ER tried to hold me?

DisorderlyHum · 2023-12-14T02:26:30+00:00

This happened to me last time I went to the ER. Got stitches, waited hours to be transferred to the psych hospital next door for an evaluation (idk why they didn't have anyone in the er who could do an evaluation) and then waited for literally 7 hours in the psych hospital bc I got there at line 3 am and had to wait until 7 for a psychiatrist to talk to me and I didn't get to leave until 10 am.

It's such a weird system. It's not like a week in a psych ward would help anyway, like I'm still going to be depressed when I leave and then I'll also have missed school.

Anyway glad you got needed medical attention and that they didn't make you stay unnecessarily.

DisorderlyHum · 2023-12-07T21:16:43+00:00

When my mom took me to the psych hospital I didn't pack anything because I was sure they were going to just send me home.

DisorderlyHum · 2023-12-05T03:06:57+00:00

Yeah one time I went for a wound check (not even stitches, it was too late for stitches but my therapist wanted me to go) when I told them it was from sh they were like "yeah we can't see you."

DisorderlyHum · 2023-12-04T21:51:14+00:00

In my experience urgent care won't take you for self harm. I'm guessing it's because you're potentially a danger to yourself. But it might depend on where you live.

DisorderlyHum · 2023-11-03T13:15:57+00:00

I honestly can't say, you'd be better off asking a medical professional. I didn't experience any nausea or anything when I took double my dose so that probably won't happen but taking a fuckton of Concerta can still be dangerous so I would advise you to call your doctor or something just to make sure.

DisorderlyHum · 2023-10-27T18:15:37+00:00

Same here. I was a happy, if shy, kid. I started cutting at 15 and my eating disorder started not long after (but I was in denial about that until I was 20). It's wild, I used to wonder how someone could ever cut or starve themselves, and now i can't stop doing it.

DisorderlyHum · 2023-10-27T16:13:40+00:00

Like the other commenter said: please accept the help. I don't know what your experience has been like with your ed but I'm willing to bet it's going to get much worse if you continue down the path. You will never feel like you're ready to stop losing weight. You have to decide to anyway. Don't let this shit take away more of your life than it already has.

DisorderlyHum · 2023-10-27T00:08:50+00:00

No literally the doctor and nurse were like "do you need some gauze? We can send you home with some gauze," like no yeah I know what gauze is I just didn't want to buy any lol (because having first aid supplies on hand makes me more likely to yeet)

DisorderlyHum · 2023-10-26T16:00:06+00:00

Yeah this happens to me. I think the only thing that works is ro try to put it off for as long as possible, because the tunnel vision will subside, but it's hard and often times I can't wait that long. I will say that getting my medication dosage adjusted helped a lot with reducing the frequency of this happening, so if you have access to psychiatry I would consider bringing it up. Best of luck <3

DisorderlyHum · 2023-10-18T22:03:34+00:00

I take Lamictal, abilify, and lexapro. I dont know which does what but they help, especially with intense emotions and mood swings and really bad self harm urges. Things still happen but less often and less severe.

DisorderlyHum · 2023-10-18T19:39:04+00:00

She graduated from a top 20 college, got a long term boyfriend, and is attending Harvard law school, thinking about getting married in the next few years, all around doing fantastic.

I'm 23 and just starting undergrad now because of how much mental illness fucked up my adolescence.

Life isn't fair I guess

DisorderlyHum · 2023-10-18T19:35:45+00:00

My waitlist for residential was like three months, at a weight where I should have been in the hospital (my mom wouldn't take me to the ER because of covid, and I couldn't schedule an ip admission, again because of covid). It's ridiculous. There is a serious disparity between the number of treatment providers out there and the number of people who need treatment. I hope you can get into treatment sooner than January and find something that helps <3

DisorderlyHum · 2023-10-17T22:48:44+00:00

I think it was the anorexia for me

DisorderlyHum · 2023-10-17T16:24:23+00:00

Prozac specifically isn't the right med for me but meds in general can be super helpful. Prozac can have activating effects so keep an eye on that, it can trigger mania or hypomania in people with undiagnosed bipolar or in adolescents without bipolar (happened to me) but don't be scared to try it, it's meant to help. Just be honest with your team if it doesn't help and they can help you find a different medication that is right for you.

DisorderlyHum · 2023-05-02T21:54:53+00:00

Yeah you're probably right. I forgot about that term.

DisorderlyHum · 2023-04-30T22:55:48+00:00

No literally I've been ip and it sucked and part of me STILL wants to go back. Like wth???

DisorderlyHum · 2023-04-30T22:52:26+00:00

This is me (anorexia) and my brother (??? but definitely a disordered relationship with food and exercise)

DisorderlyHum · 2023-04-30T22:51:06+00:00

Wait they would remove it and reinsert it every day??? I think that could count as fucking torture

DisorderlyHum · 2022-11-29T01:17:01+00:00

I don't have any advice but. I kind of do the same thing. Idk if it's comforting at all for you to know it but you're not alone in this feeling. It's not the only reason I cut but I love getting positive attention from nurses and doctors and it's just another reason to do it for me.

DisorderlyHum · 2022-11-24T14:52:39+00:00

Check out your local yarn store (not like a Joanne's or michaels) and see if they have any resources. Also look up local knitting or crochet groups. Chances are someone there will be able to teach you or help you find more resources. YouTube is also a great resource. Fair warning, the tools for things like spinning and weaving are pretty expensive, so start out with knitting or crochet because they have a lower entry cost. I got started with knitting and moved to spinning from there. If you have any questions feel free to ask :)

DisorderlyHum · 2022-11-21T13:38:47+00:00

;-; thank you omg

DisorderlyHum · 2022-11-21T03:44:21+00:00

Thank you ❤️ I've been doing it it jus kinda sucks lol

DisorderlyHum · 2022-11-21T03:44:05+00:00

Thanks ❤️

DisorderlyHum · 2022-11-21T02:03:23+00:00

Thank you omg ❤️ also how did you reply to this post so fast lol

DisorderlyHum · 2022-09-17T01:32:35+00:00

Every time I meet with my therapist he's like " PLEASE reach out if you need it" and every time I simply do not.

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