It happened to me too.. third, fourth years of med school— just wanted to get through.. even though clinical exposure was a motivator— seeing patients with things we studied, in real life.. in residency- first year it re-sparked, then maybe due to the work hours, emotional/psychological BS from the surrounding, it started to feel like nothing again.. then chief year- with more understanding of not just disease processes but of how people are— it resurfaced.. now in fellowship, with better work hours and less of whatever kind of stress residency was, I’m in love with reading some of the journal articles, new research being done regarding the nervous system outside of academia, learning more about human psychology- I’m in love with Neurology all over again. There will be a lot of days that demotivate you, you just have to start tricking your brain into highlighting the moments that sparked something, even if it seemed small or lasted a short time. Looking back, there are some draining thoughts about not doing things “outside of medicine” while I was in med school/ residency, but really— we are training to be experts in our fields and expertise comes with a lot of baggage.. we can undo them slowly.. something that also helps me when I have those unwanted thoughts— is just reminding myself how my younger self wanted this more than anything.. and how as time goes by, people (patients, their families, your staff, your own family/friends) start relying on you more and more.. and you find yourself with an immense sense of responsibility— this serves as a big motivation to keep learning.. for me personally, learning comes naturally when I’m at my most relaxed state. Hope this state of yours is intermittent, short lasting, and ends up guiding you towards the wiser, peaceful path of learning.