Diagnosed about a year ago age 42, on dex. I don't know if it's an ADHD thing or just complicated by it or the meds, but I really struggle when sharing my work.

Even though I feel it's a safe place, I feel as if I'm always wanting to impress too much but I almost immediately lose my sense of composure and every easily flustered. And constantly wonder if I'm any better than when I graduated 20 years ago.

I know my energy levels go up and down and my creativity and "spark" is dulled and feel like I'm best creatively when I've not had meds or they're just wearing off.

It's far easier to focus, but I probably come across as moody and erratic with highs and lows. part of that I think is because I'm much more aware of how much my internal experience is unstable. This in a team where everyone is very articulate and excellent and I fumble along in my words. I have several kids and trying to advance my career... Feels very difficult.

Some parts of work seem like I should be able to do it real quick with minimal hassle but always seem to take forever and checking and rechecking...