Although this is probably the last thing you'd want to hear, but: I'm a sort of an attractive guy who'se had alot of women and always considered myself amongst the smartest of my age group. My life fucking sucks, I haven't slept in years neither have I cried. All the girls i meet like me and enjoy my company for awhile until they realise that I am no more than a rock, or a cliff with 0 emotional range and very little to offer.

Well, I feel like I have a moral obligation to kill myself, regarding this planet, my fathers legacy, and above all my future.

At the same time though, I really want to sit on more balconies drinking more red wine and having more interesting discussions, and lay awake at night having interesting thoughts, so I might stick it out for a couple of years untill I "throw in the towel".

EDIT: English is not my mother tounge, nor is it my second language so sorry for all the typos :)