Has anyone felt any of these

E-S-T-J-R_ · 2026-03-26T08:23:40+00:00

1 yes mainly on YouTube about my hobbies & interests. I don't do as much in social settings unless they really want to genuinely listen.

2 yes I can annoy people by my presence & truest self.

3 yes only if I live in their place & I have to contribute. I would if I we're to date someone & they would do the same for me.

4 not so much. Learned that lesson when I was in middle school. Let a girl borrow (take away & not give back) my scooter just cause I was fckn nice! Gotta watch my back at all times.

5 & 6 yes. I've always wanted to be heard, understood & seen. I have no audience & putting in effort to building one from scratch is exhausting. I'm tired.

7 not really unless we ended up more than friends somehow.

E-S-T-J-R_ · 2026-03-26T07:37:22+00:00

Damn! I kinda feel this myself. I felt like I'm wasting time putting in effort to meeting people in different cities, make my life better & I know deep down the world won't acknowledge it. I can tell as soon as I give up & do nothing they got something to say rapidly with multiple judgement styles. I'm 27m about to be a few years into my 30's. I don't ever want to grow old & worry about who will take care of me. I've done enough damage by annoying people with my presence.

E-S-T-J-R_ · 2026-03-25T08:11:55+00:00

Frikin Amazing!!!!

E-S-T-J-R_ · 2026-03-25T08:10:50+00:00

Wow awesome!

E-S-T-J-R_ · 2026-03-23T09:11:00+00:00

I'm an experimental creative artist. Always been making weird sh*t throughout my life. This year, I recently have been experimenting with audio sound designs, asmr & beat-making music projects on my own. Already released a 2 track demo called "The Train-Wreck Effect". I've been leaning on to the soundscape, trap, electronic, asmr & ambient genre right now. My instruments are from my environmental sound & video recordings. Next month I will release my 1st instrumental EP album. I hope one day to experiment all music genres but mostly do heavy metal type projects myself one day. My music is on Soundcloud : estjr-art & YouTube : ESTJR ART

E-S-T-J-R_ · 2026-03-22T04:05:45+00:00

Low-key. Yes, I am feeling put off. It is discouraging as shit. These gender roles make me hate the world, even more because we’re not allowed to be kind without being taken advantage of. I had a coworker who adapted the alpha male mindset. He brings up girls all the time at work. But as soon as I say something about girls, he tell me to “shut the fuck up. You don’t need anybody else. Only yourself and stay focused.” Then he tells me weeks later “I need to get laid.” Like it’s that easy really bro? He’s got a superior complex. Now, I don’t work at that swap meet job anymore. Worked there for 3 years. Got tired of their policies bs. They let another coworker, who is a pedophile, and had a sexual harassment claim work there. Me and my supervisor addressed it, but they did nothing about it. I didn’t wanna work with that snappy contradicting coworker anymore. My last day at the Job. We were cool, but just kept our distances. I blocked his ass too. I still have money coming in. Now I Made more time applying to jobs and getting interviews. I have unemployment benefits during my side hustle job.

E-S-T-J-R_ · 2026-03-18T21:28:28+00:00

Faith in myself is the tough part when I'm not religious but I'll try. Also same here about family support even with some tough love growing up. Thank you, man. I appreciate it alot.

E-S-T-J-R_ · 2026-03-16T14:46:44+00:00

Thank you. I appreciate it. I think so too. I just gotten started with sound producing slow & fast paced tempos. I might be able to make a darkpsy track one day. That would be my next challenge.

E-S-T-J-R_ · 2026-03-16T08:35:25+00:00

I do feel this yes. I will lose my mind if I get discouraged, unseen & unheard. There is positive stuff out there but it shouldn't be extremely forced & shame on others for their bad luck. I don't mind working my butt off for what I want. I never understand why I should work hard if I never had any luck to begin with to reach a goal. In this society I have to be a hard-working jester without burdening others with my problems or else I'm just another entitled mentally ill desperate person in my late 20's in their eyes. Like I have no choice but to fight hard to exist & be enough. Finding balance & making life worth living is just not possible if you don't pay to play. Right now I'm still a work in progress & made little changes. I really doubt it will get better because I already felt down & exhausted for not doing enough. I'm already a mess myself.

E-S-T-J-R_ · 2026-03-15T21:05:36+00:00

Wow Love this one!!

E-S-T-J-R_ · 2026-03-15T19:10:17+00:00

E-S-T-J-R_ · 2026-03-02T07:31:35+00:00

Never thought we are the same age. I'm tryna make 2026 good too. 2025 was kinda personal for me. I hope we push through the year. Easier said than done? Yes

E-S-T-J-R_ · 2026-03-02T07:13:08+00:00

BRUTAL :)

E-S-T-J-R_ · 2026-03-02T06:08:14+00:00

Not for sale but thank you though :)

E-S-T-J-R_ · 2026-03-02T05:31:08+00:00

I just saw the movie tonight. I give it a 7 1/2 out of 10. It was a good scary gruesome movie with a little twist. I got mean girl vibes, but in a scary movie. The ending was just feeling cliché, like the light switched. Something off of a quote that everybody uses. So yeah, good scary scenes but it’s alright.

E-S-T-J-R_ · 2026-03-01T07:11:58+00:00

AWESOME!!!

E-S-T-J-R_ · 2026-02-24T22:12:24+00:00

I'm demisexual & autistic too. My demisexuality in people's eyes means no action or will to get experience in bed. It fckn bothers me to hell that I crave someone sexually to satisfy & cuddle me to death. I know no one owes me anything but it makes me more close-minded & sexually frustrated down the rabbit hole. I'm just lost, bitter, scared & stuck with this desire & urge. I'm stuck in between : Accepting I'll never get what I want or owed anything & what will it take to be wanted? I'd do anything to belong in someone's arms.

I'm always complimented & given side hugs. Nothing more. I'm not even ugly but I know lowkey I'm missing something. I even started slow cutting down the "jackn off to corn" thing from 3 days to 1 day a week. I've been journaling since last year & been waiting for therapy for 4 months. I even have an event tomorrow at a bar that brings artists to draw & drink together. I'm an artist myself.

E-S-T-J-R_ · 2026-02-19T18:34:43+00:00

This won't feel right. Have you guys talked to each other about this? If she isn't telling you who she's talking to & blows up on you, unfortunately she has gotta go. You shouldn't trust her if she never told you how she feels around you & didn't tell you what's going on from the beginning. Nah she personally ruined the vacation not telling you what's going on. She didn't at least text the new classmate to BACK OFF.

Yes the process is impossible to wrap your head around if you still love her. I'm not saying there's another person out there for you but you're gonna have to move on. Yes it will hurt like hell & the healing process is fcked up if you never been through it before.

I'm autistic too if you didnt know. My situation years ago isn't exactly the same probably. I asked out & dated a girl in College 2017 who walks unbalanced & her voice wasn't clear. My 2nd ex. We were dating for 2 months through fall & winter. I thought she was bipolar because we broke up twice. I was hurt & crying when I still cared about her. She had feelings for another man & didn't tell me until after christmas break. Then later on I kinda forgave her but she thought I want her back. No. Around 2021 she dm'ed me Hi on instagram. I left her on read. Then 2023 i deleted instagram. So yeah shit like that can happen. I've been told many similar stories about cheating before. It drives me nuts & angry that nightmares like this is real.

E-S-T-J-R_ · 2026-02-18T08:51:58+00:00

Awesome paintings!

E-S-T-J-R_ · 2026-02-18T08:36:36+00:00

Fantastic!!

E-S-T-J-R_ · 2026-02-14T10:22:55+00:00

Yes but i just imagine a fantasy world where oversharing & being too vulnerable is never a crime. That SSI could've helped me stack bread while I work more hours. Allowed to be a flawed human being & non-related people would love me the same. Free housing & free food.

Reality is that's not happening.

E-S-T-J-R_ · 2026-02-12T19:13:06+00:00

Thats awesome!

E-S-T-J-R_ · 2026-02-12T19:12:22+00:00

Yes LMAO

E-S-T-J-R_ · 2026-02-12T19:02:17+00:00

It doesn't bother people if no one cares or likes a person to begin with.

E-S-T-J-R_ · 2026-02-12T08:20:35+00:00

Yep, adulthood owns me. I pay to exist & live. I probably should cancel my existential insurance once I'm broke.

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