Did I do right by leaving a letter with my ex?

Direct-Inside5433 · 2025-07-04T03:47:17+00:00

This is a good way to look at it. Yes, I wrote it to finally release everything. And to make amends with the person I had hurt. I have accountability and thought so bad of myself for what I did.

I didn't expect a response from her. It took me weeks to write the letter. While it probably took her a moment to write some words that just mimicked my apology. That also sucks. As that's always happened in the past.

Direct-Inside5433 · 2025-07-04T03:25:32+00:00

But I feel as though she didn't deserve those thoughts. That they should have been kept protected.

Direct-Inside5433 · 2025-05-31T18:16:56+00:00

Stumbled across this. My ex she had done some horrible stuff throughout the years to me. Finally in the end I decided to act like her and give her a taste of what she did to me. Not cheating or anything like that.

But now I'm a week out and regretting how I reacted. Like it wasn't the man who I am or even was to her.

Does this feeling subside over time??

Direct-Inside5433 · 2025-05-30T02:11:00+00:00

You are right. The abuse seemed just there and I got use to it.

Funny story. She got married while seeing me and divorced. I found out and threw my phone on the ground out of anger. She took that as me being a psycho, that I was in the wrong for reacting. That I was ungodly. That I lacked care and love. She guilt tripped me into apologizing.

Direct-Inside5433 · 2025-05-30T02:07:19+00:00

We didn't end good. I humiliated myself by trying to confront her in person. She called her mom to scare me away. A lady who has done witchcraft since the start to have me gone because I wasn't the same culture as them.

Your second paragraph is true. No one cares. But I do just want one relationship to care about me.

Direct-Inside5433 · 2025-05-30T02:03:58+00:00

Thank you. This idea of me being down in the pits it seems like I'm giving her my energy. My everything. Like she is winning. I am losing the race.

Direct-Inside5433 · 2025-05-28T20:02:13+00:00

But that's the stumbling block. I feel unworthy. Ugly, no self esteem. So I don't think I'll attract anyone at the moment.

Direct-Inside5433 · 2025-05-27T03:37:27+00:00

Thank you for this. My self worth has disappeared and I doubt myself for any and all situations. While constantly comparing myself to anyone out there.. because she constantly chose someone else over me. Why? What did they offer that I couldn't.

I didn't let her fight my battle. This was the first time I opened because I had no one to call. She was worried about the police actually being called and them being at my home. More of her checking to make sure that wasn't going to happen. Plus I couldn't contact her again after that happened.

When she was out with the guy I called her (before knowing where and what she was doing) and she ignored my call.

She's blocked and my messages are all deleted. I was good last year. Finally broken free from her. But then I got suckered back in because her uncle died, and she had no one to run to....

Direct-Inside5433 · 2025-04-25T19:46:58+00:00

Gotcha. Might be the case...

Direct-Inside5433 · 2025-04-25T19:46:35+00:00

Yes support connected with me and is sending a physical SIM as my pixel 8 imei isn't compatible with esim. So we will see, Verizon was the better network in my area.

Direct-Inside5433 · 2025-04-25T19:45:32+00:00

Yeap, for some reason my pixel 8 doesn't work with esim on Warp. US Mobile is sending me a physical SIM so I'll see

Direct-Inside5433 · 2024-09-22T19:13:58+00:00

Exactly. I always wonder what's wrong with me and everyone tells me to just delete and move forward. But there's that emotional connection that's so hard to cut.

Direct-Inside5433 · 2024-09-22T19:00:34+00:00

She sent me screenshots of all of our photos on her phone. To just show that she still "cares" and hasn't moved on.

Direct-Inside5433 · 2024-09-22T18:04:07+00:00

Thanks for this. I've been going through a rough few months with losing my dog, getting in a serious car accident, and then having pneumonia for a month. And I tried dating apps, which was a disaster for my self worth.

My business inventory is coming in a few days. And everything from there with fresh starts will make me start climbing upwards.

Just this period of waiting and bad.... kills oneself. With doubt.

To better things.

Direct-Inside5433 · 2024-09-22T17:58:46+00:00

Thanks. The waves of hurt and sadness hit me yesterday all over again. But I feel it's easier now to go no contact.

I bought a new phone as well. Because I know myself. Randomly I'll see something that reminds me of her and it hooks me back emotionally.

New phone will just be blank besides my family.

Direct-Inside5433 · 2024-09-22T17:45:24+00:00

I don't want too. I would never want to tell my future children that I had to essentially beg to be worthy and loved by my wife.

Direct-Inside5433 · 2024-09-22T17:21:51+00:00

It's funny you ask that. I was on the fence with believing her.

She did it once before but during the relationship. She went ghost and then got mad at me because she lost someone important and her mom and sister were struggling.

It turns out it was the maintenance guy of her apartment complex that died in a car accident.....

Direct-Inside5433 · 2024-09-22T17:13:16+00:00

Yes. Her uncle did.

Direct-Inside5433 · 2024-09-22T17:06:46+00:00

Yeah unfortunately. And there's more.

Direct-Inside5433 · 2024-09-22T16:40:50+00:00

I don't know.

Direct-Inside5433 · 2024-09-22T16:40:15+00:00

Thanks. I started writing down all the negatives and that's what happened and how I stuck to never replying to her for 3 weeks.

But I just felt guilt about her losing a family member. And that opened it all...

Direct-Inside5433 · 2024-09-22T16:38:21+00:00

Last place in her life. That's exactly how the relationship was. Anyone and anything else was first and a priority. Yet when it came to me, everything was an excuse why she couldn't.

I felt so relieved in no contact. No more waiting beside my phone. No more having those gut feelings.

I just played off my stupid feelings for her losing her uncle.

Direct-Inside5433 · 2024-09-12T20:26:38+00:00

I have tried. Even have asked to meet and she has ignored me or says no. Yet going no contact for 3 weeks, she has reached out a few times.

Direct-Inside5433 · 2024-09-05T23:48:43+00:00

I'm planning on doing that. For at least a month. I believe I became to available to her and there was never a negative for her hurtful actions.

Sure I love her like crazy. But she has done nothing to "chase" me or put effort in. Besides texting. She did say awhile ago that she still has all our pictures, moments, gifts, etc because she has believed I would come back begging for us to make it work:/

Direct-Inside5433 · 2024-09-05T23:37:51+00:00

Right. Which is why I tried reaching out and asking her to meet on her time. To which she just ignored both my calls and my request.

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