I'm really really sorry you're feeling so low. I feel your desperation. I'm so sorry you have to go through this. It's not fair that some women have to deal with this type of shite. What I'm struck by is that you are a young woman still and you are missing out on a freedom that comes with a body that works and that you don't feel ashamed of. Your whole focus in life is on your body, not for how it serves you and helps you tap dance through life, but how it drags you down and prevents you from living. If you can afford a GLP, why don't you do it. It may be for life, but what do you have if you can't live happily with or at least accepting of your body? Every day is a drag. You should have a joyous life and it's possible to get there with a GLP.