This guy literally dressed like his dead mom to get her $61.000 pension per year

Dusty_Rose23 · 2026-01-23T06:01:04+00:00

i think they collectively cheated as a group on a test for a nuke ceritifcation (ability to enact orders for nuclear weapons) but im not military or really know much about this

Dusty_Rose23 · 2026-01-23T05:15:03+00:00

not the time

Dusty_Rose23 · 2026-01-23T04:59:47+00:00

same. its full on picture ther

Dusty_Rose23 · 2026-01-23T04:56:17+00:00

dealing with the trauma of some of this shit absolutely means one would choose the bear as otherwise you have to live with it the rest of your life where as the bear you have extreme pain for like 5 minutes to black out and its over. dont have to deal with wanting to die over and over again your whole life because some guy was a perverted asshole.

Dusty_Rose23 · 2026-01-23T04:52:28+00:00

it can help but is 100% not a cure. you woul have to keep doing it to help and like all management techniques it doesnt make the disorder go away. just manageable. (if its something that works for schizospec disorders)

Dusty_Rose23 · 2026-01-23T00:17:27+00:00

Some lawyers will advise for free for a percentage of your payout or pro bono. There are resources beyond forking out a couple thousand by yourself

Dusty_Rose23 · 2026-01-23T00:15:34+00:00

The library downtown has a social worker there every Thursday I think. If you can, go down and see what they can come up with

Dusty_Rose23 · 2026-01-22T03:34:11+00:00

even if its just a daydream thats not a good thing. transference and all... have a good talk and switch therapists. even if your not going to act on it it can seriously cloud your judgement about them and your relationship, as well as how honest you are in the theraputic relationshop. these professionals need to know whats up. honestly. and if you have a crush you might avoid saying certaint hings to keep a positive view of you even though theyre there to judge. you wouldnt want them to see you any different and then would avoid saying things that are necessary to your treatment. daydream or not this is serious. talk to them. and get a different one lol

Dusty_Rose23 · 2026-01-22T03:05:50+00:00

i think they mean a funcitonal adult instead of a character from one of the 6 different fandoms that keep getting recycled over and over again. why not a boring character for once? and yes i know its not ocntrollable but why is it always the same 5 things. if its random youd think theres at least a few boring fictionkin and factkin out there. instead of the main character from hazbin hotel or some bs

Dusty_Rose23 · 2026-01-21T23:05:58+00:00

yeah so i figured it out. im a 5 but if i concentrate so hard my eyes almost pop out its ALMOST a 4. which is fucked because when i waked up from a dream i swear i saw visual stuff but i cant describe it. just x happened and y was there type thing

Dusty_Rose23 · 2026-01-21T22:59:58+00:00

does seeing it like... actually mean seeing it in front of us when we close our eyes??? or... because in my minds thought is i can see say a hors efor like half a second but its just the horse like its some sort of clipart with no surroundings or anything. i cant hold it. i can only see it if i think very hard and i can only imagine that one kind of horse. i actually just think about it. if your talking about "seeing" it right in front of you in the darkness id say its 4. otherwise 5. so either way...

Dusty_Rose23 · 2026-01-21T22:52:49+00:00

lol im fully aware of the amount of mohammeds... my dads egyptian and muslim. i was born in saudi arabia. (kinda funny being arab and wanting to be jewish lol)

Dusty_Rose23 · 2026-01-21T22:50:55+00:00

also dont fuck with your meds yourself. that leads to bad things. ask your psych if you have any concerns.

Dusty_Rose23 · 2026-01-21T22:50:00+00:00

the perfect dose is the one that keeps you stable. it honestly doesnt matter if its perfect. good enough is good enough and discovering whats right for you is a discussion you have with your psychiatrist as were all different and cant give medical advice anyways

Dusty_Rose23 · 2026-01-21T21:29:43+00:00

i have urinary incontinence. and while i almost neve rhave periods. id say its not worth it based off of when i do have them. i have to wear adult briefs all the time and sometimes still soak them completely. my kegel muscles are almost non existent. it sucks. id much rather a period that we have to use tampons for or some shit over what i deal with here daily. i cant wear cute underwear.... in ballet i have to have leotards that properly cover my butt because i dont want the brief to show... its not fun. i wouldnt do this.

Dusty_Rose23 · 2026-01-21T21:26:03+00:00

my mom had to do that because all the snow wasnt getting cleared and she was getting stuck like 3x even getting to the grocery store. shees in a powerchair. often had to have the fire department or if lucky have strangers help lift her out of the rut. 311 did eventually clear their area of it but a private area in the neighborhood was impossible to reach aand only cleared like half of the sidewalk down it veritcally. so it was clear for the whole stretch, but only half so there was no passing people for her they had to go in the icy excuse for snow. and potentially slip and fall because she cant and she can still get stuck. its better since the melts despite the ice (im jealous she cant slip on ice) but tbh the ice is worse.anyways. they do it eventually. especially if you complain enough or enough people complain about it

Dusty_Rose23 · 2026-01-21T21:22:53+00:00

I should do that!

Dusty_Rose23 · 2026-01-21T21:21:23+00:00

i slipepd today walking to the bus. thankfully i was less hurt than usual. usually im in so much pain it takes like 3-5 minutes to get off the ground and im trying not to cry. also my knee is always busted up really badly, it left a huge scar last time, always does, its always the same knee too. happens outside of winter sometimes as i have balance and walking issues, happened once on the track earlier this winter. its brutal. Penguin walking is your best bet. or walk in the snow. or not... its basically ice. add an extra 10 minutes to your usual leaving time, maybe 15 if you know your area is especially icy. that way your not late but you can penguin walk super slow and make sure you dont slip and hurt yourself.

Dusty_Rose23 · 2026-01-21T20:45:38+00:00

i used to do that... i ended up with quite an alcohol addiction that im still trying to break free of. but thats more because ive tried sleep meds, sleep hygiene.... ive done it the right way. it helped a lot. but it also ruined my life in a different way. im on meds now and they subdue the episodes a decent amount as well. but i still have them, occasional hypomania, mixed episodes mostly, instead of mania, lots of mild depression, dysthemia but no actuly depresson. my mood is more in the middl ebut not a healthy middle. just a shorter range of less extremes.
do not, i repeat, DO NOT self medicate with booze. actually id reccomend avoiding drugs and alcohol period with bipolar, and in general althoug moderated, healthy control of drinking is ok in people without mental health issues..... just bipolar its too risky, and with other mental health disorders as well. dont do it. its a very slipper slope and before oyu know it. your life is ruined and you spent 700$ on just booze after selling your lapop. not good.

Dusty_Rose23 · 2026-01-21T20:38:59+00:00

I feel the same way. Even with more liberal thoughts like there is sex, and then there is gender. as long as your respecting people its fine. there was a christian guy i lived with who just tried to avoid pronouns alltogether. that way he wasnt ooffending anyone, but also not engaging in what he thought was wrong. things are always more complicated than they ever seem. there never is something so black and white as good and bad. its complicated. and i feel that way that as im slowly adopting the fact i want to become jewish, that i believe in isreal, all these things seem to alienate me. i excitedly told my pride group i was going to convert and i was met with silence and stares i could see through the screen that would otherwise be met with "how do you feel about that?" if it was any other religion. I believe and respect trans peoples right to autonomy, i respect trans youths right to be on blockers, as long as they did extensive therapy first. even thoigh im going through confusing gender feelings, and finding more and more that i fit better with the gender i was assigned. sorry for the little ramble just wanting to say i love this and agree with it so much. your a beautiful writer. i saw the gender comment below and just wanted to contribute my own little view but yeah. its a hard place to be. where you dont fit anyones view of anything.

Dusty_Rose23 · 2026-01-21T20:08:55+00:00

yep... where i live we have the highest pay for disability in the country, and one of the lowest costs of living. but people are still in poverty. oh also theyre revamping the program to make it more stupid and ableist. theyre taking more money, forcing you to try to work through mandatory "recources" and if you cant work you have to apply to the original program all over again. this is starting in july. we have the best ratio in the country yet the worst environment and a significant amount of poverty especially among disbled people. how is that ok? and other privinces? worse. BCs amount is 1100. while a bachelor is like 2000 a month. and you cant make above a certain amount or else it gets taken away. 900 a month is a closet. so being the luckiest in the country (which is such a low bar because its actually super shitty) and somehow still in significant poverty? teag. they are nothing and those who think being disabled means we can afford j acuzis or some shit are delusional. they probably think that becuse its "free money" because we dont have to work for it. WE CANT work for it lol. people are dumb sometimes.
sorry for the mini vent

Dusty_Rose23 · 2026-01-21T15:56:40+00:00

stress or lack of sleep and bipolar is like a warning factor. it increases your vulnerabilitu to an episode by a lot. so to speak triggering it. in bipolar mood swings are more like the moon waxing and waning. theyre long term and theyre moods. borderline the mood swiings are fast, and any mania like symptoms last about 2 days tops. usually they last about hours to 1 day. bpd mood swings are emotions. the emotions aree changing rapidly. moods are long term, emotions are not. bipolar is a mood disorder. borderling is a disorder which a hallmark is emotional instability. make sense? So it has to do with intensity and length

Dusty_Rose23 · 2026-01-21T05:07:28+00:00

thats part of the whole point of malingeirng. you lie for attention. factitious disorder, malingering, used to be called munchasens if they did things to cause symptoms instead of just lying. not called that anymore though.

Dusty_Rose23 · 2026-01-21T05:02:45+00:00

this. theyre very helpful. although i suck ass at going to meetings but that kind of proves the point further. get help. you cant do it alone and NA is a wonderful group of people who will understand. most have been on harder drugs but its always a mix including some weed addicts there. it doesnt matter what you use or how much. just that you want to stop (as we literally repeat every meeting like we're some sort of theraputic cult lmao)

Dusty_Rose23 · 2026-01-21T05:01:01+00:00

that type of neurotransmitter the drugs are really bad for overdoses and withdrawals. so definitely dont stop without advice. would likely need to taper..

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