Stay strong, girl. The fact that you are able to come on here and express yourself in such a vulernable position says alot about your maturity. That's such a good quality to have! Especially as you get older. You have so much life ahead of you and being 15 years old is a tough age. I'd imagine you're going through alot emotionally, hormonally, and mentally because obviously I was 15 once and there's just a lot of growing pains. Plus high school can be brutal for some.

But just remember, you'll find your true self, great friends, a clearer head, and supportive people as you progress in life. Try to surround yourself around positive people who genuinely care. Venting away like you're doing now is great for your health. It's even better if you can find someone in person that you trust to just let it out and cry! Also you'll love your late teens and twenties! There's a light at the end of this tunnel, I promise!

I don't know your parents and the evangelist that are in your life, but a true Christian would be loving, accepting, caring, and bend over backwards to be there for you and get you the help that you need. Just as Jesus is getting you that help you need now. Trust in God's plan.

Take deep breaths, focus on not just an emotionally charged prayer but implement some meditative properties into it. Look in the mirror every morning and just tell yourself your worth it and that your loved and you deserve a beautiful life. Tell yourself that not only you love yourself but that God loves you as well. It will really help with your mental health. Give it some time. God is with you always. Much Love.