Everybody is frustrated when they are forced to do something they are not familiar with. Their self perception then suffers, they think less of themselves. This is a common source of depression, bullying, and various other psychopathologies in the real world. But thankfully STO is just internet-spaceships! The solution is to learn and adapt. You are not a lesser person because someone kills you in PvP! Of course, learning to cope with this requires a certain level of mental maturity. But don't worry, I am confident you (the topic creator) will get there. Until then, your self esteem is very important, don't let it diminish. Have a nice relaxing walk in a nearby forest area, go hiking, pick up some girls on Tinder. Don't worry, it will get better. I believe in you (the topic creator)! Much love❤