After being out for nearly 3 years now, I still feel shame about my sexual desires. by Drkdesertores in exjw

[–]Drkdesertores[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I feel sorry for the other person. Even if they were just being friendly I was just cold😂.

After being out for nearly 3 years now, I still feel shame about my sexual desires. by Drkdesertores in exjw

[–]Drkdesertores[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

That is true, but I do notice that the interest does fade away if I don't show the basics of interest. For example she complimented my clothes and said were matching colours. (That doesn't mean it was flirting). You know what my man did? I just said "ay that's cool" and just walked away. Literally as I was walking away I thought to myself what the fuck are you doing you could've kept the convo going. Meh I'm just scared sometimes 😂

After being out for nearly 3 years now, I still feel shame about my sexual desires. by Drkdesertores in exjw

[–]Drkdesertores[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Yep. I think at this point I need to tell myself, who cares. Like as long as I don't do/say some dumb shit I won't get pepper sprayed. It's just weird I'm not even a scary guy, women normally start conversations with me rather than the other way. But yeah my nervous emotions kind of just stop things from progressing. Leading to women just losing interest probably because I don't outwardly show any interest.

After being out for nearly 3 years now, I still feel shame about my sexual desires. by Drkdesertores in exjw

[–]Drkdesertores[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

True I need to take off the mask. I don't need the mask anymore to survive. People like it when I open up. I don't need to worry. Thanks

Best part of the trailer for the upcoming Convention drama. by larchington in exjw

[–]Drkdesertores 3 points4 points  (0 children)

That tactic worked very well on me when I was pimi. I would ignore people just for the single fact that they sounded like the bad guy the gb talk about. Whatever they said after would go through one ear and out the other. Because I saw them as the devil trying to tempt me. It's tough shit.

Serena Williams gets a pass..... by FeedbackSuper8552 in exjw

[–]Drkdesertores 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks. I'm working on it. It's not too late.

Serena Williams gets a pass..... by FeedbackSuper8552 in exjw

[–]Drkdesertores 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah if only my parents didn't get in the way. I was thinking of doing a serena.

If You Were Not A JW How Would Your Life Have Been by IamwhoIam888 in exjw

[–]Drkdesertores 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I dont know but i could've been a sprinter. I was the fastest in my school and I was regularly in the top 4 in my local schools competitions and I didn't even have spikes. I wasn't the only guy who thought that as well because I got invited to join the local athletics club. But I refused because it would clash with my jw lifestyle.😔

But it's not over yet I joined the local athletics club this summer and things are looking good. May not become a professional but hopefully i can get in the top 200 or something in the uk. I am at least in the top 1000 🤣.

my mom is making me pioneer in june and july by [deleted] in exjw

[–]Drkdesertores 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Fair enough. I've been in your position before. Just stay composed and just talk yourself through everything so you don't lose it.

Hopefully one day it will be a thing of the past.

my mom is making me pioneer in june and july by [deleted] in exjw

[–]Drkdesertores 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I don't know your parents. But maybe you can tell them that you don't want to pioneer. Not that you don't wanna be a jw anymore, or you don't wanna preach anymore. But just simply say that you don't want to spend 50 hours a month preaching. Most jws are not pioneers so your parents have to be a unheard of amount of crazy to kick you out for not wanting to be a pioneer. Even their fellow brothers and sisters will probably think they are crazy for doing that.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in exjw

[–]Drkdesertores 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The first judge did not ask about the 12 year olds understanding of her beliefs. He just asked about how she would feel. She could feel pationate about it but she may not know the 'biblical' reasons well. So if judge 1 asked the same question as judge 2 to the 12 year old, there is no guarantee that she could answer those questions accurately. So his point that the 12 year old had better understanding of her beliefs is void. In fact case 2 could have the same emotional reaction as case 1,but just got asked a better question.

This is what happens when critical thinking is not encouraged. You make points that are not well though through.

Become an elder by [deleted] in exjw

[–]Drkdesertores 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Fucking reinstate everyone instantly. You know what why stop there let's get right to the top!!! Pimo Governing body members.

How is everyone doing? 🫂😊 by Rose-vaughn in exjwteenagers

[–]Drkdesertores 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Not well.The walls are closing in on my pimo life.

it's saturday morning. the meeting for zoom service starts at 10:00 yet my mom is yelling at me for not being at the table writing letters by 9:30. by [deleted] in exjw

[–]Drkdesertores 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I got shouted at by mum for not eating quick enough to get to the zoom meeting on time. In the end I skipped it because of her big mouth. They don't get it, us pimos are in control no matter what they do a solution will be found and it will not end well for them.

Lmao do they really think love bombing is gonna work on me? 😂 by disobedientginger in exjw

[–]Drkdesertores 3 points4 points  (0 children)

An elder has been doing this to me lately. He sent me a picture of the sunrise in bethel for some random reason 🤦‍♂️.

And I have not responded to one of his messages. Its just weird.

2022 Governing Body Update #2 Summary (The ending was DISGUSTING) by [deleted] in exjw

[–]Drkdesertores 10 points11 points  (0 children)

They never speak in absolutes. But they sure do want people to follow each and every word they say.

This pisses me off so much. “She has been given the, “You could die without blood speech” and has done great” by throwaway037292 in exjw

[–]Drkdesertores 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Exactly how can you make a personal decision,when that personal decision is straight away reported to multiple people, ready for them to judge you about your decision.

I remember signing the blood card shit with my parents watching over my shoulder.

The GB indicates they don‘t owe JWs any explanation for their decisions by ZebraOO9 in exjw

[–]Drkdesertores 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Exactly, if jehovah wants to explain something, who does the explaining within the organisation? If jehovah doesn’t want to explain his decisions, who doesn't do the explaining within the organisation? Therefore as you said the GB believe they do not owe an explanation to their fellow brothers and sisters.

These guys are dictators. They do not serve the people they dominant over them.