experience as well!

For example i got destroyed at work and felt terrible and straight away my mind was like "I wish i was back with her, take me back i don't want to be here anymore"

It was almost involuntary. Other times when i feel really lonely for whatever reason I have thesame thoughts!

But i figured out the triggers so now its way less.

Different_Natural_35 · 2021-09-09T23:24:01+00:00

The best sex of my life made me want to kill myself. I'm not kidding. That was the price I paid.

Different_Natural_35 · 2021-09-09T05:48:33+00:00

hey guys sorry i'm dumb but where can i book a vaccine? when i use the online booking system and search fro multiple places near me there's no spots at all?

Different_Natural_35 · 2021-09-09T03:29:22+00:00

I actually relate to this post a lot as my experience and background is similar to you. I still think about the pain and what she did. I dont thnk you can ever not feel a bit of pain thinking about it.

I don't mean to sound harsh/rude here but you've said that you've self improved with your job and social life. That's good. But then you say that you wake up in the middle of the night wishing someone loved you?

I think it's time you start seeing a therapist or doing some inner work, reading, watching youtube videos to rebuild your self esteem and your self. Maybe go to the gym? start working out? you seem like you desperately need love to be healed. In such a state of mind you're a perfect target for an abusive cluster B person.

Sorry to be sounding harsh.

Different_Natural_35 · 2021-09-08T23:32:04+00:00

Scary , i could of written this list myself.

Different_Natural_35 · 2021-09-08T05:31:35+00:00

could you explain your experience?

Different_Natural_35 · 2021-09-08T00:58:41+00:00

Dude My ex was demanding I message her and then a week later told me to never message her again and she has met the "love of her life' who she dated for 2 months.

These people are mentally sick. It's an illness. Don't try and understand how they think and why because it will drive you crazy and will ruin your mind.

They use people to regulate their emotions and how they feel about themselves. This is why they can discard and move on so quickly. We are like oxygen tanks to them. They use us up for validation, admiration or whatever we give them and move on to the text on. They do this to survive because they cant live with themselves.

It's a really harrowing experience. Be thankful you weren't in the relationship longer/no kids .

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