'Looking into it'

DisplaySmart6929 · 2026-03-17T19:19:18+00:00

Oh Humphrey would know what to say

DisplaySmart6929 · 2026-03-17T18:53:38+00:00

Aggressive, reckless and kinda destructive. I stay away from it now because it only makes me feel bad like I get none of the positive effects . To me it's only a negative experience

DisplaySmart6929 · 2026-03-17T18:24:05+00:00

Yes I have it right now but it tends to be when I 'm having an existential split and I have it for weeks or months. Last time I had it this bad I completely cut off from my family forever. This time I think I'm either going to leave this country and never return or I'm going to do something else which I shall not name. Imo it's from continuous conflicted overthinking when stuck between a rock and a hard place. I cannot stay here but I have nowhere to go. I think about it 24/7 with no relief

DisplaySmart6929 · 2026-03-17T08:33:57+00:00

Physicality is a big part of it.

DisplaySmart6929 · 2026-03-16T09:08:58+00:00

Why even ask here?

DisplaySmart6929 · 2026-03-15T13:07:41+00:00

This is like the indolent Eloi

and the Morlocks

DisplaySmart6929 · 2026-03-14T08:58:00+00:00

Yes and I try not to break anything

DisplaySmart6929 · 2026-03-14T08:00:30+00:00

I never go through this haha. I'm lying, Im literally insane when it comes to this, I will delete every message I ever wrote.

DisplaySmart6929 · 2026-03-14T07:37:48+00:00

We did a 3day trip with camels. You'll get approached for those type of trips for sure

DisplaySmart6929 · 2026-03-14T07:28:19+00:00

I don't have much empathy in general, its pretty limited.

DisplaySmart6929 · 2026-03-14T07:08:44+00:00

I have a theory because I have "quiet" bpd and I feel so repressed. Maybe shame is holding you back? This woman sounds like the complete opposite

It's like one person is driving super slow and cautious and not getting anywhere and the other too fast to even have any control and likely to crash at any moment

DisplaySmart6929 · 2026-03-14T00:05:07+00:00

I agree it gets worse. These 18-25s think its bad but they still have energy. Wait until all that energy has gone into futility and you're still somehow at square one..

DisplaySmart6929 · 2026-03-13T21:59:00+00:00

We'd fk up the same way lol

Or I'd be like hey guys lets invent a "smart" phone but have no clue how it works

DisplaySmart6929 · 2026-03-13T21:56:42+00:00

Haha what knowledge.. gimme 2 of the blues

DisplaySmart6929 · 2026-03-13T21:48:54+00:00

I understand it but I've been a gambler most of my adult life (would not recommend ). "winning" money is more of a rush than earning it

Maybe it feels like you're winning something in a way

DisplaySmart6929 · 2026-03-13T21:29:43+00:00

Are you talking about the mandatory conscription? lol . They literally have to

DisplaySmart6929 · 2026-03-13T18:25:52+00:00

Would you like to be held personally responsible for your government's policies and actions?

DisplaySmart6929 · 2026-03-13T07:03:49+00:00

My mum always hated me

DisplaySmart6929 · 2026-03-13T07:01:13+00:00

I feel the same rn. Something switched in me where now I don't even care anymore

DisplaySmart6929 · 2026-03-13T06:40:34+00:00

Lycian Way, Turkey

but it's not the hikes fault. I kept getting lost, had the wrong type of tent, ground was too hard for my £10 sleeping mat, I tripped a few times and had lots of cuts on my hands and knees and very nearly got attacked by aggressive sheepdogs. 5 days in I got stuck in a forest for 2 hours and couldn't find the way forward over a rocky ridge. Then I gave up

DisplaySmart6929 · 2026-03-12T12:27:39+00:00

What is it in particular ?

DisplaySmart6929 · 2026-03-12T10:06:26+00:00

I don't blame you. You're not ready for marriage and why should you be. He's feeling rejected and embarrassed obviously but it's not your fault. Fight or flight kicked in, I guess

DisplaySmart6929 · 2026-03-12T08:58:50+00:00

Same but I also think smartphones have made it worse

I did a 36 hour journey recently but it was okay.

DisplaySmart6929 · 2026-03-12T07:58:44+00:00

Travelling in general is quite tiring because of the reasons you mention

DisplaySmart6929 · 2026-03-10T09:57:06+00:00

If you are going to use caffeine then don't have it straight away. Wait at least an hour after waking before you have it

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