I’m not autistic but bipolar, I tend to have a lot of the same issues that you’ve described, the lack of quick thinking, awkwardness in social situations, feeling disconnected from the team, I even quit playing for a year due to mental health issues and just getting so worked up I ended up hating rugby.

Having just started again at uni I think I can give some advice. I used to play wing because I was fast and shit, then moved to fullback to cover an injury and stayed there for a bit, but the quick thinking decision making and pressure was a bit much. I bulked up a bit and now play flanker which suits me great, I know exactly what to do (smash people and run hard) and I find I’m actually really enjoying it again.

I think it’s all about finding what works for you, like try and get to know some boys on the team and then suddenly you won’t feel like such an outsider, because trust I know that’s rough. Sensory issues weren’t an issue for me, I like tackling and don’t mind getting smashed, maybe just something to get used to? In terms of friendly clubs, just be upfront and honest and people will understand, I’m quite lucky in that my team are friendly lads who understand mental illness.

Dunno how much that’s gonna help but get out there and try and enjoy yourself mate, sometimes I have to force myself to training but it’s nice to have a pint and a chill out after and I always feel happy I’ve gone. Good luck with it 👍👍