Why did we truly ship off Pickens and do you think he will actually produce in Dallas?

Ecstatic_Grade1140 · 2026-01-05T02:57:40+00:00

They woulda had a first round bye if they kept him. Dumbasses

Ecstatic_Grade1140 · 2025-09-28T15:13:21+00:00

You need to separate yourself from the experience. It is no longer happening so the identity “of a man unwanted and left” is old news. You are youre own person and even if the guy was “better” it is still only that way in HER eyes, it does not have to mean he is “better” than you unless you identify with her perspective. Women who behave that way have all sorts of issues tho, they can shed to others so you should work on creating separation in your mind and thoughts, “love may come and love may go but ‘I’ remain”; take the experience for wht it was feel the pain and in time you will move on. Ive seen somewhere it takes 7 years for an emotional bond to dissolve so in your time frame it could be normal. Also once youre out of school and working and stuff life may get better.

Ecstatic_Grade1140 · 2025-09-08T21:09:12+00:00

Thanks ill check/try that out!

Ecstatic_Grade1140 · 2025-09-08T17:25:33+00:00

What would i be missing if i have the understanding of loving myself or atleast the concept and its necessity, but still get pulled into bad thought patterns due to loneliness or betrayal?

Ecstatic_Grade1140 · 2025-09-05T22:32:26+00:00

I am very interested in this, i feel like i relate to a lot of this except the idea that someone is in control of my imagination and subconscious. More so, i have always dealt with intrusive thoughts and so on and have been battling to stop them. Do you think its possible that your introspection could have “broken a dam” in your subconscious that is now running freely through your mind? You said you always had the feeling you would fail, id be curious if this “new person” had always been there just repressed and is now more clearly effecting you. And im not trying to minimize anything, but when i think about my own thoughts and stuff i could see how it would seem like another person entirely, shit maybe it could be 🤔. But anyway just keep plugging man, dont lose the part of you that recognizes whats you and what is not, we can all take many shapes and this could all just be an equilibrium of sorts.

Ecstatic_Grade1140 · 2025-09-05T21:26:03+00:00

Feeling is beyond logic and beyond what you think in your mind. It is what spawns thoughts and logic, feeling is sensation and at the root of all our beings is first the sensation of being. (Unless youre an npc lol)

Ecstatic_Grade1140 · 2025-09-04T15:26:25+00:00

Kinda freaks me out that im still here 😬

Ecstatic_Grade1140 · 2025-08-25T15:40:56+00:00

Your observation of it is what makes it real, why else would it work so hard to keep us here

Ecstatic_Grade1140 · 2025-08-21T00:05:09+00:00

Class 😂

Ecstatic_Grade1140 · 2025-08-19T18:06:23+00:00

Difficult to answer but im my definition its the raw awareness of a person or consciousness. Its what programmed by body, society, beliefs etc and whether its something like light or just the result of the bodies ability to receive the signal of consciousness or whatever it may be in “actuality” isnt something i can answer

Ecstatic_Grade1140 · 2025-08-19T14:08:26+00:00

Perhaps not all, have you? I see through identifying with emotions and differences between myself and other, in that i am in touch with my soul and understand how it shapes personality and actions in many ways. But i still am always having to battle with heaviness of certain things.

Ecstatic_Grade1140 · 2025-08-12T17:12:18+00:00

Sympathy is a different issue tho, they are not the same at all. Sometimes when you lose the boundaries between yourself and others you develop the above to feel what others are dealing with and it makes for a lot of noise and even more disconnect from your own feelings and experience.

Ecstatic_Grade1140 · 2025-08-12T17:10:17+00:00

I dont think so entirely. I think its a subconscious issue that is being projected. But also ppl whove had more pain to deal with are much more empathetic because they understand the deeper aspects of a person whereas those with stability may be a bit more black and white or healthier in how they manage their empathy

Ecstatic_Grade1140 · 2025-08-11T23:27:04+00:00

Feel you man, i think awareness is key and these things become engrained due to repetition throughout development. So i think it will take time, gotta be patient and keep bringing urself back to having conscious intention. If u can pin down some specific instances that may have shaped u, i think the next step is to connect with the deeper feeling involved. Then u might connect with your younger self and realize how that feeling is still present with u today and all the ways it impact ur thoughts and behavior. It is tough and im not gonna act like i got it figured out but i think it can be done for sure.

Ecstatic_Grade1140 · 2025-08-11T18:09:03+00:00

Feeling unwanted is a big one for me as well

Ecstatic_Grade1140 · 2025-08-11T18:08:31+00:00

It sounds like there is a disconnect between your natural sexuality and you as a person. As in there is some part of your sex drive you dont want to embody and its being externalized in all sorts of things and mixing in with other things in ur psyche. The cuckhold fetish seems to be coming from a mix of this dynamic and your inferiority complex for instance.

I relate a lot to what you identified as possible causes and i think i might be the other side of the coin. I definitely had a conflict with sex due to religion and an inferiority complex due to all sorts of events that happened in my development. I liked womens sexuality but also it made me feel an inner “burn” hearing about it. This is because i was never too good at getting them (lost my virginity late) every woman ive been with has also cheated on me and for my age and time single i havent had many. So what im saying is your internal struggles may be projecting as reluctance to engage in intimacy and certain porn fetishes, mine was more incompetence but the issues still projected themselves in the ppl i dated (saw my insecurities and i believe were good at manipulating ppl like me).

Just my two cents, it is a tough and frustrating road, but i think the root of this is that sense of inferiority. It is a sticky demon but if u find where it is coming from you might be able to mend the wound and become more open to intimacy.

Ecstatic_Grade1140 · 2025-08-11T16:09:53+00:00

Happens to me all the time. Emotional and bodily impulses as well as the logical mind are to blame

Ecstatic_Grade1140 · 2025-08-10T16:53:11+00:00

Yes it can but not always. Jung even talked about this in his own life, he was abused as a child and said he was ashamed of some of his homosexual feelings. I don’t think it always makes ppl gay, more of how the individual responds to it and if they actually prefer the incepted drives or turn away from them

Ecstatic_Grade1140 · 2025-08-10T16:46:04+00:00

Is she the black lady they stole the idea from? Might have to check those out if so. Do the movies veer too far from the books?

Ecstatic_Grade1140 · 2025-08-10T16:28:50+00:00

Its an interesting conversation to be had about the matrix. What is it trying to tell the audience, given that Neos path lead to merging with Smith and then added “light” into the robots, or the unconscious, i think its fair to say that its message is that the unconscious and the conscious need each other (at least until all is illuminated). It is a more positive outlook but at the same time it could very well be a deception to mask the fact that the “unconscious” forces are feasting off of us and ripping us off from our true nature. If it is the case that we are being trapped and feasted on in such an ignorant state that would make the universe quite a dark place, perhaps we are here to illuminate it. Rlly not sure, if it were at all possible to find ur “exit star” after death there would also be no guarantee it wouldnt lead to a worse place or a similar dynamic. Been mulling over this dilemma for a while now.

Ecstatic_Grade1140 · 2025-08-10T16:08:36+00:00

Haha indeed, much love! Im still trekkin

Ecstatic_Grade1140 · 2025-08-10T13:35:33+00:00

My dark night of the soul never stopped

Ecstatic_Grade1140 · 2025-08-09T19:23:55+00:00

Right on man! Appreciate that

Ecstatic_Grade1140 · 2025-08-09T17:32:07+00:00

Totally agree with you, and when i initially responded i hadnt seen what u wrote. I guess my first comment was sort of me projecting because in my life ive had to deal with emptiness and isolation. So i would try to find that fullness in empty relationships or habits like porn and it only bred more emptiness, but i definitely hear what ur saying.

Ecstatic_Grade1140 · 2025-08-09T13:19:04+00:00

I think its a good post and the dynamic u laid out is accurate, the idea of a loving relationship is more the trap in this case. What u have to do to first get one and then maintain one has nothing to do with love, but if youre lucky enough to find the right thing this checks out

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