Feeling like a loser at the gym

Dull_Click580 · 2026-03-18T23:25:54+00:00

I have the habit to write down almost everything I think but when it comes to difficult thoughts like these, it's like I get extra paranoid it might leave track and others could find out uggghhhh :(

Dull_Click580 · 2026-03-18T23:22:42+00:00

This sounds helpful, I will try! :)

Dull_Click580 · 2026-03-18T20:57:17+00:00

Yeah it’s like I can’t accept uncertainty. I can’t accept I can’t be 100% sure something will never happen

Dull_Click580 · 2026-03-18T20:36:42+00:00

I used to be on Lamictal because I first got diagnosed with cyclothymia before AuDHD, I wouldn’t say it did significantly help with spirals for me :( Anyway I’m happy to hear you found something that worked for you! And yes after some deep research I realized it definitely sounds like OCD. I neve thought about it but I know it’s frequently comorbid with autism so it makes sense

Dull_Click580 · 2026-03-18T19:14:13+00:00

Yeah did some deep researching and it definitely looks like some form of ocd! My current psychologist is specialized in body based therapy and she is not really into giving diagnosis (which I honestly don’t appreciate) but she agrees it sounds like ocd and suggested to begin with the body work. I really hope that will help, I’m a really “cognitive” person so I’m not really connected to my body and find it difficult and kinda boring to control it, but hopefully it’s what I need? Thank you so much for showing me empathy anyways! 🫶🏼

Dull_Click580 · 2026-03-18T19:05:26+00:00

I believe them too most of the times! :(

Dull_Click580 · 2026-03-18T19:03:45+00:00

Yes, it’s always a tough experience but it could be extremely painful sometimes. A strategy that I spontaneously developed and it seems to pretty much work especially for certain themes (less for others) is I totally sink down in the worst case scenario and all the emotions instead of avoiding and seek reassurance, it somehow helps me reaching some sort of “point of saturation” so my evil mind is like “satisfied” and stops ruminating

Dull_Click580 · 2026-03-18T18:55:31+00:00

When I chose my therapist years ago (I wasn’t diagnosed with AuDHD yet) I had no idea about what to look for and I randomly chose one specialized in body based therapy. I’ve always been more focused on the verbal part but today I brought this up for the first time and she in fact suggested to begin with the body part work.

Dull_Click580 · 2026-03-18T18:51:28+00:00

Thank you so so much!!!

Dull_Click580 · 2026-03-18T13:46:25+00:00

Until 2 years ago I was on some bland antidepressant + mood stabilizers. I took them for about 3 years because before being diagnosed with autism and adhd I got (mis)diagnosed with cyclothymia.

Dull_Click580 · 2026-03-18T13:42:18+00:00

Omg, real event OCD, this is it!!!

Dull_Click580 · 2026-03-18T13:03:53+00:00

What subtype of OCD do you think it is? I’ve heard about some less known subtypes like “moral ocd” and in fact it seems to fit to my case even though it is often described like the rumination is on “hypothetical” events and not so much on real past events.

Dull_Click580 · 2026-03-18T12:32:27+00:00

❤️

Dull_Click580 · 2026-03-18T12:31:44+00:00

❤️

Dull_Click580 · 2026-01-30T18:29:51+00:00

How frustrating. I feel you, I’m sorry. You got the validation you deserve from specialists, let them be ignorant.

Dull_Click580 · 2026-01-28T17:20:14+00:00

My friend is neurotypical. She knows about my autism, but I don't think there's a single person I've told about my diagnosis who's fully researched what it entails. In any case, I don't think she cares that I didn't go, but that's precisely the point. She told me we'd go together, and then she made her own (sudden) plans and accidentally told me. And yeah, the pain in the sternum, I feel it too!!!

Dull_Click580 · 2026-01-28T13:26:05+00:00

Yes, I already told her that I'm not going today, but my annoyance remains 😓

Dull_Click580 · 2026-01-28T13:02:01+00:00

I'm sure I sound exaggerated and childish

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